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03/17/2009 19:16 #48091

Mortality
Category: reflection
ack been sick.

everyone I know has been sick, and normally I can bypass the effects of shared germs by getting extra sleep. When I don't sleep, I'm screwed.

I have been taking care of a friend of the family at night. He is 90 years old. His wife of the same age is in the hospital recuperating from a fall. She is mentally with it and sprite. He has some mild dementia that leaves him a little confused at times. Each day is almost a new day. Some things carry over, sometimes I am listening to the same loop of conversation. Anyway, between family and friends, someone is with him all the time. He goes to a day program then visits his beloved wife (who he is insanely in love with- if nothing else he remembers that everyday) in the evening. At night, someone stays over. He tends to not sleep all night and needs reminders to do a few hygiene things in the morning. Someone is there to pretty much ensure his safety in case he falls or something. Not to interfere too much or take away his independence. Just be there.

So I have been helping out 4 nights a week. I figure that it is temporary (until she gets back home) and it greatly helps everyone out. Although I can fall asleep if I want, I find it very hard to do so.
1. it isn't my own place
2. the tiny couch is uncomfy
3. He is asleep by nine or so then up for a few hours by midnight, then on and off regularly the remainder of the night. I'm definitely awake when he is.

Some nights I can doze off for an hour at a time for a combined and broken 2-3 hours max. Thats a good night. I go home in the morning and eventually grab three hours of straight solid sleep. That really messes with me!

I'm not complaining- just leading up to my being sick this weekend. As when everyone around me was getting sick, I ended up the same, especially after a few sleepless nights. Pretty much a cold- snots, stuffed nose, achy eyes, disconnected feeling.

Overall I'm not concerned about the lack of sleep situation, as it is temporary (otherwise couldn't continue for long term), and this gentleman is such a joy to be around.A true personal learning experience.

I've never been around "older" people. Actually, I am rarely if ever around anyone on either side of my life age continuum- ie; no one especially advanced in age or babies/toddlers. My grandparents died around the time of my birth, I have little family so no babies around, and my friends don't have/don't want kids- so no babies lurking around. I don't personally want any and the youngest kid I am around now a days is my boyfriends 3 yr old son, whom I see/hang out with on part of the weekend.

For the oldest I am around on occasion would be my aunt and uncle who are 70, so I guess that could count, but they are so young, hip, worldly and energetic that I have in my mind that that is the standard for that age. Maybe it is, if not, I hope to be just like them.

But 90- wow. It is surreal to think how much someone of that age has seen and gone through. For those that are healthy and mentally clear, I imagine it to be quite an experience to look back on their lives and realize what things were important and what things were stupid time wasters. What are the regrets, what are the moments of satisfaction that carried throughout the years?
and what it must be like to fade away, if you happen to suffer from mild dementia. Some times you are there, sometimes not, sometimes you hover in between. It must be difficult to watch someone you love hang there too. As dementia worsens, they aren't dying per se, but they are slipping away. That is scary.

So this has made me think of my own mortality lately..

where I want my life to go, what I want to put more effort into, what I want to put less effort into, what matters, what really doesn't, what sort of care and prospects do I want/need if I happen to get into late geriatric years. Also, what do I want to leave behind in terms of who I am... and does it matter?

So those are some of my thoughts as of late.

that and which netbook I plan to purchase this week. Asus? Acer? HP? Dell? I'd like to keep it cheap. My laptop is working at the moment and is why I can post, but I need something asap for the next round of when it doesn't work.


Well, right now, I have to get ready to head back out to his place. Being sick and sleeping part of the day, I have totally missed out on the nicer, warmer sunnier weather. Hope you have been enjoying it!
metalpeter - 03/18/09 17:53
Just wanted to mention something, I don't think about that stuff very often. But it does factor into why I print all my pictures out. Yes I do have some on old discs that I would like to convert, still haven't figured out the best way to do that. I picture is a picture and you just look at it and you don't need any other device. Yeah pictures on a disc are great, if you have a computer. What about when CD and DVD formats get replaced and then there are no way to see those pictures, then they are gone. Yes they may also be online. But can a web site really hold say 60 years of pictures and what happens if the web site goes away?

03/14/2009 00:52 #48046

A-HA! Toshiba Tecra A2 notes, con't
Category: nerd
A-HA! The mouse and touchpad do not work (or stop working shortly) once the power cord is plugged in. unplug. works. plug in, stops working. hmmmmm

yet, works better at home, stationary, with power cord plugged in for days as opposed to then when taken to BF's or some coffee shop, and laptop starts up with little to no battery power and so I need to plug the cord in... and mice/touch pad issues are at their worst.

it's in the power

I'm getting there.

but I'm still buying new/newer stuff soon.

