A few pictures have some video haven't put on you tube hoping to go later also hoping no rain we shall see.....
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07/28/2013 09:42 #57940
Garden WolverineCategory: photos
So Before I went to see The Wolverine not sure how 3D it was but thought it was great ... Granted not sure if or where this story has been told before but cool story and great action and cool pay off during the credits.....
A few pictures have some video haven't put on you tube hoping to go later also hoping no rain we shall see.....
A few pictures have some video haven't put on you tube hoping to go later also hoping no rain we shall see.....
07/22/2013 18:28 #57930
Burlesque After the tasteCategory: photos
So with so many photos I've been debating if I should post pictures from StrippedDown for summer at the tralf ....
I all most didn't go but went and got a table near the stage and some awesome people I don't know came over .... They where really nice and it was a great time offered to buy food and drinks but I was full so got a few free soda pops was scared what drinks might do.....
The band is called Kick start Rumble and the burlesque is Eye Candy Burlesque I Depending on what pictures I Post you may see someone who is I think still part of The Hell's Harlots .....
This part was fun and yeah the powder stayed in the air for some time.......
This part was pretty hot... They danced to the Song wicked Game and was amazing tried to get the feeling of it with out flash for how red and hot of a set it was.......
Burlesque was a lot of fun... din't get many pasties think that was where I was sitting but is also up the camera when to fire it was a lot of fun though....
I all most didn't go but went and got a table near the stage and some awesome people I don't know came over .... They where really nice and it was a great time offered to buy food and drinks but I was full so got a few free soda pops was scared what drinks might do.....
The band is called Kick start Rumble and the burlesque is Eye Candy Burlesque I Depending on what pictures I Post you may see someone who is I think still part of The Hell's Harlots .....
This part was fun and yeah the powder stayed in the air for some time.......
This part was pretty hot... They danced to the Song wicked Game and was amazing tried to get the feeling of it with out flash for how red and hot of a set it was.......
Burlesque was a lot of fun... din't get many pasties think that was where I was sitting but is also up the camera when to fire it was a lot of fun though....
07/15/2013 18:47 #57909
Taste Of Buffalo Sat.Category: photos
So Saturday Morning wasn't fun but finally Cable got fixed and showed up and took forever but now it works so.... Hope it lasts.... I didn't do a lot there .... And later that night did go to Eye Candy Burlesques show.... So many photos not sure where to start with that maybe I'll post a few ........
07/21/2013 18:57 #57925
Mental Health ?This is very personal and won't prof read it so you may not want to read it............................................................................
So one of the things that is all ways tough to know is how much is to much to share in a blog .... Yes there draft mode and this may go into that mode.......
So Yes there are some things I love about my life taking Pictures, (e:strip)s events, lots of (e:peeps), going to wrestling events, some times a concert and Bandits games but alas.....
There has been so much stress at work oh gawd... And when it isn't work caused I'm not happy cause life thoughts come into my head at work... Doesn't help that I have what to me is a very long day... Hey I know some people work longer then my trip to work full day and home but I don't know if my body has ever really handled the job even when I did it as a temp and part time thing for a bit.......
The entire Bug thing still isn't finished... It is a constant battle I've been going through of trying to be neat... Get a room nice and clean then junk mail and stuff builds up and there goes the mess again....
The point I'm trying to get to is it as reminded me of issues I've had before (e:strip).... Wish I would have understood hey being this stressed out... That you don't care anymore means hey got get some help call someone..... Some of these issues have shown up on (e:strip) ... As an example Before a a met a certain (e:peep) (Again thank you so much for that wish back then I knew I had a problem ) I would plan on going to a party and then not go... Looking back a few years after that and when at Parties I then understood in was stress or anxiety or maybe more that would make me get sleep or so on edge I couldn't handle it....
There have been some changes at work a couple people leaving that made the place a lot of fun.... Just isn't the same with out them... I know I also have a history of losing contact with people for guessing a few reasons .... Sorry they are awesome people .... And yeah I'm sorry for that... Not that they know about this blog or will read it that I know of.... I've even again before being on this site worked with some great people .......
