hokay so I slepy in the same bed, under the same blanket with a gay boy and NOTHING!!! We even watched an ass raping scene in American Histroy X, that we both agreed was hot, and when it came on I barely got an erection. I'm getting more flirting acton from my straight boss at work. Bad gay, bad gay! shit. ps: my mother sucks!

last night after work I went out with some co-workers for some much needed VODKA! It was supposed to be only one. And then one turned into staying out until 5 a.m.Going to this bar and then hoping to the next. Alcohol kills feelings. I really need my friends right now. These New York people will do for now I guess. I failed a test last night at work, the first one I have ever failed. But luckily it was only by two points (88) and I get to take it over. I forgot all about that test until right now; dancing in the streets last night with people I just met kinda took the place of all the bull shit that's going on in my fucked up family. Just when you thought it couldn't get worse right? Just when I thought I could actually be happy for at least a few months as I'm starting my new life, this bitch manages to fuck me up 700 or whatever miles away. NOBODY"S mother does shit like this. Mothers are supposed to be there; where? There, anywhere you need her, for support, guidance. She's supposed to tell you what you are doing right and wrong in your life and always someone to fall back on with the durable net. I can't believe this; I don't have a mother. I'm sorry to bring moods down because I was not like this the first time. Last night I drank and danced down the streets of Manhattan and didn't think of a thing but how much fun I was having and how I wished a couple of my friends were there to dance with me. this is my last sappy ass, sad, sympathy wrenching journal. I'm sure my next one will be about how much fun I am having at work, which is already starting. WOO HOO! Peace and Love!-TK

Apparently lightning isn't the only thing that strikes twice. MY MOTHER just robbed bank number two. I mean DAMN!!!! Key bank and my mother have a vrey bad relationship; she has decided to go back to them and try again just for old times sake. Your breakin my balls here Eyvonne. I mean two times in a matter of 7 months? I hope they put that bitch away for a long time. Maybe she'll lose weight.

Hokay so, I have been on this journal site for years; Pretty much when (e:paul) started it up. And this is only journal 137. I mean I knew I wasn't a big journal writer when I lived in buffalo, but I would have thought I would have atleast a years worth of entries. Damn i suck. I find that I update a lot more now than I ever have, which I thought I could never really get into online blogging since I stopped using so many of them in the past. I guess I miss Buffalo that much. Well I guess thats all I have to say; I must get back to my studies before my test tonight at D&B. Studying....YUCK!.....good times though. YAY! New York!

Party time on friday includes lots of homo's for once, and someone else from buffalo. Late night with my date grey goose, helped me 9 a.m. the next morning when I had to go to times square and try and find D&B. Still drunk at my Loooooong Day in this place, but I wasn't alone, It was hang over city in that place. I walked in the front doors and people started calpping and cheering. What the Hell is gong on my spinning mind is thinkg, Yes I'm surprised I made it here too I thought. But it turns out they did that for everyone who walked in. These people cn't be this happy all the time, they say they are. When we take the tour around the game room I stop the tour at the end and mention to the manager " I didn't see a Dance Dance Revolution game, and according to the website oyu have one." The manager takes me and me alone to show me where they kept the game. Thank you. Saturday night It's my girlfriends birthday and it's off to Ms. Shapes downtown, dancing, dancing, dancing time to go hoe I am very sleepy and have been drunk for two days straight. I Looked at the pictures from the party at PMT"S house and can only Le Sigh How I wish I was there. The boys having a party and I'm not there does not feel right to me. That is something I am going to try and fix in the future. I'm glad you all have a good time, it was good to see (e:mike) classic drunk. Good times all around bye bye now everything is Loverly.