ok, i had a realization the other day in class that i am totally screwed and going to have to practically kill myself in order to finish everything this semester.

first of all, i am stupid for signing up to take the stupid FE (fundamentals of engineering exam) for this spring... TOMORROW!! because it's a pass fail test... and after my practices and studying, passing doesn't look all that likely. but it's an 8 hour test!!! 8 hours which i don't have, not to mention all the hours i've spent studying for the stupid thing... ahhhh, and what pisses me off even more is the fact that im one of only 3 people in my class who are even taking it this spring (it's offered only twice a year) because everyone else is waiting until they have more time (like the fall or nest spring after they graduate) to actually study for it...WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT?????

ok, so aside from the FE, i have the due dates of 5 big projects coming up... only 1 of which i have even started yet... and that's the one i have been working on since august... and i want to kill 4 of the other 5 people in my group... since i know how to do the stuff i have gotten stuck doing plumbing and drainage in addition to all the other shit i already had to do with the stupid building...

the other projects are:
2) designing a HVAC system for my apt (and figuring out all the cooling loads and stuff... i don't know how to do that)
3) designing the lighting and electricity of my apt (but that's a group project... but the girls im working with don't do shit!!! go figure) (and yeah, i picked my apt again... don't have to go far to do the analysis ;) )
4) designing the structure system of a big masonry building for my masonry class... yeah... um....
5) cost analysis and all that bullshit for my senior design building (and yes... with the same bastards im working on senior design with... grrr)

ok, and then finals are coming up... ahhhhh!!!! it's still too soon to even think of that though....

and rowing!!! oh god ROWING!!!! i think i already f'd that up... the past 2 days at practice i totally lost my seat to mot just 1 person, but to 3 people!!! meaning if i want to get back in the boat, 3 people have to get really sick come time for the ACC championships... i know that's horrible to say, but ahhhh!!!! and another senior on the team who has been sucking worse than me even, burst into tears today about 3/4 through practice, slightly causing herself to hyperventilate... well deep down all i was thinking was thank God it was her not me, or even her before me... cuz once that happened and went on for a good 10 minutes, our coach had to send us in to the dock... we were out of time!!! no more pieces!!!!

so now that i have efficiently wasted a good bit of time writing this, i guess i need to get back to studying for that stupid test... :(

and (e:amanda), you know i love ya... but you may miss him, but how on earth would you have time for him right now??? well aside from all your "shots" hehehehehehe, my little alcoholic ;) i gave up on all that boy stuff for now... no time!!! :( but if im still here for the summer ;)

ahhh, that means i still have to find a job!!! ahhhh, why doesn't anyone want to hire me??? I'm not a total moron all the time... am i???

ahhh, now i really want a drink... STUPID STUPID DRY SEASON!!!!

may 15th can't come soon enough!!! ;)

if only something like this would happen to me, it would totally make my day!!!

so my friend Eric was walking home from dinner this evening when this guy (kinda older, really didn't look like a student) comes up to him and asks Eric if he smokes weed (and from the look of this guy, he's had his share of it)...

so in an attempt to get rid of the guy, Eric responds "no" and tries to walk away

(wrong answer) then the guy then stops Eric and asks him if he would take a pee test (drug test) for him for $5 because this man "really needed to get this job, but he wasn't going to be able to get it if he took the test"

now Eric, the nice, ethical boy he is, said no and continued to walk away... only to shortly after realize what had just happened, burst out laughing, and to immediately tell me when he got back to his apt...

i always share my stupid drug testing stories with him (and others), but his story totally beat mine to the ground...

i think that's hilarious... some random guy just asks him for some pee... i think he should have tried to bargain for more money. if the man was that desperate he would have found a way to pay it. what would have been even funnier was if Eric had been on crack or something... but no, none of that happened, but still... i just wish someone would ask me for my pee, i'd feel so honored!! ;)

maybe next time i have drug testing I'll go up to some random person i see and ask them if they'll pee in a cup in front of the drug test lady for me, so I wont get kicked off the team, hehehe... oh, and offer them $5 of course ;)

on a side note, my phone is in bad bad shape... parts were falling out of it today, the back keeps falling off and the battery keeps unlocking itself to the phone and it shuts off on me mid conversation... happened 3 times just last night while i was talking to (e:amanda) :( after 3 years with this one, i think it's finally time for a new phone :( and hopefully i wont drop the next one as much as i have with this one... the poor thing... i think i would stop working and start falling apart too if i was dropped that many times...

ok, i really am stupid, i guess the dementia comes with the old age... i turn 22 and it all goes down hill from there...

i have been trying to log onto this site since last night around 11:45 when i got home from our state championships (which i don't want to talk about... it didn't go well) and we were all too tired to go out for my birthday, sad eh??? but the day was ove,r so too late to celebrate anyways...