So maybe only 10-15 years late on Tuesday I'm going to Herizon should I be saying this on line even I don't know... And see what they can do.... I'm a bit scared but I need it... See what happens from there... (Child and Family services I took 4 free sessions through work but one issue is kinda hard to get to so had to get a ride from my mother didn't want to burden sister and niece with that...... I just wish at the end they would have like said or given me a next step .... I wish going there would have worked but alas I think I need more)
Should I be putting my issues on a public blog site..... Guessing not but getting it out I think is a good idea....... But won't be putting this on twitter or facebook that is for sure.....
One of my problems is I'm of two minds... What I mean is ... I know so many people have it worse then I do... but so many people have amazing lives and at my age some of that is really tough to deal with... someone I went to high school with kids are graduating ... Stuff like that I can't deal with.... Wait that is a bad example.. There is a part of me that wishes faith no wrong word that something would happen that I have no choice... Like they lock me up... Or I get fired....But I also think that second mindness is from something I have but we shall see what they say on Tuesday....
In the past I have had what I guess is common called Sunday Depression and I've thought that my life depresses me... and maybe there is no fix for that.... Yes I'm often very happy ... But so many times I'm "Just OK" when I should be happy...... Guess I end it here...
So one of the things that is all ways tough to know is how much is to much to share in a blog .... Yes there draft mode and this may go into that mode.......
So Yes there are some things I love about my life taking Pictures, (e:strip)s events, lots of (e:peeps), going to wrestling events, some times a concert and Bandits games but alas.....
There has been so much stress at work oh gawd... And when it isn't work caused I'm not happy cause life thoughts come into my head at work... Doesn't help that I have what to me is a very long day... Hey I know some people work longer then my trip to work full day and home but I don't know if my body has ever really handled the job even when I did it as a temp and part time thing for a bit.......
The entire Bug thing still isn't finished... It is a constant battle I've been going through of trying to be neat... Get a room nice and clean then junk mail and stuff builds up and there goes the mess again....
The point I'm trying to get to is it as reminded me of issues I've had before (e:strip).... Wish I would have understood hey being this stressed out... That you don't care anymore means hey got get some help call someone..... Some of these issues have shown up on (e:strip) ... As an example Before a a met a certain (e:peep) (Again thank you so much for that wish back then I knew I had a problem ) I would plan on going to a party and then not go... Looking back a few years after that and when at Parties I then understood in was stress or anxiety or maybe more that would make me get sleep or so on edge I couldn't handle it....
There have been some changes at work a couple people leaving that made the place a lot of fun.... Just isn't the same with out them... I know I also have a history of losing contact with people for guessing a few reasons .... Sorry they are awesome people .... And yeah I'm sorry for that... Not that they know about this blog or will read it that I know of.... I've even again before being on this site worked with some great people .......
So maybe only 10-15 years late on Tuesday I'm going to Herizon should I be saying this on line even I don't know... And see what they can do.... I'm a bit scared but I need it... See what happens from there... (Child and Family services I took 4 free sessions through work but one issue is kinda hard to get to so had to get a ride from my mother didn't want to burden sister and niece with that...... I just wish at the end they would have like said or given me a next step .... I wish going there would have worked but alas I think I need more)
Should I be putting my issues on a public blog site..... Guessing not but getting it out I think is a good idea....... But won't be putting this on twitter or facebook that is for sure.....
One of my problems is I'm of two minds... What I mean is ... I know so many people have it worse then I do... but so many people have amazing lives and at my age some of that is really tough to deal with... someone I went to high school with kids are graduating ... Stuff like that I can't deal with.... Wait that is a bad example.. There is a part of me that wishes faith no wrong word that something would happen that I have no choice... Like they lock me up... Or I get fired....But I also think that second mindness is from something I have but we shall see what they say on Tuesday....
In the past I have had what I guess is common called Sunday Depression and I've thought that my life depresses me... and maybe there is no fix for that.... Yes I'm often very happy ... But so many times I'm "Just OK" when I should be happy...... Guess I end it here...
metalpeter - 07/24/13 18:33
Thanks .... I hope it works ... Wish I would have known a long time ago.... But to be honest I think, but I'm not a pro, it goes back to a thing(s) in my child hood and things after that as well.... we shall see what happens... again thanks
Thanks .... I hope it works ... Wish I would have known a long time ago.... But to be honest I think, but I'm not a pro, it goes back to a thing(s) in my child hood and things after that as well.... we shall see what happens... again thanks
ladycroft - 07/24/13 04:56
Aww Peter...((HUGS)). You can write whatever you like. Journaling is a good tool. You're doing the right thing seeking out professional help; and you can always write me anytime. You have the right to feel how you feel regardless. You can always come up with a list of 'things that could be worse', it doesn't mean your present 'worst' in invalid. It's a long road but one worth traveling!
