(e:Hodown) - I'm really sorry about your situations. But at least you don't have to worry about approaching and facing rejection! For women it's easy - just be there, look delicious, and either say yes or no.

I'll let everyone in on a secret. I have a crush. I've had a crush on this girl in the hood for a long time. No, (e:Pageseven) you probably will not find out who it is! She works at a local restaurant. I'm not sure what it is about her, but I want to know her. Every time I think I should go say hello, I always think that I'm probably one of many guys waiting in line. She's really cute, nice from what I can tell and she has a beautiful smile. The problem is I really dig her and I've been brutally rejected enough where I'm scared to death to make a move. I am literally scared silent, not able to try my luck and maybe hang out with a cool girl. I don't think women appreciate enough how difficult it is to do. Somehow I have to make rejection fun.

Jason

No, I don't think that your list of requirements is too much. However, make sure that you offer exactly what you are asking for. I find that the more people put hard restraints on what they find is acceptable or not acceptable in a partner the more they find themselves alone. I bet the first guy who makes you feel loved and appreciated and sexy, your list will fall to pieces.

Hey all I want is a girl who won't stick her mouth on another man's dick. Apparently even that is asking too much given my experience. Men are throwaway items, exceptionally devalued except for what they have in their wallet. I don't put harsher requirements on women, I'm just more careful. And I have a lot more money to spend on myself and my friends as a result.

Jason

The girl I hooked up with this past winter got a hold of me on AIM again today. She still has these fantasies in her head about me being her boyfriend, even after I told her multiple times to expect nothing of the sort from me. Today she told me to let her know when I want to go on a date again. What? How about never, because I know that I'm going to be put on the spot and harrassed about not wanting to be with her.

It's just not going to happen that way. I explained to her a long time ago why it wouldn't work out: I don't trust her. I know she's a cheater and a very capable liar. I could never get serious with someone like that. Who says I want to get serious anyway? I've tried so hard to be sweet and let her down easy but it just doesn't compute in her head. Some girls are hopelessly incapable of dealing with the fact that a guy might say no to her. I don't know why I tried so hard to be nice because I might as well have never said anything at all. I don't want to be nasty to her but I don't know any more ways of saying no. I am so frustrated right now.

In the end I'll probably have to piss her off immensely in order for her to get the picture, and even then she probably won't. I'll just end up being the jerk, which I guess is fine. Anyway the girl that'll capture my attention will be someone who inexplicably inspires me to be a better guy and to do things I normally wouldn't do, not the one who harrasses me the most. You can't force what has to come naturally.

Jason

Hmm when I got this new user name I forgot to put up a profile. So now I have one, feel free to check it out. You can harrass me on AIM anytime. The thing is I didn't know what journal to choose as my favorite. Soyeon isn't on the site anymore so I have to choose a new favorite. There are so many that I like. I'll list a few and give my reasons:

Southernyankee - Classy, Upbeat, Reminds me of a close friend.
Matthew - The pictures are amazing. This man has a great eye.
Metalpeter - I don't think I've ever read this man complain about anything.
Ajay - He is the MacGuyver of e-strip. He needs to engineer me a new bong.
Robin - Reemed Joshy gangsta bitch style. I wonder what goes on in her head.
Maureen - She busts her ass so hard. Everyone should be so motivated.

Anyway I like to read all of the posts here and it is so hard to choose a favorite. I might as well just pick my own journal as my favorite. I don't know.

Jason

PS - After paying $2k in bills today my ass hurts so bad.

At the request of an unnamed e-stripper, I thought I would post some pics of the party in Orlando. What happens when 12 rowdy guys get together to party? I can't show you all of the photos (especially the ones incriminating myself) but I'll do my best.

The groom gets his ass redded up:


Me and Fernando laughing at the groom:


Obligatory Jaeger shot:


The shocker is a reflex. I can't take a serious photo.


Chicks love getting their picture taken!


But not this one apparently.....


Our own Johnny Knoxville has no shame....


Anand thinks it's the strip club now...



Oh by the way the girl is married with 2 kids. Remind me again not to get married.

Jason