great line from the movie "anchorman". but anyways it's true. whats wrong with me?

anyways, my career as a professinal makeup artist starts tomorrow. i will be great. high society, here we come. soon i will painting the faces of manthattan's most exclusive socialites! well maybe...

cosmetology school is fun. the best. and perhaps the most fulfilling part of my life right now. i have lost all embarrassment about it being superficial and silly. its what i like, what makes sense to me, ans what makes me happy. i guess im just a silly lipgloss loving girl.

in other news, 21st bithday comin up. i will def be hitting up some bars to enjoy come fine cocktails. it will be the rebirth of the old party sarah, well, sort of.

fruits basket night? fruity cocktail night? one things for sure, there will be an asian princess present, and she has some ancient chinese secrets.

ciao!

i feel like there is no time for anything but work and school and grandma. school is fun. its just long and a lot of hours. 24 per week. it may sound silly, but its intense, as intense as you make it, and tiring. but i feel like i have finally found something i enjoy and excel at. yay.


where is my mommy? i can't wait for her to come visit me. i need hugs and kisses from her. i also need her to see how freakin poor i am. 37 dollars for the rest of the week, need gas, oil change, uniform stuff for school. wtf?


i never seen anyone anymore. mainly tina. i mi9ss the times that we used to hang out, but i don't have so much free time anymore. plus, me little car doesn't like driving anywhere too far, and school out in west seneca shall take a toll on her this year. we must make it.


those bastards wont give me money. they say my hearing loss isn't bad enough. what? i don't understand. if you drink and have drug problems, you have a problem and can get help. i you can't hear, thats just fine. fuck you state of ny.







i think im gonna hang out with pmt tonight. yay. i love salami.

us epeeps is crazy. what do you gwt when you have all of us, and alcohol, and a bucket of fries. just plain fun. i didn't drink though. i am high on life, or something like that.

i realized, i need to stop isolating and get out more. when did i turn into such a bore? lets have this period done and over with now. crazy party lilho shall return. holla.


hehehe....... i love my granny!

i wrote an entry before. iit was erased. oh well. bad day turned good day; i think.


long time since:

i saw the ocean


saw my mom


saw brother


liked working/ wanted to work



is prozac the answer? matt says he thinks i will be a pill popping wife. oh boy. i guess really being just you by yourself for the first time ever means a lot of freedom, choice, and confusion. its natural to feel alone. but i really really hate it. maybe i will work with kiddies again, they always make me happy. yay for kids. they're just wonderful, and if you don't agree, you're stupid.


zucchini soup and cigarettes...nature's cure.



im dramatic. give me something so i can be normal.

so, i have new place which i like. new job, don't know if i like cuz i don't start til tuesday. going to school. owe mom lots of money. shes real mad. at least i got happiness.

how about this weather, absolutely freakin awesome!