Aww Peter...((HUGS)). You can write whatever you like. Journaling is a good tool. You're doing the right thing seeking out professional help; and you can always write me anytime. You have the right to feel how you feel regardless. You can always come up with a list of 'things that could be worse', it doesn't mean your present 'worst' in invalid. It's a long road but one worth traveling!
metalpeter - 07/23/13 20:26
Well today was a bit stressed out but once I left and got there things went well and I have (assuming I can get the time off of work I should be able to) 2 more appointments lots of questions and paperwork .... We shall see how it goes... Part of me thinks that I have bad nerves not like people who really have it bad with things like refered pain and fibromyalgia and that they can't fix but I think it will help....
The Place I went before was like a free service through work and seemed to be more aimed at like fixing things that are going on currently and not deeper issues.... Or maybe I missed something where and how one could transition to the next step and use insurance ?? But I can get to Herizon on my own or so it seems but the tough part is so many places are set up for people whom don't work or not during the day....
I think and hope this will help we shall see....
Well today was a bit stressed out but once I left and got there things went well and I have (assuming I can get the time off of work I should be able to) 2 more appointments lots of questions and paperwork .... We shall see how it goes... Part of me thinks that I have bad nerves not like people who really have it bad with things like refered pain and fibromyalgia and that they can't fix but I think it will help....
The Place I went before was like a free service through work and seemed to be more aimed at like fixing things that are going on currently and not deeper issues.... Or maybe I missed something where and how one could transition to the next step and use insurance ?? But I can get to Herizon on my own or so it seems but the tough part is so many places are set up for people whom don't work or not during the day....
I think and hope this will help we shall see....
libertad - 07/23/13 18:10
How did it go at Horizon? I hope they can help you. It's kinda messed up how these agencies have to process people because of insurance companies. If you don't get the help you need from them I hope that you will not give up and keep seeking the help you need. I know someone who does private practice and he can bill insurance companies himself so send me a message if it doesn't work out and I'll see if he can take you.
How did it go at Horizon? I hope they can help you. It's kinda messed up how these agencies have to process people because of insurance companies. If you don't get the help you need from them I hope that you will not give up and keep seeking the help you need. I know someone who does private practice and he can bill insurance companies himself so send me a message if it doesn't work out and I'll see if he can take you.
metalpeter - 07/22/13 17:44
I hope it will I think it will we shall see......
I hope it will I think it will we shall see......
paul - 07/22/13 10:14
Here is wishing you the best. I am sure a professional perspective will help.
Here is wishing you the best. I am sure a professional perspective will help.
07/20/2013 14:34 #57921
Trayvon My ViewSo There is this Rally all over the country and Buffalo is one of those cities ...I say go.... Hope it stays peaceful
Think we all agree that what Happened was bad and wrong but here are a few things from my perspective....
1. I have been followed in stores it doesn't feel good it really doesn't
2. I love my hoodies and wear them every where if I can... Now I don't know the temp but why wear one it is Florida sorry gotta ask ? Some people do wear the big hoods so you can't see the face... One year I walked in going to a store to buy stuff Halloween Party with big hood as part of costume asked to take off hood wasn't a big deal opps
3. There where crimes aka break ins... Whom ever looks different not only based on race is going to be assumed to be suspicious no one looks at their own kind....
4. I've been looked at and watched in certain areas where I look like I don't fit it...
5. Zimmerman isn't white and in many places he would be the one that gets followed
6. Watch Groups in Theory are a good idea there are problems that they can help Police with or stop before it becomes a problem... The problem is some of these people and Security Guards as well think they are cops or something more kinda like "ThePunisher" or some kind of Vigilante
7. Oh side note that yes I have been stopped by police for looking like someone else it was scary as hell cause I hadn't done anything.. Oh and they are the police. They found out it wasn't me and let me go.....No cuffs or back of car hands on car tough.... But someone untrained I don't want to even think about
The Entire thing is so crazy but only watched like the end of the case...
