Jenks's Journal

08/27/2006 19:27 #23937

dammit... (and shoutouts)

Sorry I missed the party.
Especially seeing that I could have met (e:southernyankee) , (e:flacidness) , (e:kookcity2000) , (e:carolinian) ... And it sounds like a bunch of others too.

But it's my own damn fault. I was feeling antisocial and unloved and spent the night on my couch feeling sorry for myself, eating thai takeout so hot it made my nose run.

Somehow that doesn't make anything better.

I had the whole weekend off- might be the last time that happens for, oh, the whole year. :(
I went out friday night... was attended to by a boy... which felt nice... and we danced all over the place which was a blast... but all night all I kept thinking was "he's not the one I want." :(
I hate this feeling. I wish it would stop hurting.

Today checked out the art fest... seemed a lot like allentown. Didn't buy anything...

And my favorite (only) jeans got a big hole in them... Means I have to go to the mall. I don't really like going to the mall, and I ESPECIALLY hate jeans shopping. But since pretty soon it will no longer be skirt weather, I guess I have to do it...

Oh, and I finished my application, and turned it in friday. (along with a $1200 application fee. Man, that check was hard to write...) Hopefully things will work out. And thanks (but no thanks!) for the essay suggestions. I felt like the questions were biased- i.e. if you didn't say you wanted to go into academics and contribute a lot via research, you were at a disadvantage. But I did say that my dad got me interested in plastics (and why), that I want to go into private practice, but still work with resident/students sometimes, that I want to contribute by teaching the next generation of residents NOT to be assholes, and that I admire my chairman b/c he's not an asshole.

and since I've been neglecting estrip for a few days, here's a random comment roundup-

(e:imk2) CONGRATS on the job!! When I am back at BGH/Roswell this year (actually I'm back at BGH starting 9/4) we'll all have to have lunch!

(e:theecarey) congrats on finishing all your work, and the new job!

(e:mike) and (e:terry) Happy Birthday!!

(e:PMT) congrats again on the house... I'll come see it next time I promise!

(e:ladycroft) did you go to J5?? How was it?

umm I think that's it.

Oh, well here's one last thing.
This article pisses me off. Not especially well written, but annoying nonetheless, especially since it made national "news"-

(for those who don't want to click the link- it's an opinion piece from Forbes, in which some guy advises men NOT to marry women with careers.)
Great... just what I needed... I already have enough trouble being called nurse... now I'm unmarriageable? I guess I'm supposed to be barefoot in the kitchen...

oh and more random news- pluto is no longer a planet! It is now a dwarf planet.

Someone said it will cost $23 million to rewrite the textbooks.
actually that reminds me- Paul what happened to the news feeds?

ok... off to eat leftovers.

-J

chicoschica - 08/28/06 10:49
Hey!
Are you really going to be in the BGH/Roswell area? If I may be so bold...maybe I could join you for lunch sometime, too! (if i can find my way in and out of the building to and from my department...)
;-)

ajay - 08/28/06 03:34
That guy Michael Noer is an idiot.

Inflammatory stuff sells; and there's nothing like pissing off a bunch of women. Keep in mind that women outnumber men among college graduates; so you can bet that there'll be a heated response from the women. And that sells newspapers....

mrmike - 08/27/06 22:49
It was a nice party, would have been better if you, imk, Ladycroft, et al could have joined, but there's always next time

08/23/2006 22:12 #23936

happier

Ok, since I promised a happier post (and since I'm procrastinating, and just saw Terry's new user sound (which I love))-

I will just say-

Ratatat rocks.
My user sound is Wildcat.
I love the roaring sounds in it.

And from Gather, here is "promiscuous wildcat" - the song above, mixed with nelly furtado/timbaland- 0142677001156385500

I'm also feeling mildly cool tonight-
A while ago Chase, my brother in law, sent me a cd by a band called TV on the Radio.
They're pretty cool.
But my self-proclaimed music snob friend here dismisses them saying he's never heard of them... so they're no one...

Like i care what he thinks, but nonetheless-

I was watching tivo'd Entourage tonight, and who was on it? That's right buddy! TV on the Radio.

08/23/2006 21:04 #23935

animal cruelty

Oh.
my.
god.

Ok, so I know I've been writing about dogs all the time lately and maybe you're sick of hearing it and are thinking I'm the crazy dog-lady... I've always said I'm a "dog person" etc, but I haven't volunteered at shelters, etc. Had never REALLY thought about the plight of abandoned animals...

And then I started learning about it...

Now, it is pretty hard to make me feel sick- especially just with pictures.
But this has done it.

Be warned that these are horribly graphic and gross. Dogs shot, stabbed, starved, frozen, infested with bugs, dissected...
It's maybe the most horrible thing I've ever seen.

in case you didn't think NJ was a shithole- here's "the mean streets of camden". Don't say I didn't warn you. :(

(Ok, I promise I'll post something nice one of these days...)

paul - 08/24/06 08:32
Tragic Love Story at the Pet Sanctuary: Ironically about pet santuaries. During my studies in germany I had to leave my giant tortoise at a sanctuary in California because no one would take care of it here. She(Sahara) was way bigger than already big basra. When I came home they told me it died when having sex in the heat box ( basically a dog house with a heat lamp they they would retire to at night) in the apple orchard they lived in. The male tortoise got on her back and broke a red heat lamp and she ate the glass and died shortly thereafter.

jenks - 08/23/06 22:00
ahh... commenting on my own journal. ;)
This was my response to paul, but I decided to share-

no, I mostly agree with you.
It's just too big an issue.
and you're right- that's not even touching on meat, etc.

