Lauren Miller, a sophomore at Fredonia College died this weekend in a car accident. While I never knew her, any friend of Marykate's must be a great person. It is terribly tragic for anyone so young to die. Please keep her in your prayers. To Everyone at Fredonia, especially Marykate, my heart goes out to you and while I know I can't possibly understand what you guys are going through, I'm thinking about you.

So tonight me and Jill went to Coffee & , where they have the best drink in the world. It is a mocha Jet Cafe. The one worker introduced me to it when I was looking for a mocha shake and I am so glad he did b/c seriously it is the best drink ever and I am addicted and I recommend everyone go get it! After coffe & me and JIll sat in the car and sang the line "Too shy to shy hush hush eye to eye" over and over and over changes our vocies and our volume. It was just too much fun. The two guys Jill has a crsuh on were at Coffee & working which was good for her and I did my best to embarass her by saying their name out loud and doing the sideways walk. I'm not sure how often I am going to update this journal cuz I am losing interest a little bit. But we'll see

Oh my gosh! I love the song Have you ever seen the rain? It is really good. I had heard it before but forgot about it and then it was in some tv show today and it was so good!!! I am working steadily on my soap opera scripts so as soon as me and MK figure out a way to transfer stuff from my computer to hers and then onto a website, we will be the best online soap opera ever. And I can't wait to tape it. I'm always looking for actors/actresses. Well really who knows when I am going to tape but if/when I do, I will need lots of people. So I was thinking of taking this online journal in a new direction. I was thinking of being the elmwoodstrip.com gossip columnist. Sort of like the Dorothy Lucey of Good Day LIve but instead me and elmwoodstrip.com. WWe'll see. I could keep everyone up to date on the latest celebrity happenings and local going ons. Hmm but for today I'll still keep it as about my ramblings. Last night me and Jill had a hankering for some Tully's but htey were closed due ot water damage or something. It was so crappy! I wanted it so bad. So then after debating where to go for like an hour we decided to go to Gabriel's Gate wehre there was another like half hour wait and then they sat us in the little table in a corner in the back. The waitress totally forgot aabout us and we didn't get our check for like six days. She proabably couldn't see us in the corner. But i did enjoy the free popcorn although they do have that at Tully's too. Then we went to Spot and I tried to get someone to go talk to the guy they love at a different coffee shop but they wouldn't. But that's ok cuz we all know I wouldn't talk to anyone either. THen on the ride to Hollywood Vdieo in complete silence we realized we had nothing to say. Like we had said everything there is to say. It was a little werid. But we still had fun, well i did, i'm not so sure jill did. I think she was quite not happy. And I told her she seemed not happy. And then when the cashier at Hollywood Video asked "how are you?" and most normal people give the customary ok or something liek that jill instead says "I'm fine but if you ask him, i need mental help". It made me look like an abusive b/f kinda. NOt that i'm abusive nor her b/f but i looked it. It was real classy looking. We rented some movie with Elijah wood, Mandy Moore and the girl from Run Lola Run. It was an ok movie, not too bad, not amzing but closer to good than bad. We were going to rent the Lizze McGuire and Amanda Bynes movie but decided that is when we are really desperate although secretly those are the movies we want to see most. I think this is the last entry where I talk about what me and JIll did the night before unless it is something exciting. I have prolly put most readers to sleep by now, well that is assuming anyone reads this.

Hmm what else.... I don't know what to do. I sometimes get these urges to just like scream and yell and just like clear the air on things but then I don't cuz I realize what will that gain me especially when I think like something has passed. But then it seems like it always comes up again later and if I could just have had it all out earlier i feel like it wouldn't come up again. If I just fully dealt with things then maybe I wouldn't have to relive them all the time. Who knows! Maybe it wouldn't do anything. I don't wnat anyone to read into that that I am mad at them, cuz that is not what it is. Grrr! I say Grrr a lot. Someone told me long ago, there's a calm before the storm, I know, its been coming for some time, when its over so they say it will rain a sunny day, I know, shining down like water, I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain? You know what today it was super raining for like five minutes while i had to be outside, it was insane.

