us epeeps is crazy. what do you gwt when you have all of us, and alcohol, and a bucket of fries. just plain fun. i didn't drink though. i am high on life, or something like that.

i realized, i need to stop isolating and get out more. when did i turn into such a bore? lets have this period done and over with now. crazy party lilho shall return. holla.


hehehe....... i love my granny!

i wrote an entry before. iit was erased. oh well. bad day turned good day; i think.


long time since:

i saw the ocean


saw my mom


saw brother


liked working/ wanted to work



is prozac the answer? matt says he thinks i will be a pill popping wife. oh boy. i guess really being just you by yourself for the first time ever means a lot of freedom, choice, and confusion. its natural to feel alone. but i really really hate it. maybe i will work with kiddies again, they always make me happy. yay for kids. they're just wonderful, and if you don't agree, you're stupid.


zucchini soup and cigarettes...nature's cure.



im dramatic. give me something so i can be normal.

so, i have new place which i like. new job, don't know if i like cuz i don't start til tuesday. going to school. owe mom lots of money. shes real mad. at least i got happiness.

how about this weather, absolutely freakin awesome!

the same person? they are corny, have(or did have) strange long curly hair and make bad music. lets make love to some micheal bolton and kenny g baby.

paul once told me that i am. its not true. i really wanna go. someone needs to pay. ummm. the gov or my mom. well, i would eventually get money from vesid and just pay her back. so, it starts in a week, and im jealous, cuz all you are out there learning things.

moving on thurs for def. excited. nervous. lots of things. trying to throw out stuff. i wanna throw it all out. but i use it all. threw out a big bag of clothes today, well giving it to the sal army.

even though life is crazy and messed up and so unsure right now, im very very very happy.









and in love :)