Ahh....is there anything that getting laid won't fix? After my less than happy day I went home and talked to some people, eventually landing a movie date. I went to see War of the Worlds with her. I'm not really a movie snob....I take things for what they are, not what they could or should be in my mind or any other fool's. I actually liked it - the destruction brought by the aliens was unimaginable. They literally hunt down humans on a mass scale. It was not an action movie, instead more of a thriller. It was pretty scary as far as movies go. I won't ruin it for sci fi dorks like me. From what I understand it is different than the book in some ways, but I'm not a purist so I'm not complaining. It was a very entertaining night that had a "happy ending" as it were. I had a great time and hopefully things will just continue to be this way.
Jason
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06/30/2005 10:16 #23504
War of the Worlds06/30/2005 01:34 #23503
Rhonda and I Trade BarbsHer:
"Quit being such a drama queen. I'm glad things are
> going well for you -
> enjoy it - I wish nothing but good times for you,
> but you don't have to bring me
> down with your IM's. I've had quite a bit on my
> plate lately, so sorry if I
> didn't jump and write right back. My dad had skin
> cancer, my mom has been
> undergoing testing for ovarian cancer and just had
> surgery, my boyfriend had
> his thyroid removed because of cancerous nodules
> and now this week I've
> developed pleurisy. Life can be tough enough
> without biting comments from
> friends. "See you in the afterlife" Rhonda "
Me:
" It's not drama, it's common courtesy and respect. you've never respected me, all I wanted was a simple "hello" and over the course of MONTHs, considering you're always online, it was never too much to ask for. I don't care about your boyfriend's cancer or your pleurisy. A while ago I might have showered you with good wishes and prayers. You should have never written back. You've never reached out to me so I'm not losing anything. Good bye"
I can be a cold blooded son of a bitch when provoked. She wouldn't even bother to write to me until I got pissed off at her. She thinks she's fucking perfect and without fault, and immediately goes into attack mode, just like a female always does, when someone approaches her with a problem. I don't need people in my life who don't respect me, or who are going to fake like they're my friends when in reality they won't give me the time of day. Fuck her, fuck her boyfriend's cancer and fuck her fucking pleurisy. Bad shit does indeed happen to bad people on occasion. I do, however, feel immeasurably bad for her parents, who are loving and sweet people. They will be in my thoughts and prayers tonight
Update: more blah blah blah what did I ever do to deserve this from her, so I said I thought I told you good bye? You were never my friend, you ignored me time after time when I needed you the most, now buzz off" #$^#$^#^@^@^$%
"Quit being such a drama queen. I'm glad things are
> going well for you -
> enjoy it - I wish nothing but good times for you,
> but you don't have to bring me
> down with your IM's. I've had quite a bit on my
> plate lately, so sorry if I
> didn't jump and write right back. My dad had skin
> cancer, my mom has been
> undergoing testing for ovarian cancer and just had
> surgery, my boyfriend had
> his thyroid removed because of cancerous nodules
> and now this week I've
> developed pleurisy. Life can be tough enough
> without biting comments from
> friends. "See you in the afterlife" Rhonda "
Me:
" It's not drama, it's common courtesy and respect. you've never respected me, all I wanted was a simple "hello" and over the course of MONTHs, considering you're always online, it was never too much to ask for. I don't care about your boyfriend's cancer or your pleurisy. A while ago I might have showered you with good wishes and prayers. You should have never written back. You've never reached out to me so I'm not losing anything. Good bye"
I can be a cold blooded son of a bitch when provoked. She wouldn't even bother to write to me until I got pissed off at her. She thinks she's fucking perfect and without fault, and immediately goes into attack mode, just like a female always does, when someone approaches her with a problem. I don't need people in my life who don't respect me, or who are going to fake like they're my friends when in reality they won't give me the time of day. Fuck her, fuck her boyfriend's cancer and fuck her fucking pleurisy. Bad shit does indeed happen to bad people on occasion. I do, however, feel immeasurably bad for her parents, who are loving and sweet people. They will be in my thoughts and prayers tonight
Update: more blah blah blah what did I ever do to deserve this from her, so I said I thought I told you good bye? You were never my friend, you ignored me time after time when I needed you the most, now buzz off" #$^#$^#^@^@^$%
06/29/2005 14:45 #23502
Burning BridgesThis is what I had to say to Rhonda, after sending e-mails and IM's and not even getting the courtesy of a response over the course of the last few months:
Danq750: I thought you said you would be my friend always. I've tried to say hello, shit I'm not even worth a response. I understand now. Good bye, see you in the afterlife.
See, she arrogantly thinks I'm going to want to get with her again. This is a problem many Buffalo girls have. I've had much better, and I will have much better in the future. All I wanted was someone to talk to, someone to be there for me, and someone for me to be there for when she is having a bad day too. It killed me to the point of tears that she wouldn't even as much as recognize my existence after telling me she would always be my friend. I'm sick as fuck of feeling that way, and I wish I never cared so much. She obviously didn't deserve it. I blocked her fool trick ass with the quickness too.