but here's where my stupidity comes in... my name is JULIE we all know that... it's been my name since i was born. i learned how to spell it when i was like 3 years old... that's 19 years of spelling it... yet somehow i was typing my name into the "login box" as "JUILE" but it wasn't working... of course it wasn't working... it's not my name, i'm soo stupid!!!! what's wrong with me?? ahhh

but off the track of my stupidity, i finally got a call back from a company about a job for this summer... it's the company i would die to work for!!! they design stadiums and big things like that... that's what i got into architectural engineering to do!!! ever since i started seeing the HSBC arena going up on my way to school every morning... (it wasnt called that then though was it?) well anyways, i sent them my resume and stuff the other day and got a call back on Friday... unfortunately, we were driving and then at the race course all day Friday and i didn't get the message till late Friday night, but i can't wait till Monday to call em back (i called on Saturday, but the guy i needed to talk to wasnt in tht office) but i'm soo excited!!!

and i met my landlord for this summer and next year... i never had a landlord before... i'm soo excited!!! although she is known to be a psycho bitch... it's still an apt!!!

but for now i have to get back to work... i have to finish my senior design project by monday, eeeek, while i have my FE (fundamentals of engineering) exam this saturday, oh, i'm soo not ready for that :( and it's an entire 8 hours of multiple choice questions about everything i've learned since freshman year... i didn't know i had to remember that stuff...

and i only have about a month left of the semester... that means only 1 more month with all my friends i have been in classes with since freshman year... school just wont be the same at all with out them... we were all talking the other day... about them all leaving, they were sad, i think i was upset the most... i'm still gonna be stuck here next year, but they're not gonna be here anymore :(

ahhh, and that means my time is running out to make my move on a certain gentlemen in my class... i really want to do it, but at the same time, there's only 1 month left and he's going away to grad school next aug :( oh well... a month will have to be long enough... ;)

wow, i'm so glad i finally learned how to spell my name right again!!!!

WOW, i had such a great time in San Diego this past weekend!!! unfortunatley have not yet settled back into the east coast time zone yet though...

but we had a BLAST!!! racing went soo well!!! much better than we could have imagined it to be... we had been warned of these terrible wind conditions, but it was beautiful, a little wind yes, but nothing too dramatic.

And hanging out in CA was great!!! a bunch of us had never been to the west coast before (the farthest west i think i had ever been was to Indiana, that's not west at all) but it was soo nice and we had such a good time!!!

and of course i have pictures for ya... lovely digital camera!!!

first off is a pretty little shot of san diego on our drive to the hotel from the race course


then here's a shot from the hotel... soo hilly, we never see hills here, they seem crazy to me!!!


and then a group of us at the hotel waiting for everyone else so we could go to dinner!!!


then sat morning at the race coursem such a pretty course, eh? (it's a shot of our other boat)


then i couldn't go without a shot from inside the van. we spent so much "quality time" in those vans... belting otu some good old "all for one" and "boys 2 men" (sorry i didn't get any pictures of that, but i know someone got video!!)


and then a shot from on top of a big bridge on our way to the beach


and another one with a shot of san diego


then at the beach, here are some sand dunes... i've never seen anything like this before... i don't think


and then some frolicking on the beach


then sarah, karen, laura and jacks in the pacific ocean!!!


and then jacks and I... wow, the pacific is a lot colder than the atlantic, especially when it splashes up on your legs...


and some pretty flowers we saw... named after some bird, oh, i forgot what it's called


then a bunch of people riding this "bike"???


and of course, what better way to end it than with a picture of everyone sprawled all over in the (LAX) airport heading back to miami on our lovely red eye flight



so there ya go, a view of my trip, kinda ;)

ahhh, not even 22 yet and i already have white hairs!!!

my friend sitting behind me in class today tapped me on the shoulder to tell me i had a white hair, so of course, my instinct was "get it out" so i asked her to, she did, and she handed it to me...

it was soo white!!! at first i thought it might just be a blond one, i have a bunch of those from the sun, but nope, it was a white one!!!

and after we got that one taken care of and half the class was laughing at me since i had her pull out the evidence, she started noticing a bunch more white ones...

where did they come from???? why do i have em??? they were telling me i must have been thinking too much, that that causes them, what kind of explanation is that???

so i guess at the ripe old age of almost 22 i have a few options...
1) start dying my hair to hide those white little strands
2) live in denial that they exist by wearing my hair in a ponytail so noone can see em, unlike wearing it down as i had it today
3) except that im getting old, going white and grey, then balding, then before i know it, menapause will side swipe me on some random tuesday...

ahhh, so stressful!!!

but on a side note, i finally went after my poor little easter bunny... he's been hanging out on my desk for over a week now, it had to happen, just as I'm going "white," he had to go deaf eventually ;)