Can something be the best thing that has happened to you and the worst thing at the same time? Well not the worst, but like in one way it was a great time and I just loved it (THANKS TERES) but then it just at the same time reminds me of what I don't/can't have. So good but so bad. I don't know it makes more sense in my head.

ok i seirusoly have been searchign for a song for like an hour or more that applies to how i feel right now and cna't find one, i guess this one is sorta close, sorta in a way:

I don't know who I'm kidding,
imagining you care,
and i could stand here waiting,
a fool for another day,
but i don't suppose it's worth the hhprice, worth the price the price that i would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pian
There's nothing left to reason
WIll it ever change?


Ok that's not right at all now that I am reading it over again, wlel kinda but that sounds sad and I am not sad I am happyesque so hmm I don't know. I'll try to find a better one

Why oh why do I loathe thee scriptwriting class? I love writing scripts and thinking of stories but now that I am forced to do it for a grade, I can't stand it and the characters and stories I am creating are the worst. Well actually this last one Frank O'Malley is pretty good but it took me forever to com up with him and I keep changing what he is all about. We had to answer like 38 qustoins about our character and my sheet is covered in cross outs and redos.

On another note, I got the first spot next to the door in the parking ramp today! IT WAS AWESOME! Especially since it is snowing a little. I think it may actually be where they were piling the snow but enough had melted that I could get my car on it, Woohoo now hopefully i can just get my car out of the spot later.!!!

So things in my life seem to be changing lately, and anyone who knows me know I despise change more than anything in the world but yet for some reason this time it seems like it may be a good thing. I don't know, I think things may be changing for the better which is most likely a phrase I have never uttered before. We'll see!!!

Also, I wanna go see Movin' Out at Shea's. Has anyone seen it? Liked it? Billy Joel songs are good and so are musicals. I think it is next week though so I should prolly look into that soon!

Is it wrong to get the majority of your outlook on life solely from all the different MaryKate and Ashley Olson tv shows? I mean not solely Full House, but also two of a kind, their show with the models and their numerous movies? They just seem to have something to say about everything in life.

So they say doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result is a sign of insanity....all i can say is uh oh!

I did two things I really hate myself for today, although they may not seem that bad to the outside observer but they are two things I swear against doing.

1. I was ok with a parking in a handicapped space becuase we had a parking handicpaped tag in the car. Peolple who do that seriously I usually think are the scum of the earth taking a spoace away from a handicapped person yet I partook in the devilsih practice todya. All I can say is my guilt is overwhelming and I will never do it again. I find some solace in the fact that there were two other spots that were open and so noone went without.

2. I left church right after communion and didn't' wait until the end of mass. But i coudlnt' get back to my seat and got frustrated and just left.

things are just slippinig out of control all around me and i don't like it!!!