i had a crazy dream. i was touring the country on a tiny motorcycle that i had to push with my arms or oars or something. we stopped at some random lady's house to crash and two of my friends were there. they wanted to go out to a bar and i wanted to go but they were acting weird. finally i said what!? and they said they wanted to go to a gay bar. i said that's fine but they were like... we want to pick up some chicks. so i was like fine, i'll call matthew. i tried but it sounded like someone picked up the phone but didn't say anything. all this while derek was sleeping on the random lady's bed. i then just went to bed in the other room which looked a lot like a home i used to live in as a kid.

then my friends called derek to give them a ride home b/c they were drunk and he was pissed.

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i spend too much time online. i have to clean my house. i hate putting clothes away. i wish we didn't have to wear them. there are clothes all over. in the bathroom , in the hallway, in the bedroom, in the computer room. i hate clothes.

i have this awful song in my head it sucks. i don't know who sings it but its on mtv. in fact i think it was like #2 on TRL. why was i watching that, you ask? i hate commercials so i have to fill commercial time with something that i can flip back and forth between and not get lost.

anyways this awful song. how did this song get popular??

i can say its a black man, i think he's wearing orange and he bumps and grinds with women. there's a lot of orange in the background. there are also women dancing with red tasselled clothing.

does anyone know what song i mean and please agree he sucks. he just sounds like he is totally making up the voice as a joke.

i'm not angry about it, i swear.

woman glues herself to floor:

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i don't know which books are classics. do they have to be very old?

anyways, i am reading Farenheit 451 and I am enjoying it immensly. Its pretty short too. My brother finished reading it even though I started before him but he said it was really good.

Also, I've read Frankenstein. I never knew that I really didn't know much about Frankenstein at all. I thought it was really good. Maybe it was because I was so surprised at how much happened in the book.

Wuthering Heights, I don't think I finished.

The Scarlet Letter was good, Grapes of Wrath I believe was good. (I can't remember, read those in HS)

i just can't get into my message board on MSN so i have been doing other thinking.

is there anyone out there like me?

i think about my ex-boyfriend from Highschool all the time. not that i want to date him or anything but i just want to know what he's up to. mainly, i want to make sure my life is better than his.

of course it depends on the point of view. but i have to say i found my love, married, bought a house, don't work, i'm going to school and i have a pretty darn cute doggie. and those are things that i've always wanted. i should say screw it, who cares but i can't help wondering what his life is like.

i still have his name on my instant messenger and sometimes i want to IM him but my brain kicks in & stops me.

i think mostly i have this minor obsession is because he was such a bitch-ass to me after i broke up with him. he literally became psycho and physically and mentally harrassed me every day for many months. i would walk down the hallway in school and he would come up to me and put his arm around me.. usually touching my butt or breast. i would sternly tell him to get lost, he would call me a bitch and throw my books all over the floor. sounds like fun, right?

...one day i told him he was a psycho and he said, "you made me a psycho."

at least he didn't deny it.

i bet he has a kid or two from some really healthy relationships... and he's corrupting their minds... right... now...