(e:theecarey,47962)
(and (e:theecarey,47877) and (e:theecarey,47879))



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tinypliny - 03/15/09 19:09
The truth about chatrooms. Heh

03/07/2009 16:15 #47976

Baileys Ice Cream Freudian Dreams
Category: silliness
Although I had enough sleep, I wasn't ready to get out of bed when I looked at the clock. Instead of getting up, I switched positions, buried my head under two pillows to block out the light, and fell back into a light sleep and equally light dreams.

Usually my dreams are replete with adventure, sex, espionage, quantum physics and tons of weirdness.

One of the last ones I had this morning was one where I dreampt of alcohol, of being in a liquor store shopping for a small dinner party later that night. For reasons that do not necessarily mimic real life choices, I was searching for super sweet selections. ie; ice wine, Tequila Rose, Kahlua, Baileys*. I recall finding odd shaped bottles of pre made martinis. On the shelf were several frosted glass isosceles triangular bottles, the long tip being the opening, and somehow, also the bottom of the bottle. I bypassed those momentarily, as the thought of making mudslides sounded really good.

Still dreaming, this idea prompted me to entertain the idea of alcoholic ice cream. I spoke about it to the friend in my dream. Lovely cool scoops of ice cream that tasted like any sort of beverage you desired, and actually had that alcohol contained within. MmMmmMmmmm. My dream proceeded onto more interesting material, and there was a lot more to even this one, but this little bit remained as a fresh memory upon waking.

Now I could go for some Baileys icec ream- maybe in a soft serve custard? nice!

Alcohol ice cream has been done:


Makes me want to try making of my own.
Snoopy snow cones made with vodka doesn't count. Who was that? I bet it was (e:mike)?

I think the alcohol element derived from all the sweet drinks and various 'martini' talk around here, and I'm pretty sure that the ice cream element rose from my reading material last night, one of Augusten Burroughs many memoirs, Running with Scissors. (Is this a movie now?)

In a chapter titled, "School Daze", young (13) Augusten is reflecting that things going on in his life are much more interesting than anything in school. That when in school, he felt completely unable to identify with the lives of his fellow students. He didn't want to go to school and only went when necessary. An excerpt from one passage:

"How could I just sit there obediently pinning a butterfly's wings to a lab tray or memorizing prepositional phrases? When the other boys in the locker room were showering and talking about their weekends playing soccer, what was I supposed to say. "Oh, I had a great time. My thirty-three year old boyfriend said he wished they could package my cum like ice cream so he could eat it all day."
:X
and that last sentence stuck with me.

If I am to take anything away from my dream, it is to get drunk and laid pronto.


I can not draw with this. Some of you can create masterpieces.
I've got master pieces of crap. Not that that stops me :)

triangular martini bottles
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licking a cone of baileys ice cream
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  • Are other brands of Irish Cream any good? If so, which? I've only purchased Baileys, but I've seen a few others and was curious.
libertad - 03/09/09 13:31
Why not do bananas foster? It is so fun and easy to make and you get to light the booz on fire which is super fun. The rum in vanilla ice cream is so yum.
theecarey - 03/08/09 19:04
seems you are right, (e:jenks), that it is tricky to infuse ice cream with alcohol for that very reason- alcohol would keep it from reaching true freezing temps. So I'm all for some soft serve style!

Also, I'm working through Burroughs memoirs. I just read an excerpt from, "Dry" late last night. David Sedaris is fun to read if you like memoirs.

Dreams are fascinating, the things our minds come up with at night are so bizarre and at times, telling. I am reading/rereading a book titled, Dreaming as Delirium: How the Brain Goes Out of Its Mind" by J. Allan Hobson (2000). It is an interesting perspective into our sleeping lives.
jenks - 03/08/09 13:30
I think the problem with alcoholic ice cream is that etoh will keep it from freezing well.

Running with scissors is indeed a movie- I'm actually in the middle of it now. great cast (anette bening, alec baldwin...). Loved the book- not sure yet how the movie stacks up. His autobiography, Dry, is also really good.

I had a crazy dream last night... in which i proposed to a boyfriend. Bought him a ring and all. But regretted it. Through the whole dream had no idea who the BF was. til at the very end I saw his face- he said 'are you sure you want to do this?'- and it was my BF from med school- but he had no teeth. Yuck. WTF. I was happy to wake up from that one.
metalpeter - 03/07/09 17:13
That article said more then I was going to add about a good way of doing it is adding alcohol to things that would go in the ice cream like Rum for an example. I have all ways wanted to try drinks that combined Ice Cream and Liquar but I don't know if my insides could Handle them both at the same time. The thing I wonder about is How fancy people would get, in terms of drinks and Ice Cream. What would Flavored Vodka do for the taste?

