That way back index from google is kind of crazy in looking back. I remember I googled an ex-girlfriend around that time and discovered that she was married. I later found out that it was a totally insane unbalanced Vegas wedding and later confessed some crazy things. So from that experience although I did get a chuckle that search result was still there, although the page that lead to her email at the time has long been taken down obviously. Ah memories...

On another thought the good old existential side of myself got some pretty good material over the weekend. I kind of knew her as she was a waitress at a local restaurant where I washed dished as a kid. Later she was the local bartender as mentioned in the article and kind of an institution, although I rarely ever went there.

The scary part was that I actually was driving the 290 that night as I was coming home from a birthday get together at the house of a guy i work with around 12 midnight or so. It was eerie foggy that night as if it was out of some insane movie on IFC or Sundnace. It also kind of got me thinking as Monday would have been my sister's birthday, if she wasn't in a car accident.

What am I trying to say. It's really a reality check as to why I am being so conservative with my life. What do I gain from living a frugal life and not doing anything exciting with my time or money? Yea as I learned in August going to the Hard Rock Hotel in Vegas and partying like a rockstar isn't the answer to life, that rock and roll fantasy really threw me against the wall mentally in a way, but in some ways I needed to have reality slap me in the face. All that really did was reinforce the truth that you need close friends that give a shit about you if you ever get into a messy situation.

Another question is that even in the face of this coming clusterfuck (this bailout isn't going to save us all even in the shorterm "my opinion") did the people that spent and partied like there is no tomorrow have something right in their philosophy? They lived life to the fullest & some of them are getting their ass saved. Heck they most of them actually get laid and sleep with some beautiful people to boot. While stiffs like me just work, save and play it safe with most aspects of their life.

I guess what I'm just reflecting is maybe deep down inside I'm kind of disappointed that there isn't a payoff yet for the people that didn't overextend themselves. We'll have to get to the point of bank holidays and people selling pencils for some dorkish principles that I hold true to become attractive and pay off. The swagger of the last time period has not died off as of yet, unless you're (e:hodown) in NYC looking at people freaking out that their life as they knew it has ceased to exist.

If you made it this far thanks for reading my neurosis. I'm going to read some Jean-Paul Sartre and go to bed now...

Yea, I'm a bit surprised that the numbers for the Dow and Nasdaq worked out so nice. The only time I can remember closing numbers being so freaky is when the U.S. went into Bosnia & the Dow closed @ 10,666. Actually thinking back to that time wasn't it the Clinton administration ? Wait someone did talk about the Clinton administration today:



There is some validity in the speech, but at the same time a lot of stuff was sure left out as to how we ended up at this place in the recent past. This video is for the most part a McCain campaign ad, but it does bring up one point. The GSE's that were protected by the democrats in committee here were NEVER under SOX or Sarbaines-Oxley that little Accounting law that was intended to prevent things like this from ever happening after Enron.

So all I'm saying is that both parties are to blame and nothing that was done 6 months or a 1 year ago caused this to all happen. Also 40% of the Democrats voted AGAINST the bill. Did she say the things above just to get a word of spit in knowing that the whole thing was dead at that point? What happened to the new era of post-partisanship?

To play on the downside that is...

Wachovia gets taken out

The ironic part is that at the end of the day it was worth pennies. Which totally pissed me off in the sense that this whole "Get Shorty" thing with the markets is just a big central planning lie. In reality short sellers are just playing a game of "I Call Bullshit" on a grand scale. Now that it's monday how can anyone say that the company really deserved to be trading at 19.71    as recently as 9/8/2008??? The thing was just as overpriced as a house on the coasts.

I recieved a text tonight from my friend in Las Vegas that I am in a Fantasy Hockey League with saying he was going to just watch over and over again tonight the movie Slap Shot

Yes, Paul Newman had a great career and also kick ass Salad Dressing. But it's the role of Reggie 'Reg' Dunlop that really blew me away as a kid watching the movie on WUTV Ch 29 some random evening in the mid to late 80's

Then again most people just remember the Hanson Brothers. Well, here's a clip that kid of combines the two...

I just love it when the political and financial worlds collide. The sad part is all of this has become a game or many at once.

So in the last 24 hours we have a game of chicken in regards to the debates. Are they going to go down to Ole Miss and debate tomorrow? Will the just say screw it and have something on the spot right in D.C., i mean why bother hopping on a private jet at that point? The logistics would be pretty brutal for either candidate. This has almost gotten to the point of reminding me of "wrasslin" back in the day when it was descent, during the Monday night wars. When the seed of doubt would be planted if such and a such wrestler would show up on Nitro/Raw. Some sick part of me can see John McCain busting in on Obama's 1 hour free commercial right @ :49 past the hour. You know the whole, shot of the limo on the jumbotron and then suddenly an emergence from the crowd. It's is just so mind boggling to think of the different angles being played in regards to posturing for the presidential election, along with the party values of the extreme wings. Just flipping on cable news you seen Barney Frank giving one update and Richard Shelby giving another on another channel. How could you even being to think that Bush would let either McCain or Obama get in the mix of this insanity and take away any credit in helping with this "Bi-Partisan" effort.

Plus just when you think things get worse, we play "Deal or No Deal" with the whole Wall St Bail Out thing. We then have a middle of the night, bank failure with Washington Mutual going under. So it now becomes the "biggest bank failure", hey wait a minute wasn't Indymac the "biggest bank failure?"

I just though that I couldn't talk about this crap anymore until after the election, but it keeps getting more insane by the day.