I admit that this post my wind up sounding kinda wacky but I appoligize for that in advance. Something ladycroft said in her post got me thinking. I forget what the comment was and I'm not sure what she meant entirely. It was something about how ladies don't have to look like clothes hangers. That got me to thinking about how I like some really thin un healthy looking girls like Fiona Apple and Paris Hilton (looks wise). But those are not the only type of ladies I like from a physical perspective. That got me to thinking about people who suffer from Body dismorphia, wich is basicly not matter what size you are not seeing how you really look. I know it is more complicated then that it is a disorder or maybe even a condition or mental illness. That got me to thinking about gender and how confussing that can be to somepeople. Someone can be born a man anatomicly and feal like they are a women. Then once they are a women still date women. That seems odd. Why not just be a guy and date them instead of being a lesbian. But it is more complicated then that. Just because your sex organs and your gender does or doesn't match is what makes you gay or stright those are two differant things that over lap. I know Jerry Springer wasn't the only one to say this "I'm a lesbian traped in a Man's Body" it was said jokenly because he was a stright guy. I think that if I was a chick instead of a guy I would still want to be with chicks. Ladies look so much nicer then guys do. I also think I would do guys to and do as many of them as I could, but I'm just guessing. Again I don't really have a point other then gender and sexuality is more complicated then a lot of people think. I'm a guy who likes ladies and find differant ones atractive for differant reasons and I'm lucky. Going up to someone to talk to them is hard enough. I can't imagine trying to tell if someone of my own gender is gay or stright. maybe I just watch to many educational shows and dramas like queer as folk and the L word. I did have sord of a point when I started this but I completely lost where i was going. Thanks for bearing with me, maybe I'll see you guys and gals around soon.

Last night I went to see Henery Rollins (e:ladycroft) has a great post about it [inlink]ladycroft,92[/inlink] . It is hard to discribe spoken word. I'm sure she does a much better job of it then I do. I got to meet (e:jason) and (e:thecarrey) also briefly. It turns out we where sitting in kinda the same place but on oposite sides of the stage. I thought Rollins was great. I think he spoke for close to 2.5 hours. Some of it was really funny, some a little sad. But it was all very entertaining. I did buy a DVD of "the shock and awe tour" of his. I look forward to watching it. I missed him the last time he was here. Next time he does a tour I would love to see him again. I think it would be interesting to see him in another town and see if any of what is says changes and how. I don't see him bashing Oklahoma City if he was near by there. I Think that you can even not agree with most of what he said and still have a good time. You could go, I see his point but disagree and still find stuff funny. I got go and try to see some of that hockey game. Friday I go downtown again to see Gerorge Carlin. One thing I dissagred with was the hotness. Nobody ever checks me out, but that is ok I do so much of it I think I make up for all the people who dodn't check me out.

I admit that I like watching TV and some day I will buy a nice big TV. That way I can see great depth and amazing pictures weather it be concerts or movies. I can't afforid HD TV's or Flat screens. But even if I could I wouldn't but one of those slim flatscreen TV's for one reason alone; their adds. They also show these thin little TV's and how littlespace they take up. But they leave out the fact that to watch a movie you need a cable box, satelite box, VCR, or DVD player. Also in the adds the TVs never plug in either. Those ads really piss me off. The reason is that they are trying to sell you on how the TV looks on a wall and the picture. But the fact is that it dosn't really look like that. They really piss me off with that crap. I have seen some clever ads that I did like but those had to do with the picture its self. On another note I read a good interview of Henery Rollins in artvoice. I'm going to his Spoken word tour. I know a couple other (e:peeps) are going to. I hope to meet them, that would be cool if I did. I wonder what he will talk about. This is my first spoken word tour of anyone I've been to. I have seen comedians but that is differant.

I found this blog through nhl.com it sent me to the Sabres site. It is there starting goalie Ryan Miller's blog. I read a couple of his posts. I was there looking for hockey pictures. I would love to post some pictures of goalies making saves or being burnt or comitting roberies in net. I did think about going to last nights game. I spent money buying food and wrestling DVD's on line and I finaly bought my hatebreed ticket so I figured i had spent plenty of money so I would watch the game for free. I think the next game on TV is wendsday I think it is a special game in Rochester. I noticed some great seats open at last nights game. I don't know if they where open cause people where getting food or couldn't make it, but I would love to sit that close. One of my goals this year is to go to a game and take some pictures and even if they are crappy post them. Sports pictures (for me atleast) are very tough to take. Digital Delay is hard to guess at. For example a car is 20 feet away the camara sees it then you see it on the screen then you press the button then by that time the car might only be 10 feet away (based on how fast it is moving) then you press the button the camara waits takes the picture and the car is a foot away. I guess it is like throwing a pass you don't through the ball to where the reciever is, you pass it to where he is going to be. For me it is complete guess work some pics come out great and some not so great or at least not what I was trying to get.

This is a badly taken picture of a picture of Niagara Falls from the i think 1998 but i thought it might be older then that but it says 98 at the bottom of it. It is kinda a retrospective. Maybe I should have gone to see the wall at the knox yesterday. Oh well pregame starts soon.

Today I got to sleep in, that was nice. I walked down Elmwood and bought tickets to Hatebreed's early November show at the showplace, Opeth is playing the day after them I may go see them. Home of the Hits is a cool record store. So then I walked down to tops on Grant St. and bought some food about 40 dollars worth of frozen and canned stuff and chips and Pop for the Football games and Sabres Game tonight. That Steelers vs. Bengels game could be amazing The Greenbay game might be verry good to. I kinda want to find a cable movie to watch in a few minutes but not sure what movie I will pick. Hopefully I will be posting some more Buffalo pics soon.

I thought some of you might like to see some pictures I took on a previous walk down elmwood of some nice cars.