03/05/2009 17:35 #47962

notes to myself- laptop issues, pc needs
Category: nerd
laptop issues continue (e:theecarey,47877)
(e:theecarey,47879)

So, my computer mouse and touch pad issues did not mysteriously disappear as I had hoped. While I enjoy miraculous recoveries of inanimate objects, there is usually an underlying issue that needs to be addressed.

Originally, two mice failed to work. USB ports are working with other components. Touchpad stops working or works intermittently at the same time that the mice fails. After uninstalling the mouse drivers and allowing the computer to reinstall them, I found that neither continued to work. I did not see how a new mouse would help, but I had picked one up anyway as I wanted a retractable travel variety. Interestingly, the mouse worked. (e:theecarey,47877)

Forward to a couple weeks later or so, and now the same issues have reemerged. Touchpad and mouse work intermittently. Now that I have backed everything up with my new hard drive (e:theecarey,47946), I am much more open to experimentation. Going to root around in the video stuff soon..

But all that stuff besides, I am facing the reality of having to purchase a new computer. I've had this Toshiba laptop for over four years, my old Gateway laptop (still running, but has its own set of issues) for about seven years, and for kicks, I still have my desktop circa 1997; rarely used but once or twice a year- wow, twelve years already? (it collects dust)

I know I have prattled on about buying a new PC on and off for some time. I always want new gadgets, but am often reticent in plunking down the money until I have to. So now reality is setting in, and I really need to figure out what I want, need, etc.

Ideally, I would build a desktop myself and purchase a little laptop for my mobile/in between needs. That would be a toss up between the ASUS or the HP. Not sure what my budget is yet, but once I start getting prices that will help figure out what I want to spend versus what I have to spend.

I miss CompUSA. Online, I usually look at TigerDirect.com


03/04/2009 16:35 #47946

Backin' Up to a Big Hard One
Category: nerd
sorry again, (e:metalpeter) - nothing risque to be seen here. (again!)

drats.

I'll leave that to (e:paul) and (e:hodown) :)


I purchased a 1TB external hard drive over the weekend.

I went with the Western Digital My Book Essential Edition. After some research and checking price points, I felt comfortable going with this one at this time.

It is a simple plug and play utilizing its USB connection cord.

I have since backed up my music, photos and other files from my primary laptop, but I have plenty more to back up from my other computer and CD-ROMs, and even a slew of old floppy disks. I will continue to back up on disk (back up to the back up), then also back up on occasion to the external hard drive. I don't see myself having it continually in use at this point.

I now want to pull the tools off the drive (save them to a disk/flash drive) and reformat the drive to get that space back. I imagine I would lose everything I have saved to it so far? Anyway, I'm not in a hurry as I'm not hurting for the 465GB that it takes up, but would like to know that I have all that extra space for my precious belongings.

Here are some Google images:

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tinypliny - 03/15/09 18:19
Keep us updated on how this one fares!
metalpeter - 03/05/09 17:24
I have seen Benny Hill but can't remember much of it other then him chasing around ladies who where like in some kind of underwear out fit. Then they would play that chase scene music.
heidi - 03/04/09 20:41
Very sexy!
theecarey - 03/04/09 18:59
LOL, exactly!

Oh, yes, Austin Powers is a good example.

Also, I am just remembering, The Benny Hill show, a British comedy that came on in reruns. Ever watch it? I remember that was FULL of double entendre. Haven't seen it since I was a kid. Now I need to youtube that show. It is probably even funnier now.
metalpeter - 03/04/09 18:46
Oh god the way I wrote that comment was awesome I just re read it. The funny part is what it meant wasn't what I meant it to mean. I wanted it to mean that I made it to the end of your post, and that I had seen like Minority report and one of those other movies. But to read it alone it sounds like I meant I have watched devouring dick movies and that I made it through the entire movie, that is awesome. I forget what movies used all the double entantres I want to say it was the funny Austin Powers movies.
theecarey - 03/04/09 18:38
yes, I've always been fond of double entendre post titles- interpretation is exclusive to the person reading it; and we have a lot of wonderfully naughty minded (e:peeps), so it is extra fun.
You can just call me a tease, (e:metalpeter)
not the first time in my life, ;)
and your comment to "Devouring Dick" (e:theecarey,47781) is one to remember. (I eventually added: '....Philip K. Dick' for search purposes) One of these days, there will be something behind the title to back it up!

metalpeter - 03/04/09 18:28
Man (e:theecarey) did it to me again, and I think she is going to keep doing it to me again, HA. With all these scandalous tittles when I put something that is really scandalous no one will see it, HA. Seriously though, I really need to get one of those hard drives I would like to get a bunch of these pictures off, of my mothers computer and maybe speed it up a bit. The thing I'm worried about is if something is on the hard drive will programs like (e:strip) and other sites when they try to open it will they see it as a picture (like how they do know) or just a file name. A lot of times things on CD show up as a file name.
paul - 03/04/09 17:28
I see you are joining in on the scandalous title entries.