have decided that all the skinny girls i've put up in my room and locker and notebooks need to go. they were there for thinspiration, but maybe if i put up a bunch of fat girls i'd feel better, haha.
will i actually do this? no. drat.
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09/09/2005 23:25 #20613
fat.Category: fatfatfat
09/08/2005 11:57 #20612
wing-man.Category: life
i really want a wing=-man- like a clone of myself who could take my place whenever i'm too tired to handle something. like, when i have to talk out loud in class, or when i've got to talk to my lawyer, or when i have to get out of bed and shower for school. i could just say 'hey honey, it's all you', and second-alison would be more than happy to take care of things.
of course, i'd make sure i got to be the one to eat mcdonald's french fries, smoke pot, and have orgasms. but seond-alison would be okay with that, because she'd LOVE dieting for me and having to flirt and make the small talk with men that leads to the orgasm-having.
... i would never have to give another blowjob again, if i didn't want to.
of course, i'd make sure i got to be the one to eat mcdonald's french fries, smoke pot, and have orgasms. but seond-alison would be okay with that, because she'd LOVE dieting for me and having to flirt and make the small talk with men that leads to the orgasm-having.
... i would never have to give another blowjob again, if i didn't want to.
metalpeter - 09/08/05 18:14
Well that sure would confuse the guy. The first one would blow him and when he was done switch with you. Even before that tehy might get confussed when the flirting was done. But it is a good idea. I could have an alter me that does all the talking and getting rejected then when things did work out and it was time for the fun then we would switch. That is a cool idea.
Well that sure would confuse the guy. The first one would blow him and when he was done switch with you. Even before that tehy might get confussed when the flirting was done. But it is a good idea. I could have an alter me that does all the talking and getting rejected then when things did work out and it was time for the fun then we would switch. That is a cool idea.
jason - 09/08/05 13:12
What? Never have to give head again? WTF is happening to this country?!?! lol
What? Never have to give head again? WTF is happening to this country?!?! lol
joshua - 09/08/05 12:55
How you women plot.
How you women plot.
ladycroft - 09/08/05 12:27
You can. It's called an alter ego (from Latin, "other I") which is another self, a second personality or persona within a person. You don't think Timika does everything alone do you? Timika is the nice academic girl that bends over backwards for people, Lady Croft deals in all aspects of fearlessness, Nikita handles the seduction and secret ops missions. Get yourself one or two, it's very helpful. :)
You can. It's called an alter ego (from Latin, "other I") which is another self, a second personality or persona within a person. You don't think Timika does everything alone do you? Timika is the nice academic girl that bends over backwards for people, Lady Croft deals in all aspects of fearlessness, Nikita handles the seduction and secret ops missions. Get yourself one or two, it's very helpful. :)
09/08/2005 11:48 #20611
day three.Category: school.
day three of my senior year, and i'onno what to say. i just want to go home. it's like, i've got all this divorce stuff on my mind and then people expect me to smile real big and be happy and do all this work and pay attention and it's frustrating. i guess i really just want to go to sleep.
09/05/2005 22:25 #20610
my lemon love.Category: beautiful people.
tomorrow is my first day of senior year.
wish me luck??
wish me luck??
- AL'S SECRET NOTE TO (E:PEEPS) ONLY!!!
jason - 09/06/05 09:43
Oh yeah, and I missed Rilo Kiley so I can't tell you how they were. Sorry!
Oh yeah, and I missed Rilo Kiley so I can't tell you how they were. Sorry!
jason - 09/06/05 08:01
Good luck Alison. Show those bitches who's boss!
Good luck Alison. Show those bitches who's boss!
theecarey - 09/05/05 22:19
Awee, you'll be fine.. Its your SENIOR year!! W00! Just think, there are freshman coming in that will be really scared, especially of the Seniors. Good luck on your first day! make sure to tell us all about it :)
Awee, you'll be fine.. Its your SENIOR year!! W00! Just think, there are freshman coming in that will be really scared, especially of the Seniors. Good luck on your first day! make sure to tell us all about it :)
leetee - 09/05/05 22:19
Good luck at school this year!
Good luck at school this year!
