i just can't get into my message board on MSN so i have been doing other thinking.

is there anyone out there like me?

i think about my ex-boyfriend from Highschool all the time. not that i want to date him or anything but i just want to know what he's up to. mainly, i want to make sure my life is better than his.

of course it depends on the point of view. but i have to say i found my love, married, bought a house, don't work, i'm going to school and i have a pretty darn cute doggie. and those are things that i've always wanted. i should say screw it, who cares but i can't help wondering what his life is like.

i still have his name on my instant messenger and sometimes i want to IM him but my brain kicks in & stops me.

i think mostly i have this minor obsession is because he was such a bitch-ass to me after i broke up with him. he literally became psycho and physically and mentally harrassed me every day for many months. i would walk down the hallway in school and he would come up to me and put his arm around me.. usually touching my butt or breast. i would sternly tell him to get lost, he would call me a bitch and throw my books all over the floor. sounds like fun, right?

...one day i told him he was a psycho and he said, "you made me a psycho."

at least he didn't deny it.

i bet he has a kid or two from some really healthy relationships... and he's corrupting their minds... right... now...

pssssst. paul, update where it says sound files from 150 to 250. =)

hahah I'm dorothy too. I always loved her outfits. maybe i'll check out bea tomorrow on Eradio.

ajay, i considered picking up my prizes which are actually birthday presents for my other, better half but i am in the middle of a rain storm. are you e-strippers who actually live down there getting hit so hard@!?!!? holy crap. i am anticipating power outage. i would actually like a small one, haven't had one in a while.

i've become obsessed with playing card games. unfortunately, i lose every single game i play with D, the aforementioned better half which is why i am calling him so.

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has tons of rules for card games

"Jul 19, 2004 9:02 am

Package status

CHEEKTOWAGA NY

Package not due for delivery "

Who cares if the package isn't DUE? Its there! Send it to me!! IT was 2-3 day delivery. Its been 2 days, why isn't it due? What a load.

YET, my other package

"Jul 19, 2004 7:52 am

On FedEx vehicle for delivery

CHEEKTOWAGA NY "

It was there and apparently that one was due for delivery.

Watch, I'll get both of them and then I'll have to stick Katie's foot in my mouth.

Why am I so stressed about this?