8. Stand Your ground laws aren't the same in every state
9. I don't have all the info but have heard they might be raciest
10. The way the law is in Florida is that there is no try to retreat aspect of it like in some states so any thing like Martin being followed....
11. So once a fight started all Zimmerman needed was to fear for his life for it to be justified Homicide...
12. If Trayvon was attacked and had a gun and shot him first he would have based on the law gotten off as well
13. Since it is your fear there is really with this case no way to prove that he wasn't afraid
Now all this doesn't mean it isn't a shame because it is... Yeah of course race is a big factor about what happened but with how the Florida law is they came up with the only decision they could.....
14. I heard one of the Jurors who like crying and saying how bad they felt they wanted to convict but legally they couldn't
15. What I don't understand is why not a lesser charge like manslaughter or wrongful death but again don't know the FLA law well enough.....
16. As a sidenote yes I'm a wrestling fan and there was a wrestler known as New jack that had tear drop Tattoos on his face.... Now his case wasn't really ever mentioned in the media but he was found not guilty in a multiple death in self defense (Sorry every thing I do there is a wrestling connection sorry)
17. I like Barrack Obama but I think him talking about the martin case might be over reaching ......
18. I know I've left stuff out but can't remember my other points doesn't make in not a tragedy
19. Lets not forget that the medias job is turn a profit and report the news and whom ever you watch there will be some bias .....
Think we all agree that what Happened was bad and wrong but here are a few things from my perspective....
1. I have been followed in stores it doesn't feel good it really doesn't
2. I love my hoodies and wear them every where if I can... Now I don't know the temp but why wear one it is Florida sorry gotta ask ? Some people do wear the big hoods so you can't see the face... One year I walked in going to a store to buy stuff Halloween Party with big hood as part of costume asked to take off hood wasn't a big deal opps
3. There where crimes aka break ins... Whom ever looks different not only based on race is going to be assumed to be suspicious no one looks at their own kind....
4. I've been looked at and watched in certain areas where I look like I don't fit it...
5. Zimmerman isn't white and in many places he would be the one that gets followed
6. Watch Groups in Theory are a good idea there are problems that they can help Police with or stop before it becomes a problem... The problem is some of these people and Security Guards as well think they are cops or something more kinda like "ThePunisher" or some kind of Vigilante
7. Oh side note that yes I have been stopped by police for looking like someone else it was scary as hell cause I hadn't done anything.. Oh and they are the police. They found out it wasn't me and let me go.....No cuffs or back of car hands on car tough.... But someone untrained I don't want to even think about
The Entire thing is so crazy but only watched like the end of the case...
8. Stand Your ground laws aren't the same in every state
9. I don't have all the info but have heard they might be raciest
10. The way the law is in Florida is that there is no try to retreat aspect of it like in some states so any thing like Martin being followed....
11. So once a fight started all Zimmerman needed was to fear for his life for it to be justified Homicide...
12. If Trayvon was attacked and had a gun and shot him first he would have based on the law gotten off as well
13. Since it is your fear there is really with this case no way to prove that he wasn't afraid
Now all this doesn't mean it isn't a shame because it is... Yeah of course race is a big factor about what happened but with how the Florida law is they came up with the only decision they could.....
14. I heard one of the Jurors who like crying and saying how bad they felt they wanted to convict but legally they couldn't
15. What I don't understand is why not a lesser charge like manslaughter or wrongful death but again don't know the FLA law well enough.....
16. As a sidenote yes I'm a wrestling fan and there was a wrestler known as New jack that had tear drop Tattoos on his face.... Now his case wasn't really ever mentioned in the media but he was found not guilty in a multiple death in self defense (Sorry every thing I do there is a wrestling connection sorry)
17. I like Barrack Obama but I think him talking about the martin case might be over reaching ......
18. I know I've left stuff out but can't remember my other points doesn't make in not a tragedy
19. Lets not forget that the medias job is turn a profit and report the news and whom ever you watch there will be some bias .....
I think Either Today or Yesterday Infringement festival started tough to keep up with all of it but think there is an event this Saturday that I may be at well that is part of it then wam bam thank you slam III hoping to be there is wends but we shall see.....
haha, you always get so many pictures of the ladies :P
I wish I got to go the taste.