im sure it'll be ok tomorrow, but right now i really feel like crying or losing it; something.
it seems the more i try to get done, the more impossible it gets:

• have to pay rent- no money
  
• thought i had a job, but i have called them a million times and they never call me to come in?
  
• couldn't get the key to work in my aunt's door today, and i need to get my stuff and start throwing things out and repacking
  
• my car is slowly falling apart
  
• i don't know how school os getting paid for and it starts on the 8th, will I even go? my mom wont cosign a loan, so if i don't get money for my hearing loss, im basically screwed and i can't go
  
• have to pay ticket and go to driving school. another 150 i don't have

basically this is just a huge complaint list, ignore it. ill be ok when i beg my mom for money and she finally gives in. i can't wait to not be poor. i hate spending all of my time thinking about how i am going to pay for things, it really blows. hopefully, one year from now, i will be doing what i like making good money....8*

so, there's this website style.com, and i like to go and look at designer stuff and runway looks. its really fun anf the stuff is all so beautiful and artistic. i was going through a slideshow of people on the street and their unique looks and i came across this pic. to me it looks like tk stylin in nyc...

i hate those m-f-ers. they drilled the shit out of my mouth. my day was ruined by them. now i dant talk or chew. im hungry.

the dentist fucking sucks.:(

four cavities.one day. not recommmended.

why do i always use ever after everything? it is the new "like". well, attempted to find VESID; they are an organization thats give assistance and aid to people with diabilites looking to integrate into the working world, or something like that. anyway, i am looking for help paying with the cost of cosmetology school, and i desperately need hearing aids.

tk and i headed downtown after looking up the address in the phonebook. after walking about ten blocks to 125 main st, we are informed that htey have moved. the man tells us to go to 580 main. we go. not there. wtf mate? well, needless to say, the interenet is so much better than the crappy phonebook, and faster too.

i do have a job, i guess they are just waiting for people to go back to school so they can train me. or something like that.

to do list:

pay rent
buy paint
call sister
see granny
help granny
mail mommies gifts
pack
move
pack
move
pack
move...;)

i so excited. happy times for lilho. yay!


im gonna watch the chapelle show dvd tonight. its gonna be really funny.


ps quiznos subs, they are good because they are toasted.

but why does it feel like fall? yes, i agree the party was hit. hehe. i was kinda boring though. too much drug induced fun equals paranoia for this little one. i had to go to bed early. nonetheless, still qite fun.

jill, i must say, you make one hell of a cupcake. your outfit was also super chic. you rock hard.

soyeon, i better get more of that ham sushi one of these days, or whateverother korean specialties you have up you sleeve!

now, other stuff.


i bought a futon yesterday, yay! garage sale. lafayette. best ever. i love garage sales. they are fun to have. fun to go to. they always havethe best stuff. and for cheap. recylcing is great. you will always have something someone else needs that you feel is crap. yay for bed/couch chair. i love it. must go buy other vitals for new place today. im so broke...:)

• ps* we should have an estrip garag sale. we could raise money for another event! maybe next weekend at the art fest????