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09/13/2005 23:00 #20616

Tales From Motel Rooms, pt. 1
Category: fatfatfat
I waited for her there, all night to come back. Until fourteen past three, until I fell asleep to the television's mumbling lullabye. I said to myself and to her dog, "Well, she won't be back for at least another four hours", then, an hour later, "She won't be back for another three hours, at least." This didn't make the moon shift quicker, nor time in that room at the Super 8 pass any faster. The Fresh Prince still took a half hour to talk himself out of whatever pickle he'd gotten into as the paper of my cigarettes took their time at peeling away, exposing grey fate, dwindling downwards to nothing save a shaky grip.

The numbers changed slowly, growing larger with my hips, damned moon, and nothing in that room could help it. I clawed at numbers I could control, could wind down through the dreaded triple digits and help me take up less space on the queen-sized motel bed I'd have to myself, envying Sleeping Beauty. She who got to pass out one night, no aids required, and wake up with no bed-head and a boyfriend who could waltz in a world that was light, and she in it. In the bathroom mirror, squinting under artificial light, I held onto myself and wanted that, knowing from experience that it wouldn't work for me as it did for Aurora. As hard as I try, I cannot seem to trade a kiss for happiness.

I started thinking, a dangerous pastime, at noises from down the hallway, colored as any other in the northeast, wondering if it was her coming back early. Even though by seventeen I knew better, still I rushed to the spy-hole to catch full, lively, drunken conversation coming from shadows cast on the opposite wall. If I could live in the space between that Aurora of a room and the life flickering before me, I would. There, from my two-inch tunnel, I'd learn all I'd ever want to know about what could lie between two shadows, sweeter than tension and heavier than echoes, but no space at all. Not even two inches.

09/13/2005 12:11 #20615

stress
Category: life
have so much going on, ayie!! this weekend cannot come quick enough.
(e:ladycroft): i would LOVE to attend (e:thecarey)'s birthday party. if anyone's doing the carpool thang, let me know!


also, (e:drchlorine): yr ass is grass for that picture post, my friend.
jason - 09/15/05 19:06
I may attend Carey's birthday bash. If I do and you need a ride I would be happy to be your chaperone. lol.
metalpeter - 09/13/05 18:58
First sorry for not going to the party it looks fun. The picture of you dosn't look bad but it is a crazzy looking picture. Having a lot going on can be verry stressfull, hopefully you deal with it better then I do. But I guess it is better then doing nothing that is when people get them selves in trouble.

09/11/2005 02:40 #20614

owie.
Category: i have no car.
just left (e:pmt)'s. am sososo tired and headachy. tomorrow should be painful.
it was fun though.


to all the (e:peeps) still going strong: DON'T SMOKE MY CIGARETTES THAT I LEFT!!!!!!! pleasepleaseplease i'm poor and unemployed and there was like, a whole pack PLUS a lighter!!!!

oh, and david's locked out in the cold cause timika's got his keys. yeah.
leetee - 09/11/05 11:29
Was great to meet you last night. Hope today isn't nearly as painful as you expect it to be.

I think your cigarrettes are safe. Least they were still there on the table at about 5am...
ladycroft - 09/11/05 11:12
Girlfriend...try rolling out at 7am! Wooh. DrChlorine got his keys back :)

09/09/2005 23:25 #20613

fat.
Category: fatfatfat
have decided that all the skinny girls i've put up in my room and locker and notebooks need to go. they were there for thinspiration, but maybe if i put up a bunch of fat girls i'd feel better, haha.

will i actually do this? no. drat.


jason - 09/12/05 09:39
I saw your pics, my god you are not fat. You look like a normal chick.

09/08/2005 11:57 #20612

wing-man.
Category: life
i really want a wing=-man- like a clone of myself who could take my place whenever i'm too tired to handle something. like, when i have to talk out loud in class, or when i've got to talk to my lawyer, or when i have to get out of bed and shower for school. i could just say 'hey honey, it's all you', and second-alison would be more than happy to take care of things.
of course, i'd make sure i got to be the one to eat mcdonald's french fries, smoke pot, and have orgasms. but seond-alison would be okay with that, because she'd LOVE dieting for me and having to flirt and make the small talk with men that leads to the orgasm-having.

... i would never have to give another blowjob again, if i didn't want to.
metalpeter - 09/08/05 18:14
Well that sure would confuse the guy. The first one would blow him and when he was done switch with you. Even before that tehy might get confussed when the flirting was done. But it is a good idea. I could have an alter me that does all the talking and getting rejected then when things did work out and it was time for the fun then we would switch. That is a cool idea.
jason - 09/08/05 13:12
What? Never have to give head again? WTF is happening to this country?!?! lol
joshua - 09/08/05 12:55
How you women plot.
ladycroft - 09/08/05 12:27
You can. It's called an alter ego (from Latin, "other I") which is another self, a second personality or persona within a person. You don't think Timika does everything alone do you? Timika is the nice academic girl that bends over backwards for people, Lady Croft deals in all aspects of fearlessness, Nikita handles the seduction and secret ops missions. Get yourself one or two, it's very helpful. :)