So Bob, the pharmacist at work is leaving today. It is sad for two reasons. Well one is cuz he was a good pharmacist and they seem hard to come by lately. Secondly, he was part of my commun
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ons project b/c we never have anything to say to each other really for some reason so part of my project was trying to have more conversation with him. But I guess that its too late now. Eh. The Bills lost in a terrible game today. People were coming into Eckerd during the game. What freakin losers. It was weird like one lady today told me that I was the most competent tech there and that she is so glad I work there, (and no this isn't the lady who told me if she were forty years younger we'd have a fling..ewww) and then like two customers later a lady told me she like gave me this rx to put on file and dtodl me this stuff last time i was there and that I had messed it all up and I was so bad. Hmm maybe she is crazy. That is what i think. There is generic paxil now. People are happy cuz they can get their happy drugs and for less now. Which makes them happy too. So I'm glad for them. Banana Rum is good. You should try it although I don't advocate drinking. I really want a JetCafe from Coffee & right now but they are prolly lcosed. That's too sad. Cuz i really want one. Also it is werid cuz I am there everyday and I don't want them to think I am a stalker or something. Although they prolly don't even notice I am there so much. IT's so funny that me and my friends always assume everyoen notices us and remembers us. Well actaully they prolly do b/c we always end up being loud and obnoxius and possible wrestling to the ground at the register. Whatev! I really want to read this book called Glitter something or other. No not the Mariah Carey movie, but a book about somle college students at OXford in england, It seemed interesante.

I saw the movie 13 at the movies the other day. It was crazy. When I was 13 the worst thing I did was light cigarettes on the kitchen stove and singe my friends eyebrows. These girls were crazy in the movie. And it is based on a real story sorta i think. Insanity.

I'm so sad that Vix is going out of business. I love that store!!! It is seriously heaven and OMG even biggere news they lowered the raised level of the Eastern Hills Mall food court. It is insane. That was what made it so cool!! Now where can we eat our abosorbant amounts of orange chicken from China Panda. Now we have to sit down low, like we're nobodies. Structure/Express is having a big sale and I recommend it. They had tons of stuff for $10. They say it is their biggest fall sale ever and I believe it cuz it is pretty big.

So Jen got a new roomate again. That is three rooms in three weeks. Insanity. Poor Jen. But at least she likes her roomates and they seem nice. She also has a stalker which is exciitng. Well not so much a stalker as a kid who likes her and follows her around and buys her stuff. You know what I just realized I only use the word kid to refer to boys usually not girls. If its a girl I'll say girl but if its a guy i'll say kid. Strange. Anyway, I can't wait to go visit Jen at crazy RIT. And i am going to Freodnia too soon hopefully. Craziness.

I keep buying cds like they are going out of style. Well actaully most of the ones I buy have gone out of style. Thank god for Frizby's used cd store on my corner. I bought Scream 2 sndtck., and MC Hammer cd, and a soul for real cd that has candyrain on it. Candyrain is an amazing song. I think the owner of Frisbee's definetely knows me as the kid who buys the cds noone else will and has the craziest collection. I also bought the Outkast cd this week. It was not so good. I may have already written about it, I don't remember. But i think they should not have made individual cds but stuck together instead. They are much better together than separate. Ok i guess I have written enough for this time, so i'll end with a line from whatever song is playing on my computer right now, "Hot Cha where are you? Everybody's eyes are closed, so hotcha where are you?"

