Aww shucks. Well thanks guys.
I really wasn't trying to be a drama queen seeking affirmation... At least, not on a conscious level...
I mean sure, I know a journal should be for ME, not for YOU... but at the same time, if I didn't want anyone to read it, I'd write it in a notebook that I stash under my mattress. Or, I'm just an attention whore? ;)
But anyway, thanks. I feel loved.
And now I feel like I should try to find something worth writing about...
Hmm. Well, it's not necessarily worth writing about, but... here's an update.
Well things are good here. Work is going well... One of these days I need to start looking for a job. And since I have no clue where I want to go, I am stalling on that front. Do I go back home where my parents are? VA where it's warmer and my sister is? Stay here (if they'll have me)? Back to WNY? Go to Chicago, just b/c I love that city? Go to texas/vegas, just b/c they're offering a RIDICULOUS salary? And then of course, how do I ask a guy who I've only been dating for a few months (even though I really like him) "oh btw... if I move next year, are you coming with me?"
At the same time, work is totally infuriating sometimes. The attitudes some people have, the sense of entitlement. SOMEtimes, not always. Or the people who think they're going to "trick the system" or take advantage of worker's comp, etc. So that stuff is frustrating. But also making things work again, and restoring people's function and/or relieving their pain is really satisfying.
Hartford is fine. Kind of a dumpy city... shuts down on the weekends... but there's plenty to do in the neighboring towns, etc. Though for such a small city, the traffic is unbelievable. Totally ridiculous, and road-rage-inducing. And the utter disregard for, say, common traffic laws. Like huge trucks simply STOPPED in the turning lane, for hours, during rush hour, to unload. Not pulled over, not parked, just STOPPED, in the middle of traffic. Seriously?! WTF. Or people just running out in traffic without looking, and then screaming at me and giving me the finger when I have to slam on the brakes in order to not hit them, b/c I have a green light and they just didn't even look.
the boy is good. Really good. And I'm really glad he got to come to Buffalo with me, and meet some of you. :) He was saying last night that he's getting a little freaked out that we haven't annoyed each other or had a fight yet, and that he thinks we need to have a fight, just so we can survive it and get it over with. But the thing is... I honestly can't think of anything to fight with him about. All my previous fights have been b/c a boy acts like a douche and then I am all hurt and wounded... then I pout and act like a baby, and things go to hell. But... this guy... isn't a douche?! It's like it throws my whole worldview upside down, and I don't know what to do. Ha!
But, we're like boring old people. I feel like my life has made the switch from single-party-girl to boring-couple-girl. Most nights we eat some dinner and fall asleep watching a movie on the couch. And while part of me feels like that makes me "lame"- at the same time, I'm perfectly happy with it. And in all honesty, *this* is more who I am... a homebody. Staying out til 4 and getting wasted isn't really me- it's me putting on a show and trying to be cool. So, maybe I'm lame and boring now. But- I'm happy that way. :)
Although this weekend a few friends are coming in to town, and we're going to the Harvard-Yale game. I'm hoping to see some friends from school... should be fun. And, my dad went to Yale. And my boy's dad went to Harvard... so it might even be a chance to get our parents to meet each other. Except, my dad had both his knees replaced a couple weeks ago, so he may not be quite up to it by next weekend. But maybe that's good... both our moms are making incessant wedding comments, so maybe it's better if they DON'T get together quite yet. ;)
Oh- well here's some crazy news to tuck away at the end...
A month or so ago I started doing the Wii Active "30 day challenge". It's not like a crazy high impact workout, but, I figure it gets me motivated and gets me off the couch. Gets my heart rate up a little, and uses muscles that I haven't used in a while.
Well, after a couple weeks, my ankles were a little sore. So I took some advil and took a few days off. They got better. I went back to it- they hurt again. So i asked a guy at work, kind of in passing "hey, what does it mean if your ankle hurts right here?" and he checked it out and said 'here?? yeah, you need xrays". So I got xrays. he said 'you need an MRI'. So, I got an MRI. And- I have stress fractures in both ankles and both heels. WTF?! From doing freaking WII?! So, I feel like a ridiculous wuss. But, the upside- it is DOCTOR'S ORDERS that I do not exercise. So really... that means it's not my fault I'm being a lazy ass. I'm not allowed to exercise! Even if I wanted to! Unfortunately I seem to have also extended it to mean "eat like a pig- doctor's orders". bleh, time to get back on track....
Hmm. so. That's what's going on in my glamorous life...
I always have some story or another getting me all fired up... I'll try to remember some to share with you...
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11/16/2009 16:34 #50323
Aw, thanks!11/15/2009 16:53 #50311
testingJust wondering if anyone reads me anymore, or if I should just quit...
metalpeter - 11/17/09 19:14
I read yours. There is a balance between writting for yourself and for others. I admit sometimes I'm not sure who I'm writting for.
