So today, I'm at work. Not a lot of motivation: my job seems really really meaningless lately and i can't summon enthusiasm. I don't care enough about money to love my job for it. Just like I don't care enough about the concept of being Skinny to actually bother Dieting for it, so I don't really like the concept of Money enough to make myself motivated to earn it.
Anyway.
Having a tough time here.
Was looking through a folder of info. There was a file on a topic I hadn't thought about in a while, and it looked like it had stuff I didn't know, so I opened it to read it.
The opening paragraph was kinda witty, and I was like, "Who wrote this? I like their style." The info was clearly and engagingly presented, and I read the piece with some enjoyment before I scrolled down to the bottom, looking for the signature lines at the end (it was a letter).
I wrote it.
It must have been some months ago. I have no memory of it.
I feel kinda dirty. I was totally checking myself out and had no idea.
Also I've been here too long, if this sort of thing can happen.
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i feel dirty01/02/2008 21:24 #42729
skating // not skatingHey-- it never occurred to me to ask anyone on here before this moment, but if you're interested in buying a pin-up calendar featuring the members of my roller derby league (I play a featured role in the August photo), they're $11, the extra $1 being a donation to Crisis Services. 
Just thought I'd offer, seeing as they're timely at the moment.
If you want one... You can buy one at the bout on January 5th, in which I will be skating!!
JANUARY 5th 7 PM RAINBOW RINK N.T. TICKETS FOR SALE ONLINE AT QCRG.NET PLEASE PRETTY PLEASE COME I WILL CRY IF YOU DON'T.
Unless my knee doesn't improve. :( My left knee has been bothering me since mid-December, when I fell and bruised it. It hurts, sometimes quite badly, and sometimes not really; for a while I couldn't bend it, but I had convinced myself it was better until I fell again and it hurt a lot...
So I'm spending this week popping ibuprofin and icing it every hour and keeping it elevated and all that.
It doesn't seem to affect my skating.
No, I haven't seen a doctor. I'm an idiot. But I don't want them to say "It's a torn meniscus" and tell me to stay off it, when I know fine well to stay off it, and am doing all I can. I'm pretty sure it's not structurally injured, anyway. It supports me just fine, I just have to think real hard about kneeling on it. (And, usually, decide against kneeling on it.)
I have to decide by tomorrow whether it's fine or I have to tough up and tell my coach to put in one of the subs. I am so excited to have made the primary line-up, I really am, but it wouldn't be fair of me to insist on skating if my knee isn't OK-- there are six girls who have to sit out this first bout because of number constraints, and I don't want us to wind up skating short because I reinjure myself. (Once the squad of 14 is finalized there are no more substitutions.)
Sigh. Hard decision. My knee is mostly fine. But what if I land wrong?
OTHER NOT-SKATING NEWS.
I want a kick-ass garden this year.
Does anyone want to split a seed/plant order at any point?
Am in preliminary planning stages. A friend with a giant suburban yard is thinking of going in on this with me, and another friend who is a crazy subsistence gardener who this year has no yard is also thinking of helping out, so we may have a little weird mini-collective going on. I have high hopes for this year.
And I need to be doing something outside of work that isn't roller derby, so, I think gardening is it. I had a pathetic garden this year and am dying to not repeat that awful experience. (I just didn't have time.)
Just thought I'd offer, seeing as they're timely at the moment.
If you want one... You can buy one at the bout on January 5th, in which I will be skating!!
JANUARY 5th 7 PM RAINBOW RINK N.T. TICKETS FOR SALE ONLINE AT QCRG.NET PLEASE PRETTY PLEASE COME I WILL CRY IF YOU DON'T.
Unless my knee doesn't improve. :( My left knee has been bothering me since mid-December, when I fell and bruised it. It hurts, sometimes quite badly, and sometimes not really; for a while I couldn't bend it, but I had convinced myself it was better until I fell again and it hurt a lot...
So I'm spending this week popping ibuprofin and icing it every hour and keeping it elevated and all that.
It doesn't seem to affect my skating.
No, I haven't seen a doctor. I'm an idiot. But I don't want them to say "It's a torn meniscus" and tell me to stay off it, when I know fine well to stay off it, and am doing all I can. I'm pretty sure it's not structurally injured, anyway. It supports me just fine, I just have to think real hard about kneeling on it. (And, usually, decide against kneeling on it.)
I have to decide by tomorrow whether it's fine or I have to tough up and tell my coach to put in one of the subs. I am so excited to have made the primary line-up, I really am, but it wouldn't be fair of me to insist on skating if my knee isn't OK-- there are six girls who have to sit out this first bout because of number constraints, and I don't want us to wind up skating short because I reinjure myself. (Once the squad of 14 is finalized there are no more substitutions.)
