One paper left for this place we call Canisius! So why can't I start it? The teacher just extended the deadline from 5 today to 5 tomorrow so you know what that means more procrastination. So am I not starting it because I fear the future and what it brings and don't want to be finished with college. Is it a deep psychological desire to preserve what I have and not accept change and moving on? Or am I just a lazy procrastinator? I'll let the public decide for themselves on this one....

So tomorrow is my last day of undergrad college classes at Canisius!!! How insane!! College flew by and I can't belive it is over. I don't think all the tears will be shed like they were at highschool graduation but it is still crazy. I didn't think I would really care as I didn't get that attached to this school but lately I am starting to get upset about it!!! Well here's hoping that my last day tomorrow is a good one and Quad Party is superbly extraordinarily fun for my last time!!! Its already starting as a good day as I just checked my Canisius e-mail and found out I won $200 in a drawing for this test that they needed seniors to take about critical thinking. I wonder what I will do with it. Actually probably pay for my car repairs but still that is exciting!!!

OK because of Littleho's entry I am going to turn a sad event into a good one. So this weekend was kinda crappy because of some miscommunication or noncommunication. I kinda hate how things ended and wish we could have talked about it or something. I am very confused by the whole situation and I hope we get to talk again and work it out and be friends or sometyhing. I hope you had a good bday anyway and you know who you are!!! Anyway, now the positive....With the money I saved this weekend by not taking out to dinner and by returning the gifts I can give myself a nice little shopping spree!!! Shopping Sprees always make me feel better. I could use some sunglasses, shorts, summerwear in general. I need new flip flops too. By the by, I went to Kohl's the other day and it was not fantastic. It actually is really far down Niagara Falls Blvd (and i missed it the first time and ended up al lthe way at the Outlet mall before turning around) but also it was kinda just like bleh. They had some cheap stuff but nothing great and I hate the setup and the carts. I'm sorry but department stores just aren't built for carts!!!!!!!!! There is no room in the little aisles!! I like my department stores to be department store -like not discount store like , then I can just go to Target. Maybe I care about my store setups too much. Anyway this weekend I plan on having some shopping fuN!!!!!

How funny that like two days ago I was thinking, wow life is going really good for me. And now it is all down the tubes. Everything switched so fast. Maybe it is all my fault, maybe not, either way it sucks. I guess I just wasn't cut out for some things I thought I was. I never mean to hurt people, I guess I don't always realize what my actions say. What makes it worst of all is that today marks the less than a month point before Teres and Jill leave me forever. They are the two people I have either hung out wiht or at least talked to almost evryday for at least the last eight years. What I will do without them I do not jknow! Probably be sad a lot, I honestly have no idea how I will deal with it!!!! Of course there will be fun friends here in the b-lo to hang out with but I honestly can not imagine Teres and Jill not being here. Its just something I've never had to expeirece and I don't know how i will. I'm sure I'll write more abou tthis later but for now it is all very sad. Too many sad things hapenning righ tnow!

So the other day on the way home from school I innocently turn on to W. Delevan and then see a cop with its lights on behind me. So of course, I think what the heck have I done, and pull over to the side of the road. So the cop stops behidn me but does't get out or anyting and I don't know what to do since I have only been pulled over by the Kenmore Po before and they get out of their car pretty fast. Anywho then the cop car starts to honk at me. I have no idea what that means. So i stay pulled over and it honks again. So I begin to drive again but then it follows me again with its lights on so I pull over again. And it honks again. And I am wondering if that means like I did something really bad. Why won't it go past me I wonder? Like if it isn't pulling me over why doesn't it go around? So after it lays the horn on I start to drive again. Then I see another cop car speeding down the street towards me an dI think OMG he called for backup because I am evading them or soemthing even though I don't think I have done anything. So the second cop car goes and blocks the street on W. Delevan and Delaware and I think Holy Crap I am in so much trouble, even though I really didn't think I was being pulled over. AND THEN I REALIZE it was a funeral procession and I kept blocking it by pulling over. Like he couldn't lead the whole pakc of cars around me and was honking so I would keep driving. OOPS! But why coudn't the cop have made some kind of gesture to show or explain what was going on? Anywho I'm thaknslful that I wasn't carted off to jail but it was really a ridiculous situation. !