I read yours. There is a balance between writting for yourself and for others. I admit sometimes I'm not sure who I'm writting for.
hodown - 11/16/09 11:25
I read your journal! I'm just not a huge commenter (or blogger for that matter) anymore. But I for sure read and am interested in what you're up to :)
I read your journal! I'm just not a huge commenter (or blogger for that matter) anymore. But I for sure read and am interested in what you're up to :)
deeglam - 11/16/09 10:30
bah! no quitting!!!!! I read!
bah! no quitting!!!!! I read!
ladycroft - 11/16/09 07:22
i have to agree with paul. i write my journal for me to remember what's going on in my life. occasionally i ask for direct input from peeps but it really shouldn't be about feeling like people read you only if they make comments. sometimes what you (as in the writer) finds interesting isn't as interesting to other people. comments and views don't determine someone's likeability, so please don't place that kind of unrealistic expectation on yourself!
i have to agree with paul. i write my journal for me to remember what's going on in my life. occasionally i ask for direct input from peeps but it really shouldn't be about feeling like people read you only if they make comments. sometimes what you (as in the writer) finds interesting isn't as interesting to other people. comments and views don't determine someone's likeability, so please don't place that kind of unrealistic expectation on yourself!
vincent - 11/16/09 02:07
Yea, I'm always reading. You may be on to something about the lack of boy drama ;-) But honestly I knew that phase in your life wouldn't last or you just wouldn't have any semblance of mental health.
It's hard for me when I write as I tend to over think if I want to write a post for (e:strip) that may be picked up by a web crawler.
I like for instance, would you want to post something about a personal medical incident over here as opposed to what may be updated over at another social networking site?
Yea, I'm always reading. You may be on to something about the lack of boy drama ;-) But honestly I knew that phase in your life wouldn't last or you just wouldn't have any semblance of mental health.
It's hard for me when I write as I tend to over think if I want to write a post for (e:strip) that may be picked up by a web crawler.
I like for instance, would you want to post something about a personal medical incident over here as opposed to what may be updated over at another social networking site?
tinypliny - 11/15/09 23:06
Err... I believe the phrase is "testing, 123".
Err... I believe the phrase is "testing, 123".
mrmike - 11/15/09 21:52
I think the Do nothing legislature was no surprise. Don't quit, we're reading and we miss you.
I think the Do nothing legislature was no surprise. Don't quit, we're reading and we miss you.
paul - 11/15/09 19:40
I didn't mean your other entries were boring. I rather liked the tantrum Warcraft one.
I didn't mean your other entries were boring. I rather liked the tantrum Warcraft one.
jenks - 11/15/09 19:15
Sure, I know... I don't write FOR comments, but usually I try to post stuff that I think others will enjoy/find interesting, etc- but I was just a little surprised no one commented on the last one (or several others lately)- just made me wonder if no one reads anymore.
Or maybe since I don't have my usual boy drama sagas to report on, that makes me boring. ;)
Sure, I know... I don't write FOR comments, but usually I try to post stuff that I think others will enjoy/find interesting, etc- but I was just a little surprised no one commented on the last one (or several others lately)- just made me wonder if no one reads anymore.
Or maybe since I don't have my usual boy drama sagas to report on, that makes me boring. ;)
paul - 11/15/09 18:03
I read this but it was boring... I write my journal for myself, to keep a record of what I was thinking about. It you just write a journal for comments you are bound to be dissapointed unless each entry is really appealing to your audience and begs a response. Either that or you make so controversial that people can't stop themselves from responding.
I read this but it was boring... I write my journal for myself, to keep a record of what I was thinking about. It you just write a journal for comments you are bound to be dissapointed unless each entry is really appealing to your audience and begs a response. Either that or you make so controversial that people can't stop themselves from responding.
10/06/2009 19:54 #49951
for terry? ;)Wow... Best tantrum ever.
terry - 11/15/09 19:50
Somehow I did miss this journal.
That is one tantrum. OMG!!! I can say for sure that I would also run away and never comeback if my WoW was cancelled.
Somehow I did miss this journal.
That is one tantrum. OMG!!! I can say for sure that I would also run away and never comeback if my WoW was cancelled.
theecarey - 10/09/09 11:50
hahahhaha oh my! I need to send this to a friend who will enjoy imagining that that is her 30 year old ex boyfriend, who now lives back with his mom, and just plays WOW for real.
Peter, it appears that the tantrum kids mother just told him that his WOW account was being deactivated. His brother knew a wild tantrum was going to happen and wanted to record it, so he set it up real quick before his brother ran into his bedroom for a melt down. Sounds like tantrums are a regular occurrence in that household.
hahahhaha oh my! I need to send this to a friend who will enjoy imagining that that is her 30 year old ex boyfriend, who now lives back with his mom, and just plays WOW for real.
Peter, it appears that the tantrum kids mother just told him that his WOW account was being deactivated. His brother knew a wild tantrum was going to happen and wanted to record it, so he set it up real quick before his brother ran into his bedroom for a melt down. Sounds like tantrums are a regular occurrence in that household.
ladycroft - 10/08/09 12:54
OK, what was with the magic trick of taking his clothes off under the cover?