Sigh. Hard decision. My knee is mostly fine. But what if I land wrong?
OTHER NOT-SKATING NEWS.
I want a kick-ass garden this year.
Does anyone want to split a seed/plant order at any point?
Am in preliminary planning stages. A friend with a giant suburban yard is thinking of going in on this with me, and another friend who is a crazy subsistence gardener who this year has no yard is also thinking of helping out, so we may have a little weird mini-collective going on. I have high hopes for this year.
And I need to be doing something outside of work that isn't roller derby, so, I think gardening is it. I had a pathetic garden this year and am dying to not repeat that awful experience. (I just didn't have time.)
janelle - 01/03/08 12:45
Urban Roots is on Rhode Island on the west side. It's a few blocks from where I live so that's how I know about it. It's a cooperative so you can become a member/owner and get a discount on purchases. Volunteer work might be involved. I'm not sure. It has a lot of great plants and very helpful staff. They helped us buy the right stuff to prepare the soil for my garden.
I started a lot of plants from seed last year, cucumbers, tomatoes, zucchinni, squash. I also did turnips, radish and lettuce from seeds planted straight into the backyard garden. It takes a bit of work and the right light to grow plants from seed, so I'm considering doing mostly plants from Urban Roots this year.
Let me know in spring if you'd like to split plants from urban roots.
Urban Roots is on Rhode Island on the west side. It's a few blocks from where I live so that's how I know about it. It's a cooperative so you can become a member/owner and get a discount on purchases. Volunteer work might be involved. I'm not sure. It has a lot of great plants and very helpful staff. They helped us buy the right stuff to prepare the soil for my garden.
I started a lot of plants from seed last year, cucumbers, tomatoes, zucchinni, squash. I also did turnips, radish and lettuce from seeds planted straight into the backyard garden. It takes a bit of work and the right light to grow plants from seed, so I'm considering doing mostly plants from Urban Roots this year.
Let me know in spring if you'd like to split plants from urban roots.
dragonlady7 - 01/03/08 12:27
I've never been to Urban Roots! Where is it?
I am thinking of buying seeds and starting them, but certain things are just easier to buy the plants... Plant shopping stressed me out, and part of last year's patheticness is that I had no time for seed starting so I ran out to my usual shop, Sunview on Sheridan, to buy plants, and they were OUT OF BUSINESS!!! The shock floored me. I had to buy stuff at Adams and don't know my way around there and I'm just a hopeless fogey.
I wonder if there's any kind of gardening club/collective/association in Buffalo? There should be!
LOL I asked my little sister (who works here:http://www.chicagobotanic.org/) for advice on making a garden to grow more of my food and her first question was, "Does your neighborhood allow chickens?" Whoa, I don't think I'm getting *that* ambitious.
I've never been to Urban Roots! Where is it?
I am thinking of buying seeds and starting them, but certain things are just easier to buy the plants... Plant shopping stressed me out, and part of last year's patheticness is that I had no time for seed starting so I ran out to my usual shop, Sunview on Sheridan, to buy plants, and they were OUT OF BUSINESS!!! The shock floored me. I had to buy stuff at Adams and don't know my way around there and I'm just a hopeless fogey.
I wonder if there's any kind of gardening club/collective/association in Buffalo? There should be!
LOL I asked my little sister (who works here:http://www.chicagobotanic.org/) for advice on making a garden to grow more of my food and her first question was, "Does your neighborhood allow chickens?" Whoa, I don't think I'm getting *that* ambitious.
janelle - 01/02/08 21:55
What type of plants/seeds? Flowers or vegetables? I would consider going in with you and buying vegetable plants at Urban Roots and splitting the packs of plants.
What type of plants/seeds? Flowers or vegetables? I would consider going in with you and buying vegetable plants at Urban Roots and splitting the packs of plants.
12/24/2007 09:35 #42633
not dead yet
12/08/2007 19:24 #42438
I always write about porn hereI'm totally still researching porn, lest you think all my earlier posts were in vain.
But I just wanted to share this snippet I found. I think the website is www.sexysamantha38G.com or somesuch-- she's a woman in her late 30s-early40s who's been doing Big Boobs Porn for a while, and I just love her style. She's blond, brash, brazen, busty, and all-natural, lets herself be whatever weight she is, and apparently is just sincerely horny as all get-out. She blogs and writes on message boards and what have you.
But this isn't really about that. I just think this picture, from an affiliate blog trying to drive traffic to her site, is absolutely hysterical.