I was probably better off living in my little "dogs are cute i like dogs" corner of the world and not getting beyond that or caring beyond that.

this one just kills me because it's PETS...

animals that people chose to live with, and adopted, and kept in their houses... and then just threw them into the cold or whatever because they got too big or they had a new baby or something...

there was a pic of one dog that froze to death b/c they locked it outside to punish it for diarrhea.

that is the shit that appalls me.
the food industry is not so hot- but there's an end goal (feeding people). It's the cruelty for no reason that's horrible.
there was a pic of a dog with its intestines hanging out b/c some kid stabbed it to death. or the blood spot on the road from where someone shot a puppy...

and i don't know that sanctuary specifically, but I think places like that are wonderful... thanks for the link.

But like you said... there's just too much. It's not possible to rescue every abandoned animal out there and save it. And if you're not careful it will suck up your whole life and make you miserable.
I'm not sure how my friend does it...
He does what he can... when he hears about a dog that needs help he puts a page up on his site asking if anyone can help... and if they can, great. But if they can't... the dog probably gets put to sleep. I asked him if that makes him sad. And he said of course, but that he just can't save them all and he has to accept that and know that he's done as much as he can, which is more than most people try...

and the other thing that's sad is that when people really DO care, and DO dedicate their lives to it- most people just think of them as crazy animal nuts.

anyway... my point is just that yes, you're right.
but it doesn't make it any less appalling.
:(

paul - 08/23/06 21:31
Okay, I know that I a going to get so much slack for this but I am done caring about animal cruelty and a grand, theoretical level. It is just too consuming of an emotional topic that has no end. I spent years of my life freaking out because of cruelty to animals and how unjusitified it was. It is totally consuming. There is no end to the unjustified cruelty that exists. I will do anything I can to stop cruelty happening right in front of me but it's impossible to control all the cruelty in the world and I find it unjustifiable to complain about the poor dog when you eat other animals. Sometimes, I think the only people that have the right to even talk about animal rights are grow your own food, vegan, straight edge people.

I mean, even if you are vegetarian, there exists so much cruelty in milk, eggs, and leather, wool, medicine, cosmetics, cleaning products and even honey. It never ends. Even farming vegtables involves a massive amount of animal suffering in terms of pesticides and the effects on the environment. I guess it is the nature of being the top of the food chain.

Eventually, I think you just have to either stand up and become one of the people on the forefront of animal rights and designate your whole life to it and be prepared to let it take your life over or just give up because you will make your self feel miserable and cry all the time. I guess I am fatalistic but it was taking over my life in a bad way and yes I was crying all the time. I most specifically remember sitting in my friend Yvonne's kitchen and crying while she cooked steak.

I am saying this from experience. I swear, you have only scratched the surface of animal cruelty. Just try and think outside the dogs and look at all the stuff around you and how many things involved making animals feel really sick or die in order to make them happen. Think about it, they spend the whole year building a hive with honey for their fmaily of bees and then one day some asshole comes and steals it all so you can sweeten your tea.

If you decide animal rights is for you, maybe take a visit to the Farm Sanctuary near Ithaca :::link:::

They rescue animals and let them live out their natural lives there.

08/22/2006 20:15 #23933

This sucks.

I don't have anything to write about anymore.
My only topic is off-limits.
I miss it/him.
I want my journal back.

Boo!

At least my internet is fixed. For now. Again.

08/22/2006 22:00 #23934

Misery.

This is the bane of my existence right now:

1. What caused you to become interested in plastic surgery?

2. What are your career plans and goals?

3. What do you hope to contribute to the field of plastic surgery during your career?

4. Think about a teacher or colleague who you admire a great deal. What about you is most like this person? Least like this person?

All 4 have to fit on one page. This is not a massive paper. I need to just sit down and do it.
I have been sitting on this for WEEKS.
It's terrible.
And it's important. I don't know why I can't make myself do it.

I wonder what would happen if I turned in:

1: my dad
2: not sure yet
3: i have no delusions of contributing much- i just want to be a community plastic surgeon, maybe work with my dad... not invent the next face transplant. Work is a means to an end... not an end in itself.
4:uggggghhhhhhh

All I've gotten down is one little paragraph for 1. Again it's a badly worded question. I'm sure what they want to know is "why do you want to be a plastic surgeon". But that's not what they asked.

instead... i check my email. listen to music. check estrip. read some message boards. work on my tan. do laundry. clean my bathtub (!!).

olemanrunin - 08/26/06 20:59
...these comments are hilarious - thanks again to the estrip for a good laugh!!!

ajay - 08/24/06 13:36
Just put "(e:Ajay)" down for #4. They'll understand...

leetee - 08/23/06 19:26
If you think your dad inspired you to be interested in plastic surgery, then you should say that... with explanation. I reckon honesty is best, isn't it?

metalpeter - 08/23/06 19:03
Along the lines of Liberated you could say that you have been inspired by the Show Nip Tuck and that you want to learn how to do Plastic surgury on your self so you can always look the same age, that would really freak them out a bit.

libertad - 08/23/06 09:53
for 1) I would write about how The Swan has influenced your desire to transform ugly ducklings into beautiful birds.

joshua - 08/23/06 09:11
Cheer up please!

mrmike - 08/22/06 23:20
Need ghostwriting help? We can have a site wide essay contest. Thinking what you have there isn't a bad start. Truth is always a good place to start and it can be prettied up a little to appease the judges of your essay. Expand a little on Dad in Number one and use Number Two to talk about what you'd like to do and what makes it work for you and that can get tailored into an answer in no time.

Used to write for an academic book publisher, slinging it is easy if you can hit the right angle. Relax, you're on the right track