I'm trying to hang out with my mother these last few hours and all she can talk about is going out getting a beer. I wish I could fill that void for her and it breaks my heart because apparently I can't. I, mean given everything that's happened any normal adult would want a drink, but its such s slippery slope and its never good to drink when youre upset, it just worsens the mood you are in and it just makes you want more. She asked me twice to get her beer, and I told her no. although I never had to tell my mother no it sucks big time. I can't condone that, plus the rest of my family would be really upset with me. I said one day she and I can have a beer together but not now, I think it's too soon and the risk is too great. I kinda felt my self tearing up a bit when she left, I'm sitting here hoping she dosent try and do something to get it. And feel that it would ber my fault if she gets in trouble trying to grab one. I know this is a really personal entry and a lot of you don't know about my mommy issues, but there you have it. If I didn't write it out some where I would just break down and cry. So thanks for reading this guys I love you long time, and I just hope for the best. See you all soon. P.s. I'm almost at 200 entries after how many years now? Slacker...... :p

I'm having way too much fun with this. So I grab my crotch and I say "Hee Hee"!!!

I got my android avatar. He has my widows peak and everything lol. Oh goodness these next couple weeks are going to be nuts!!!! I'm going to be in three cities in two weeks, kinda feel life I'm on tour hahaha. Its going to be Chicago, then back to buffalo again to move my shtuff and then flying down to new orleans to wurk for mardi gras. Mardi gras is over in the 8th of March then I'm back to buffalo for good. First thing I'm gonna do when I'm back is shop my ass off smoke a fatty and play video games for a day straight. See you all soon love you Buffalo!!!

Alot of you ask probably don't know this but I was born with 12 fingers. Been looking up articles about such other cases. This is a paragraph from one of them. You probably don't know, but there are six digit people around. It pops up sporadically. There is one tribe where this happens a lot: the Waorani in Ecuador, a normal-sized people that has some among them that exhibit giant characteristics, such as six fingers, six toes, and double dentition (not all of them). They are a tribe of particularly violent South American aborigines called the Waorani. They were extremely violent: Fully fifty per cent of all deaths in the preceding five generations had been the result of homicide as the Waorani engaged in a continuous and deadly internal vendetta. Medically, the Waorani turned out to be something of an enigma: they had no trace of cancer; no cardiovascular disease; no high blood pressure; no allergies; and none of the known diseases familiar to us. Like the giants of past ages, they are physically very strong and violent.

Hokay so My penis is just as moody as a teenage girl who sparatically gets her rag. Meaning some days we get along great, we're on the same page, he's not showing off too much everythings cool. But then some days this evil creature pops up out of nowhere and wants to be seen the entire day!!!! And not in situations I really want him at his best. For example at my parents house or when I'm visiting my friends. Its not like he dosent get enough attention from me and others, he just wants to act extra and try to make me uncomfortable. The bitch. And then on others days when the situation calls and I need him to be superman, he wants to be shy and not perform. I guess I need to follow a pattern and get on a penis schedule. But then the penis wins, and I'm the man. Man supposed to be in control of the penis not the other way around. Im so confused.