Things have not been going smoothly of late. Too many failures, too much uncertainty, too many iffy outcomes, too many hashed presentations, too many negative vibes, too little inspiration, drained out ideas... I really want this phase to end and a better phase to roll around. All of this is wrecking havoc on my sleep. I used to sleep at least 3 hours at a stretch. Now I get up every 1.5 hours with random nightmares and stretches of worry about whether I will ever graduate and whether my dissertation will ever reach completion.
I somehow need to claw back into focus, re-prioritize everything and fast-track somehow. Just not sure how to successfully spin into that resolve. I guess the new salsa shoes aren't really of much help here...
I did make that on your tablet, with my stylus. :)
I am here working on my dissertation and ditching my favorite hour of salsa today. The end-of-phd stress is really demanding its pound of flesh today.
If you notice, I didn't say I wanted to die.
I have some codeine that should help with that. It's better if you use the Red Bulls to down the pills.
Well You Just need a drug that will relax you... Then one of those drugs that helps you sleep... You know that one where people sleep walk and have gone driving.... Then for energy to concentrate you need an upper not coke but something along those lines so.... Get a hookah and some friends and sit on the floor and mellow out... Then Later Have like 2 red bulls.... The key is to have them early enough so you can still sleep....Ha Or maybe go on a Murderous Rampage... Hope everything sorts its self out....
I like your picture. I just watched a special about stress and mortality. It was really interesting and they found that people lower in status or heirarchy have much higher levels of stress. So I guess once you are done with your schooling and achieve more power and can obtain subordinates you will have less stress, thus living longer!
I had the same kind of anxiety/stress towards the end of school. You will get there eventually and replace it with all kinds of other future anxieties ;) Did you draw that with the tablet. I found the box. It has ear phones in it.