Not X-rated, so I'm just posting it:
But I just wanted to share this snippet I found. I think the website is www.sexysamantha38G.com or somesuch-- she's a woman in her late 30s-early40s who's been doing Big Boobs Porn for a while, and I just love her style. She's blond, brash, brazen, busty, and all-natural, lets herself be whatever weight she is, and apparently is just sincerely horny as all get-out. She blogs and writes on message boards and what have you.
But this isn't really about that. I just think this picture, from an affiliate blog trying to drive traffic to her site, is absolutely hysterical.
Not X-rated, so I'm just posting it:
metalpeter - 12/08/07 19:54
I will check out her site and see where it takes me. You might find Porn 101 ok Katie Morgan's goes before it interesting it is currently on HBO but don't know if it is HBO on Demand yet. In terms of big boobs those look great. I love that expression o the guys face like "wow they are so big" and his eyes look like they are about to pop out of his head. I'm not (e:paul). But I think there is nothing wrong with having hardcore material. I think that there should be someway for blog sites to have a warning on a blog that pictures and or content on this blog is x-rated and only people over 21 should view it. Maybe it would be a giant parential warning graphic or something. The reason I say that is most blogs wouldn't be considered a porn site. But that is how most of the adult pictures of famous people get around the web so fast sometimes. It would also put the responsablity on the person who writes it, in stead of the person who runs the site or even the forum site and that would make the web more free. But I do also understand that you can't just have graphic sex pictures with up with out a real way to protect kids from finding them.
I will check out her site and see where it takes me. You might find Porn 101 ok Katie Morgan's goes before it interesting it is currently on HBO but don't know if it is HBO on Demand yet. In terms of big boobs those look great. I love that expression o the guys face like "wow they are so big" and his eyes look like they are about to pop out of his head. I'm not (e:paul). But I think there is nothing wrong with having hardcore material. I think that there should be someway for blog sites to have a warning on a blog that pictures and or content on this blog is x-rated and only people over 21 should view it. Maybe it would be a giant parential warning graphic or something. The reason I say that is most blogs wouldn't be considered a porn site. But that is how most of the adult pictures of famous people get around the web so fast sometimes. It would also put the responsablity on the person who writes it, in stead of the person who runs the site or even the forum site and that would make the web more free. But I do also understand that you can't just have graphic sex pictures with up with out a real way to protect kids from finding them.
james - 12/08/07 19:41
tits that can feed a nation, we salute you!
tits that can feed a nation, we salute you!
11/26/2007 23:44 #42300
boobiesHmph. I'm not trying to start drama with (e:imk2), but her post about how great little boobies are is leaving me scratching my head. if little boobies are feminine, then what the hell are big boobies? Masculine?
I think boobies of all shapes and sizes are awesome. Some may be more awesome than others but I decline to categorize the awesome; it is something that must be judged on a case-by-case basis. Preferably after extensive viewing, measuring, fondling, squeezing, and related testing. That's really the only way to judge.
A related rant: all these bras whose catalogue copy says absolutely retarded things, such as, "and frilly little bows give it that feminine touch." I ASK YOU, what is UNfeminine about a motherfucking BRA??? They are not always pretty, not always cute or girly or delicate, but I ASK you, how are they NOT feminine? I have NEVER NEVER NEVER seen, nor can I even begin to conceptualize, a MASCULINE bra.
A site which I love in all other ways epitomizes this-- on a quick perusal I can't find any examples, but if you read it you'll surely find at least one catalog blurb or customer comment that makes this idiotic semantic irrelevancy.
But I'm linking to it mostly because I love the site, and for those of you who feel a bit put-down about being busty, I give to you, Bravissimo.
Because as those of us over a DD know, there's actually a tremendous amount of shame attached to large breasts, which I think I've ranted about before. On Halloween one of my roller derby cohorts' first comment, upon seeing my costume, was, "Oh my God, you need a reduction."
In her defense, she's a very petite woman who had a reduction herself when she was a 30JJ, and is now a 32DD. And when I expressed shock at her statement, she retracted and said well, I carried it well.
But she's not the first to say that.
I really don't think I need surgery to be less awesome than I am. I think I'll just diet and exercise, like I already am, and see what happens. And if they don't get any smaller, I'll make porn so I can afford new bras.
(Guess who grew out of her GG bras over Thanksgiving? Yeah not so much dieting and exercising happened this past weekend.)
I think boobies of all shapes and sizes are awesome. Some may be more awesome than others but I decline to categorize the awesome; it is something that must be judged on a case-by-case basis. Preferably after extensive viewing, measuring, fondling, squeezing, and related testing. That's really the only way to judge.
A related rant: all these bras whose catalogue copy says absolutely retarded things, such as, "and frilly little bows give it that feminine touch." I ASK YOU, what is UNfeminine about a motherfucking BRA??? They are not always pretty, not always cute or girly or delicate, but I ASK you, how are they NOT feminine? I have NEVER NEVER NEVER seen, nor can I even begin to conceptualize, a MASCULINE bra.