09/04/2005 00:21 #20609
no good very bad summer.Category: divorce.
gah. this is going to be another angsty post. y'all have been warned.
and so the dreaded divorce continues. my family is freaking out about my decision to go with my mother. a lot of people from my dad's side aren't speaking to me now. my grandmother told me that when i think of grandmothers, to think of the one from my mom's side because 'that's all you have now'.
so i've been pretty upset. i mean it's like i've just been dealing with all this shut up in this house. i haven't been able to go out except for like, twice this summer. my mom and i decided to take an impromptu road trip to franklin PA. it's this ridiculous hicktown, but we have a couple family members who just moved there from california so we got to see them. the ride down and back was hilarious, just my mother and i being dorks and smoking and calling on the spirit of thelma and louise. we left yesterday afternoon and came back this evening.
last nite i tried to get into a franklin bar with my mother and aunt but that town is so small they carded me, so i spent the nite at the super motel 8 in fucking franklin PA with my chihuahua, masturbating to fresh prince of bel air on nick at nite. my last friday nite before school starts.
which was fine, because i had tonite's date to look forward to. and then he bailed.
i'onno. i'm a stupid girl i guess. i got all cute and excited to go out and all and then, well, it's a long story that i'll hash out later but he bailed on me at the last minute.
i think i might go over to keith and jon's now for some much-needed chillout-ness.
i guess, in closing, i just want to thank everyone on the site who has been so nice to me and has offered me support. you really don't know how much it means to me.
take care, alison.
and so the dreaded divorce continues. my family is freaking out about my decision to go with my mother. a lot of people from my dad's side aren't speaking to me now. my grandmother told me that when i think of grandmothers, to think of the one from my mom's side because 'that's all you have now'.
so i've been pretty upset. i mean it's like i've just been dealing with all this shut up in this house. i haven't been able to go out except for like, twice this summer. my mom and i decided to take an impromptu road trip to franklin PA. it's this ridiculous hicktown, but we have a couple family members who just moved there from california so we got to see them. the ride down and back was hilarious, just my mother and i being dorks and smoking and calling on the spirit of thelma and louise. we left yesterday afternoon and came back this evening.
last nite i tried to get into a franklin bar with my mother and aunt but that town is so small they carded me, so i spent the nite at the super motel 8 in fucking franklin PA with my chihuahua, masturbating to fresh prince of bel air on nick at nite. my last friday nite before school starts.
which was fine, because i had tonite's date to look forward to. and then he bailed.
i'onno. i'm a stupid girl i guess. i got all cute and excited to go out and all and then, well, it's a long story that i'll hash out later but he bailed on me at the last minute.
i think i might go over to keith and jon's now for some much-needed chillout-ness.
i guess, in closing, i just want to thank everyone on the site who has been so nice to me and has offered me support. you really don't know how much it means to me.
take care, alison.
leetee - 09/04/05 22:13
It makes me feel so sad for you to know that your family is treating you like you are some sort of human pull toy. I think it is, at the very least, a damn shame that any grandparent would say to any of their grandchildren that you no longer exsist. WHether or not there is anger, hurt, or baggage, there shouldn't have to be "sides" with you. You're supposed to be the kid here, not them. Sounds like you're more grown up than they are...
Keep your chin up, do what is right in your heart and don't like anyone tell you anything different.
Good Luck with school, too, by the way!
It makes me feel so sad for you to know that your family is treating you like you are some sort of human pull toy. I think it is, at the very least, a damn shame that any grandparent would say to any of their grandchildren that you no longer exsist. WHether or not there is anger, hurt, or baggage, there shouldn't have to be "sides" with you. You're supposed to be the kid here, not them. Sounds like you're more grown up than they are...
Keep your chin up, do what is right in your heart and don't like anyone tell you anything different.
Good Luck with school, too, by the way!
metalpeter - 09/04/05 16:30
I'm sure there are lots of issues between your mother and father and maybe it even goes deeper into the family. I'm guessing that is why the grandparent(s) are upset that you picked your mother. But I'm guessing if you picked your father somepoeople on your mothers side would be upset. The part that is fucked up is that these are fully grown adults who take it out on you based on witch parent you stay with. It isn't like you are taking sides you are just staying with the one that you are more comfortable with. It is to bad that you are forced to chose sides. Divorce is all fucked up sometimes. I think you will make it through allright eventully.
I'm sure there are lots of issues between your mother and father and maybe it even goes deeper into the family. I'm guessing that is why the grandparent(s) are upset that you picked your mother. But I'm guessing if you picked your father somepoeople on your mothers side would be upset. The part that is fucked up is that these are fully grown adults who take it out on you based on witch parent you stay with. It isn't like you are taking sides you are just staying with the one that you are more comfortable with. It is to bad that you are forced to chose sides. Divorce is all fucked up sometimes. I think you will make it through allright eventully.
ladycroft - 09/04/05 00:23
It makes me ill to see adults project their own failures and dysfunction on an innocent child. ‘Child’ = ageless byproduct of human procreation. Where does anyone get off placing blame on the child and threatening them with abandonment? I’ve seen too much of this kind of bullshit in my line of work. Hang in there.
It makes me ill to see adults project their own failures and dysfunction on an innocent child. ‘Child’ = ageless byproduct of human procreation. Where does anyone get off placing blame on the child and threatening them with abandonment? I’ve seen too much of this kind of bullshit in my line of work. Hang in there.
I saw your pics, my god you are not fat. You look like a normal chick.