OK, what was with the magic trick of taking his clothes off under the cover?
metalpeter - 10/07/09 18:19
I didn't get why he freaked out what his brother did, and why not just beat his brothers ass? Also why was the webcam on?
I didn't get why he freaked out what his brother did, and why not just beat his brothers ass? Also why was the webcam on?
jenks - 10/07/09 16:55
Seriously?
No one?
Wah. You guys don't read me anymore, do you?
sniff sniff.
Oh well.
[\pathetic whine]
Seriously?
No one?
Wah. You guys don't read me anymore, do you?
sniff sniff.
Oh well.
[\pathetic whine]
09/28/2009 19:29 #49878
update, baby pixSo... I haven't been writing much, but... things are good. Really good.
I like this boy. Like, a lot. Have never had anything go so smoothly. And have never been less scared to think about a future.
I won't gush too much b/c I even make mySELF sick. LOL.
So, here are some pix.
First- My cutie-patootie little niece, who will be ONE in a few weeks. :)
The leaves are changing. Sigh. I guess summer is really over.
I like this boy. Like, a lot. Have never had anything go so smoothly. And have never been less scared to think about a future.
I won't gush too much b/c I even make mySELF sick. LOL.
So, here are some pix.
First- My cutie-patootie little niece, who will be ONE in a few weeks. :)
The leaves are changing. Sigh. I guess summer is really over.
11/12/2009 17:51 #50287
hard at workI don't know if this is real or not, but god this shit pisses me off.
This is an email my dad sent me:
THEY CAN'T READ THE BILLS THEY VOTE ON...
BUT THEY CAN PLAY SOLITAIRE AND CHECK BALL SCORES
Nothing else need to be said. This is one of their THREE DAY WORK WEEKS that we all pay for. I am ready to start from the beginning by voting out all elected officials and not letting any of them stay in office for more than two terms. No more lifelong healthcare, retirement, voting in their own pay raises, taking perks on our taxes, etc.
House Minority Leader Lawrence F. Cafero Jr., R-Norwalk, pictured standing, far right, speaks while colleagues Rep. Barbara Lambert, D-Milford and Rep. Jack F. Hennessy, D-Bridgeport, play solitaire Monday night as the House convened to vote on a new budget. (AP)
The guy sitting in the row in front of these two... he's on Facebook, and the guy behind Hennessy is checking out the baseball scores.
These are the folks that decide how much and where the money you pay in taxes is spent...they regulate the US budget and are the ones who can't get the budget out by Oct. 1, Seriously...
So, we've got a 30 day budget extension. Well, guess what, 30 days from now we will be in the same boat. I guess this makes it easy for the news 'reporters' as all they have to do is recycle the same headlines from this week and from 2 years ago. And these yo-yo's will still be playing games....
This is an email my dad sent me:
THEY CAN'T READ THE BILLS THEY VOTE ON...
BUT THEY CAN PLAY SOLITAIRE AND CHECK BALL SCORES
Nothing else need to be said. This is one of their THREE DAY WORK WEEKS that we all pay for. I am ready to start from the beginning by voting out all elected officials and not letting any of them stay in office for more than two terms. No more lifelong healthcare, retirement, voting in their own pay raises, taking perks on our taxes, etc.
House Minority Leader Lawrence F. Cafero Jr., R-Norwalk, pictured standing, far right, speaks while colleagues Rep. Barbara Lambert, D-Milford and Rep. Jack F. Hennessy, D-Bridgeport, play solitaire Monday night as the House convened to vote on a new budget. (AP)
The guy sitting in the row in front of these two... he's on Facebook, and the guy behind Hennessy is checking out the baseball scores.
These are the folks that decide how much and where the money you pay in taxes is spent...they regulate the US budget and are the ones who can't get the budget out by Oct. 1, Seriously...
So, we've got a 30 day budget extension. Well, guess what, 30 days from now we will be in the same boat. I guess this makes it easy for the news 'reporters' as all they have to do is recycle the same headlines from this week and from 2 years ago. And these yo-yo's will still be playing games....
Holy crap wii injuries? Maybe you did too much at once. I do that sometimes when I don't exercise for a bit and then I go all crazy on it.
Rory and I have never had a fight. I don't think it's abnormal, I think it just means you communicate well.
Well At least you didn't try Dance Dance Revolution that could have been a lot worse, of an injury.
I say go to Texas, work for a few years and then come back to family long term. Who knows, maybe the salary is high because a) they get a variety of complicated cases or b) a high load of rich patients with the most common cosmetic referrals in your field or c) a high load of cases, regardless of complexity?
Anyway you look at it - you might have a chance at earning good experience with the nice benefits of a comfortable salary. For the long term, I think staying close to family is probably the best thing you could ever do.
Wow. You got stress fractures in both ankles and both heels? Doesn't that happen in seasoned track and field athletes?! What was the challenge - to run and vault like an Olympian?!