A site which I love in all other ways epitomizes this-- on a quick perusal I can't find any examples, but if you read it you'll surely find at least one catalog blurb or customer comment that makes this idiotic semantic irrelevancy.
But I'm linking to it mostly because I love the site, and for those of you who feel a bit put-down about being busty, I give to you, Bravissimo.
Because as those of us over a DD know, there's actually a tremendous amount of shame attached to large breasts, which I think I've ranted about before. On Halloween one of my roller derby cohorts' first comment, upon seeing my costume, was, "Oh my God, you need a reduction."
In her defense, she's a very petite woman who had a reduction herself when she was a 30JJ, and is now a 32DD. And when I expressed shock at her statement, she retracted and said well, I carried it well.
But she's not the first to say that.
I really don't think I need surgery to be less awesome than I am. I think I'll just diet and exercise, like I already am, and see what happens. And if they don't get any smaller, I'll make porn so I can afford new bras.
(Guess who grew out of her GG bras over Thanksgiving? Yeah not so much dieting and exercising happened this past weekend.)
trisha - 12/10/07 14:57
at one time i would have agreed about the small boobs=extra girly thing, but that was only because i had small ones at that time. haha... kids changed that and, as there aren't too many positive changes to the female form after kids, i'm perfectly happy with my "big" Bs now.
at one time i would have agreed about the small boobs=extra girly thing, but that was only because i had small ones at that time. haha... kids changed that and, as there aren't too many positive changes to the female form after kids, i'm perfectly happy with my "big" Bs now.
metalpeter - 11/27/07 18:37
Thanks to the internet and a small amount of women, and porn, and movies and magazines I have seen a lot of breasts and it seems odd to me that it is all ways about size small or big or medium. Now what I'm going to say is going to say a lot about me but don't send hate mail, HA. One of the many things I like is Asian Girls who are pretty and one of the reason is that even when they have very small boobs they are still round (yeah I know that sounds stupid) but there shape is what ever shape it is when small and defined. I think I heard someone here say once that boobs are like good pizza yeah some are good some are great but in the end they are all great cause you are still eating pizza. I don't know as I have ever seen a set I didn't like and not sure I've ever seen what I would call perfect boobs.
The bra thing does bring up a pet peve of mine. I have no problem with women who want to show of there boobs but then don't get mad when we check them out, I get it you don't want a stare but a quck look is ok. Second point on Bras is that a lot of women and girls need to learn how to wear them. Yeah I'm a guy what do I know and how dare I say that. Well you see it all the time these girls with spagheti stap tops or these tiny little out fits where there bra is showing, Most of the time the bra is bigger then the out fit they are wearing or atleast shapped differently and that is kinda crazy. I'm not made it just seems kinda trashy. I will end with the fact that I love boobs in all shapes and sizes and it really isn't the size of them it is the size vs. body size really.
Thanks to the internet and a small amount of women, and porn, and movies and magazines I have seen a lot of breasts and it seems odd to me that it is all ways about size small or big or medium. Now what I'm going to say is going to say a lot about me but don't send hate mail, HA. One of the many things I like is Asian Girls who are pretty and one of the reason is that even when they have very small boobs they are still round (yeah I know that sounds stupid) but there shape is what ever shape it is when small and defined. I think I heard someone here say once that boobs are like good pizza yeah some are good some are great but in the end they are all great cause you are still eating pizza. I don't know as I have ever seen a set I didn't like and not sure I've ever seen what I would call perfect boobs.
The bra thing does bring up a pet peve of mine. I have no problem with women who want to show of there boobs but then don't get mad when we check them out, I get it you don't want a stare but a quck look is ok. Second point on Bras is that a lot of women and girls need to learn how to wear them. Yeah I'm a guy what do I know and how dare I say that. Well you see it all the time these girls with spagheti stap tops or these tiny little out fits where there bra is showing, Most of the time the bra is bigger then the out fit they are wearing or atleast shapped differently and that is kinda crazy. I'm not made it just seems kinda trashy. I will end with the fact that I love boobs in all shapes and sizes and it really isn't the size of them it is the size vs. body size really.
carolinian - 11/27/07 14:51
To me, The Perfact Rack resembles two medium-sized grapefruits sitting four-inches apart from each other on a very narrow shelf.
To me, The Perfact Rack resembles two medium-sized grapefruits sitting four-inches apart from each other on a very narrow shelf.
ladycroft - 11/27/07 02:21
i am content sitting on the fence in a happy DD.
i am content sitting on the fence in a happy DD.
If you don't do it for the money, do it for the clearly and engagingly presented information. Meow!