Well nothing too exciting is going on in my life but this weekend I went to Fredonia to visit MaryKate for a night. Me and JIll went and it was crazy because we didn't call her ahead of time and realized when we got there that we don't know where she lives on campus, abut as we pulled over in a parking lot to call her she happened to be walking by. What are the freakin chances of that. It was lucky we saw her there cuz she was on her way out for the night. What craziness. Then we hung out wiht some chamber singers. They had a cool thing called dance dance revolution or something like that where you cm pete dancing on these pads . I didn't do it but it looked liek a lot of fun. We got to meet MK's love interest. It is my goal in life to hook MK up. Well anywho i am prolly going back to Freodnia this weekend maybe unless MK is too busy to ever visit with me while I am there sinc eshe is always so busy. We'll see. And if i do go I won't leave until MK is hooked up. At Fredonia all of mk's friends say beast all the time n ow and it is annoying cuz Beast is teres's nickname so I always think they are talking about her. At Tim Hortons i met crazy whorish David and Pat's ex-b/f MinHo or soemthing like that. I like meeting all these people i have heard about even nif they do scare me a little. My unibrow is growing in nicely right now , i should prolly do something about that. Jill's boyfirend at Pano's is hitting on her more and mor eeveryday. He complemented her shoes the other day and gave her the heads up on the amvets sale that was today. Now that i think about it i don't think she went to the sale. She so let him down. Thats sad for him. NOw i would like to quote Reba "If you live with a man named Toast you are going to get the bong passed to you a lot" Classic friday night WB. The zach and kelly breakup just came on my computer. It is so sad. One of the saddest in tv history. I'll give you a brief synopsis "kelly what happend I thought you loved me" "I do love you zach, it wasn't supposed to be this way" then they dance and say some other things. It is very sad. I can't wait to have the SBTB dvds. Oh by the way they are coming out with the season 2 dvd of dawsons' creek in december. PHEW! I was so afraid they would not come up with the other seasons and i was not content havign only the first season on dvd. Yet i sitll do not have a dvd player. I really need to get on top of that. We have to make some videotapes. We are going to make one to send jesse and maureen. Then me and jill have to make a video to apply to win a trip to New Zealand for the premiere of Lord of the Rings III and getting to interview celebrities on the red carpet. HOW FUN WOULD THAT BE! I also decided i am going to send in a tape to try and get on Real World. I think it would be too much fuN! I would so tell everything about everyone in the confessional cuz i am kinda a gossip in case you didn't know. It looks like two new people signed up to have journals. One is named sebastian and one has no jname. I don' tknow who they are. This weekend is Katrina's bday , she is turning 20. She doesn't read this id on't belive but HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATRINA!
Today me and Jill went Vix shopping cuz they are going out of business. We hit up two vixes and i went to one earlier this morning. They had these cool animal head walking sticks at the Vix on Sheridan but they were still 5 dollars which is too much for me to pay for that. Hopefully we can wait it down unitl they are like 80 percent off. But they did have my favorite highlighters which i cannot find anywhere and they were 40% off which was nice. So i bought two and will prolly go back to buy more. I have to go meet my group at school for a project tomorrow. I don't really want to but i have no choihce. I have all these school things going on right now like major projcets and tests in every calss but i have no interest in doing any of them. So maybe i will fail. Driving by kenmore west today on my
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Quality (another store that is closing, : ( ) to return bottles made me want to be a teacher again. I belong in a highschool setting, that is where I do my best work. Hmm i was going to ask patty for a raise yesterday at work but i got too nervous and didn't end up doing it. I have been having these werid shooting pains in my head lately. I hope they are nothing, i think it might be an ear infection starting or soemthing like that. So my copmuter is so dumb. The battery lasts like 30 minutes, i went to sit in my brother's drvieway to take advantage of his fast internet today but i decided to sit in the driveway since I have an airport thing so i don't need to actually plug my computer into the internet. I didn't want to bother them so i figured i could just download the song I wanted from my car in the driveway. Of course my computer died before that happened sinc emy computer is a cracked out lasts only 30 minutes wihtout being plugged in. Eh. Lately I am a little addicted to the song Everybody Hurts. It's good but sad. My friend Jen has a practical boyfriend, well he is practically her b/f well right now they just make out a lot but they are so going to date. His name is Tom. Teres is still dating Scott. She seems to like him and he seems nice enough from what I know of him. I really want some Surpass Antacid gum but i can't find it anywhere. I am afraid they don't make it anymore. That would be sad. It is seriusly my savior. My cousins wedding is next weekend and my parents are making me get her my own gift and i can't sign onto the family gift for the first time ever. I guess that comes with being 20. My Monday lunch crew has been torn to pieces. Nicole and Val and me met for lunch every monday at 1130 and they were best firends but now they are not and it is sad. ALthouigh I think they might make up and i hope so cuz they were best friends for like 10 years, you can't just end that in a day. But we'll see. I don't htink I will be going to lunch on modnays anymore cuz it would be awkward picking who to sit with or splitting my time between the two. I saw the movie Kill Bill the other day and it was really good except really bloody and violent and that is so not me. But i really want to see the sequel and stuff. It was done really coolely (that is totally not a word). I'm letting my facial hair grow a bit but i think i will shave it tomorrow. Most likely cuz i really don't like it. I need a hair cut too. I returned bottles today and made like 3 dollars but i spent a dollar on a lottery ticekt and a dollar on gummy bears so i only have a dollar left but still that is exciting. I am trying to spend less money so i can get an apartment next year with mk hopefully. I'm going to call maureen in england on wednesday. That should be fun. I hope she is doing better than she was before. I hope her roomates have gotten nicer. Well i guess this is all i have to say for now. So i'll write again some other time. Chadios

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