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03/04/2012 10:49 #56169

all i have to do
correct lesson plan

tabulate observation data, complete report

write up background information

prepare for performance assessment, write lesson plan for it

create unit plan

complete inquiry lesson plan

study for math exam

teach 40 hrs this week

......... and my reward is going on a 2 week, somewhat around the world vaca.

tinypliny - 03/04/12 11:07
Reminds me of a song where people throw coins at a singer. Whoever throws a coin becomes like balloon and floats in the sky. I forgot the singer.

03/02/2012 08:33 #56156

asu syr
they should have just named it asu senior year ridiculousness, not residency. i have found what is claimed to be a top program is really just a piece of crap and confusion disguising itself behind the name of a big school.

i have several classmates who eat, live and breath school, who are failing classes... after spending a whole day writing lesson plans. then they find out the received a 50%.

myself and other have mentor teachers who refinance their houses and make personal phone calls all day, including phone calls about their cat rescue.... and cat adoptions. as if i didn't already hate cats enough.

i also have a documented disability and i work in a classroom where more than one class is taught at time, making having hearing aids completely useless. in addition to this, my mentor constantly makes noise typing loudly and making phone calls while i am teaching. she isn't even watching me, she is stuffing her face and doing god knows what.

well, there is supposed to be a co-teaching model. no. this is purely me= a warm body who will teach and work for free. that's fine just shut up while i am trying to do my job.

also currently failing a pass/fass class, because pretty much my entire cohort cannot seem to reach the unattainable 80% required. this should send out a red flag, because we are all dean's list students...

we also found out we won't be graded on what was the most detailed and hard to write lesson plan ever, because it was decided it doesn't fit the asu format. what? i literally followed the rubric and example given to a t... spent nearly a whole day on it... to find out i wasted my time?

i am teaching 32 hrs, driving 3 hrs a day, taking 9.5 hrs of class, i have 17 credit hrs, plus teaching, plus trying to work to afford gas... and apparently i suck(we all do)... we are trying so hard and just ready to quit.

this should be a sobfest, it is teaching. it should be fun. i wake up every day not wanting to leave my bed... i've never dreaded anything this much.

when i tried to talk to my clinical instructor about receiving off the clock rude texts from my mentor, her not co-teaching, and also being left alone with the students(which i am not allowed to be), he simply brushed it off...

it's a double standard, expect such high quality unattainable work, and then you really don't care what happens in the classroom...um ok.

i have to go teach now...
lilho - 03/02/12 19:10
apparently someone heard my cry, i had a good day today... the one that that pushes me is the students...i truly love them.
tinypliny - 03/02/12 08:44
I don't know what to say. It's all really quite painful. But quitting at this point is even more painful. I am not in a similar position but sometimes when all this does not seem worthwhile, it does pay to grit your teeth and go on.

Think of yourself like Bear Grylls. Lilho Vs. Wild Injustice!

02/29/2012 22:56 #56148

blonde...
supposedly they have more fun....

i want fun. i feel like i have a wig on. i have been debating this change for months.. YOLO.

it's a lesson: just do what you want... most things can be changed. and i mean this is moderation... i waste my time thinking too much.

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metalpeter - 03/01/12 16:45
Some Peoples hair will change color if they are some place sunny but most it is that bottle.... I can barely remember as a kid having curly blonde hair.... I've for a time been thinking about going jet black......
paul - 02/29/12 23:16
I found it on google :::link:::
paul - 02/29/12 23:14
When I lived in AZ I also went blonde. It was the time I got a license. I couldn't believe they are good till age 65. If I had stayed there I'd still have that pic.

02/29/2012 20:53 #56147

I want to live in this!
Category: mobl


Seriously a pink hut by the beach in a tropical place.... Le sigh!

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02/24/2012 19:30 #56126

I hate driving
Category: mobl
Just spent nearly 1.5 hrs getting home. Thanks ASU for adhering to those green initiatives.... Also thanks to ASU I get to spent almost 150 a week on gas while I work for free student teaching for an entire year.

What jerks.... I can't wait to graduate, get a job, and live somewhere where I dot have to drive.

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