Jason
Danq750: I thought you said you would be my friend always. I've tried to say hello, shit I'm not even worth a response. I understand now. Good bye, see you in the afterlife.
See, she arrogantly thinks I'm going to want to get with her again. This is a problem many Buffalo girls have. I've had much better, and I will have much better in the future. All I wanted was someone to talk to, someone to be there for me, and someone for me to be there for when she is having a bad day too. It killed me to the point of tears that she wouldn't even as much as recognize my existence after telling me she would always be my friend. I'm sick as fuck of feeling that way, and I wish I never cared so much. She obviously didn't deserve it. I blocked her fool trick ass with the quickness too.
Jason
06/29/2005 20:04 #23501
I've Given Up On ItWhat is "it" you might ask? "It" is my recovery. I will never overcome my depression. My treatment program is incompatible with my job so I've quit it, along with one of the medications. I don't know if I'll ever be happy and content with life. My job is too important to risk it based on not being able to keep a constant schedule. I would rather be unhappy and employed than unhappy and not employed. I talk about relationships often but I am nowhere near boyfriend material. Being a blonde, pale skinned dork doesn't exactly help things either. Plus one of the people I care about most on the earth will not even speak a word to me or respond to an IM or e-mail. People say that they want to help and to call if I'm feeling like shit but they really don't want to hear what I have to say, they are just trying to be nice. Nobody wants to hear me talk about being unhappy, it's all a bunch of bullshit. Their patience, compassion and understanding change like the direction of the wind. I have no hope. It is all over and done with.
metalpeter - 06/29/05 17:06
First of all I understand the entire not being boyfriend thoughts. But what you need to try to remember (not that I can) is that there are a lot of guys worse off then you who have Girlfriends. I have heard some ladies talk about their men and thought why would these ladies put up with the crap, that is insane. My mind kinda works in a simalur way I see a cool looking chic and think what would she want with me. But from what I understand I'm thinking backwards. I should think What does she have to offer me. Try to be more confedent with your self. Try to think more positivly. There are ways to cope with the depression with out meds. Atitude can help. I'm sure there is lots of info on line or at the libary.
First of all I understand the entire not being boyfriend thoughts. But what you need to try to remember (not that I can) is that there are a lot of guys worse off then you who have Girlfriends. I have heard some ladies talk about their men and thought why would these ladies put up with the crap, that is insane. My mind kinda works in a simalur way I see a cool looking chic and think what would she want with me. But from what I understand I'm thinking backwards. I should think What does she have to offer me. Try to be more confedent with your self. Try to think more positivly. There are ways to cope with the depression with out meds. Atitude can help. I'm sure there is lots of info on line or at the libary.
jason - 06/29/05 11:59
Thanks Lee, I'm not trying to be a drama queen or anything, I just feel so shitty today. I am one BS comment away from breathing the fires of hell on someone.
Thanks Lee, I'm not trying to be a drama queen or anything, I just feel so shitty today. I am one BS comment away from breathing the fires of hell on someone.
leetee - 06/29/05 11:48
Jason, i am so sorry to hear you are having a rough time right now. Depression is a serious illness and i regret to hear how treating it is interfering with your job. Sorry, too, to hear that there is someone in your life that isn't speaking to you. Wish i could offer you advice, but i'm certainly no expert on relationships myself. Good luck and, although it sounds lame, keep your chin up. Dorks rule, btw! :O)
Jason, i am so sorry to hear you are having a rough time right now. Depression is a serious illness and i regret to hear how treating it is interfering with your job. Sorry, too, to hear that there is someone in your life that isn't speaking to you. Wish i could offer you advice, but i'm certainly no expert on relationships myself. Good luck and, although it sounds lame, keep your chin up. Dorks rule, btw! :O)
06/29/2005 10:22 #23500
Re-making America In "Our" ImageThe far left wants exactly what the far right wants - to make America in their own image. There are a number of things the far left doesn't like about our country - shit as I write this I can't think of one thing the far left DOES like about our country. Starting with the Constitution they want to re-program America and its citizens. I'll give you the answers you need and a glimpse of what a Liberal America would look like.
1) The Constitution needs to be re-written. We are born without rights. Our rights are NOT given to us by our Creator - like in Europe all of our rights are given to us by the graces of the state. The new Constitution needs to have every single last reference to "God" or "Creator" removed. In addition the Constitution is faulty because our innate rights do not include universal health care and free dope for the junkies. This stuff needs to be written in ASAP.
2) All references to God will be removed from the public arena. No longer will it be on our money, on our court buildings, nor will they rest on the face of churches (they will be made illegal, as will prayer).
3) There need be only one political party - the Liberal Party, and all other political points of view must be extinguished because they are faulty. All seats in the government and judiciary must be held by the Liberal Party. No other political voice is correct, so why are they necessary?
3) The media need not be fair and balanced. Hell, even the so-called "Fairness and Accuracy In Reporting" has a link on their front page detailing why the media doesn't need to be balanced (and I'll give you one guess as to why). The media will not question the Liberal government, because the government in our image is infallible, without fault.
4) Every liberal's wet dream will finally become a reality - the military will be dissolved and the billions will be spent on other government pet projects.
5) Faith in God will finally be correctly diagnosed as a mental illness, and all the believers will be sent away to "hospitals" to be de-programmed! They will not be released into the public until they renounce their faith and give their body and soul to the government (whoops, there I go again, sorry, we don't have souls).
6) We will cease to be the republic we've known. As every liberal knows, democracy ain't democracy unless it's Socialism or one of its variants. Furthermore, we will in tradition excuse away human rights violations by leftist regimes. We will no longer be able to vote for our country's leader - we leave that up to the Liberal party leaders. They are wise, all-knowing.
7) The role of corporations will finally change! Instead of driving innovation and a higher quality of life we will prioritize equal share of money among all employees. People don't like to be paid what they're worth anyway. The role of a corporation is to simply provide money and something to do for people when they aren't away on vacation. In addition we will continue the tradition of punishing people for working hard and becoming successful.
8) Cars will be made illegal. We will all ride our bicycles everywhere, or use the Liberal Party's newly created mass public transportation system.
9) The role of the straight male will be changed forever. Father's rights organizations will be hunted down and annihilated, and men will be reduced to sperm donors and ATM machines. Men will have every law in the book thrown at him in the courts and in public opinion. Also if you are unfortunate enough to be white, you will be given mandatory training in Howard Zinn's "A People's History of the United States" so you can understand how horrible and awful and worthy of humiliation and punishment you are starting from birth. (Whoops, we're well on our way on this one already!)
10) There will be a mandatory "dream journey" type of experience where you have to do peyote and walk the earth for a period of time, until you figure out that you are God, that we all are God.
1) The Constitution needs to be re-written. We are born without rights. Our rights are NOT given to us by our Creator - like in Europe all of our rights are given to us by the graces of the state. The new Constitution needs to have every single last reference to "God" or "Creator" removed. In addition the Constitution is faulty because our innate rights do not include universal health care and free dope for the junkies. This stuff needs to be written in ASAP.
2) All references to God will be removed from the public arena. No longer will it be on our money, on our court buildings, nor will they rest on the face of churches (they will be made illegal, as will prayer).
3) There need be only one political party - the Liberal Party, and all other political points of view must be extinguished because they are faulty. All seats in the government and judiciary must be held by the Liberal Party. No other political voice is correct, so why are they necessary?
3) The media need not be fair and balanced. Hell, even the so-called "Fairness and Accuracy In Reporting" has a link on their front page detailing why the media doesn't need to be balanced (and I'll give you one guess as to why). The media will not question the Liberal government, because the government in our image is infallible, without fault.
4) Every liberal's wet dream will finally become a reality - the military will be dissolved and the billions will be spent on other government pet projects.
5) Faith in God will finally be correctly diagnosed as a mental illness, and all the believers will be sent away to "hospitals" to be de-programmed! They will not be released into the public until they renounce their faith and give their body and soul to the government (whoops, there I go again, sorry, we don't have souls).
6) We will cease to be the republic we've known. As every liberal knows, democracy ain't democracy unless it's Socialism or one of its variants. Furthermore, we will in tradition excuse away human rights violations by leftist regimes. We will no longer be able to vote for our country's leader - we leave that up to the Liberal party leaders. They are wise, all-knowing.
7) The role of corporations will finally change! Instead of driving innovation and a higher quality of life we will prioritize equal share of money among all employees. People don't like to be paid what they're worth anyway. The role of a corporation is to simply provide money and something to do for people when they aren't away on vacation. In addition we will continue the tradition of punishing people for working hard and becoming successful.
8) Cars will be made illegal. We will all ride our bicycles everywhere, or use the Liberal Party's newly created mass public transportation system.
9) The role of the straight male will be changed forever. Father's rights organizations will be hunted down and annihilated, and men will be reduced to sperm donors and ATM machines. Men will have every law in the book thrown at him in the courts and in public opinion. Also if you are unfortunate enough to be white, you will be given mandatory training in Howard Zinn's "A People's History of the United States" so you can understand how horrible and awful and worthy of humiliation and punishment you are starting from birth. (Whoops, we're well on our way on this one already!)
10) There will be a mandatory "dream journey" type of experience where you have to do peyote and walk the earth for a period of time, until you figure out that you are God, that we all are God.
Thanks Ladycroft. I horribly regret saying that I didn't care about the cancer or the pleurisy, the truth is there are no limits to how much I care. The rest of it still stands, and she did write back to me but I never read it, just deleted it ASAP. I was sick of being ignored and treated like a nobody, especially when I was hurting and reached out. I'll feel better about this in the morning.
Spot on. The moment you tag someone with the truth they don their armor and begin defensive maneuvers. Respect is a word missing from many people’s vocabulary these days. She new she was grimy, but rather than be held accountable for her actions, she did the only thing she knew how to do – retaliate. Busting out a guilt trip is the weapon of choice for most, but it’s a weak. It’s not like all these events occurred overnight. A simple, “Hey, I’m wicked drained right now, we’ll talk later” would have prevented. So you called her out, bravo. Ciao.