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04/26/2007 22:30 #39058

thruway adventure
Driving on the highway close to rush hour in a rain/thunder/lightening storm did not bother me at all. I was energetically singing along to the random songs shuffling out of my iPod.

what did bother me was the sensation of my hair standing on end- I know I stopped singing for a fraction of a second before experiencing what felt like something landing on the roof of my car and pushing down on it.

followed by an eerie flash of bright horizontal light directly in front of me.


my heart jumped into my throat.

I drove in wonderment for a few minutes while allowing my heart beat to regulate again before proceeded back to my sing fest.

creepy.


makes me want to go buy a big ole jackpot ticket..
ladycroft - 04/27/07 16:27
if you have to get hit, that's the best place to be! lightning bolts could hit you all day so long as you are inside that metal cage. very cool!
deeglam - 04/26/07 23:37
o my gosh! are you for real? that is insane! i am glad you are ok, but they say your car is the safest place to be in during a lightning storm. Wow....you may turn out to be one lucky lady as an outcome!
chico - 04/26/07 22:48
Whoa!!!! Your car was hit by lightning? I think you HAVE to buy lottery tickets. Damn!

04/25/2007 22:55 #39043

25 Cent Chicken Wings
Category: food
Brennan's Irish Pub in the village of Youngstown has .25 chicken wings on Wednesdays- they also have this special and a few others on Sabres game night. My step dad and I headed to the restaurant to partake in the festivities.

After several minutes of not knowing what I felt like eating, I ordered a bunch of wings.

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They were impressive. I waste so much with them, just pulling a little flesh off before discarding the remainder to the bone bowl. I rarely order wings- and never before ordered them for myself out in public; not for any particular reason. They just seem like such a 'sit-on-couch-while-watching-rented movie' sort of food. random old memory: And never ever try eating them shortly after having 4 wisdom teeth yanked out of your head. You can not eat chicken wings with your front teeth alone. haha

I certainly did not need to be watching the screen to know when the Sabres scored. Just the happy shouts alone gave it away.

Go Sabres!

pyrcedgrrl - 04/26/07 22:55
Hey! You were quite the little trooper w/ those post-wisdom extraction wings!!
theecarey - 04/25/07 23:36
they dunked 5 in the ice basket thingy ;)
paul - 04/25/07 23:20
How any touchdowns did they score, or is that homeruns - or holes in one?

04/24/2007 01:33 #39023

staircase to heaven... or hell?
Category: travel
omg!!

I need to go here.


electronic gadgets in any form are fun!


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An Apple store that is open 24/7!! Its not far enough away. Just a bus, train or plane ride away..

5th Avenue, Manhattan


mmmmm techy goodness in morning. in the afternoon. after dinner. before cocktails, before retiring for the night at say, 4am. oh boy, the trouble I could get myself into!

metalpeter - 04/24/07 17:20
In terms of the steps I would say that if you are going to heaven or hell is all about what direction you are going if it is up or down, or maybe you can just stand in the middle and be in purgatory :) . In any event it does look kinda cool but that glass on the steps looks kinda thin.
theecarey - 04/24/07 14:05
oh yes, I am well aware of the local Apple store, hence the fascination with the idea of there being one thats open 24/7! Ok and glass cube, underground store. Atleast at the Galleria we get kicked out at closing time, right? haha. Besides, visiting a glass block is much more appealing than a concrete one. :)




jenks - 04/24/07 13:47
I know it's not a glass cube that's open 24/7, but you do know there's an Apple Store in the Galleria, right? Sadly, I can not go to that mall without going there and coveting for at least half an hour. Kryptonite...
hodown - 04/24/07 12:38
I work right across the street! Go early or really late, otherwise its a nightmare full of tourists :)
museumchick - 04/24/07 09:21
  • grins* that would definitely be fun to visit.
mrmike - 04/24/07 08:53
And I will be there in four weeks (cue evil laugh)

04/22/2007 22:50 #39009

observations
1. Its officially ice cream season.

I love it any day, anytime of year- but today, there were hordes of people gathered around various ice cream joints. Namely, Cold Stone Creamery . I did not think to take a picture of the huge line that filled up the store and trickled out the door. I did not partake, as I was instead heading to a nearby Mighty Taco for lunch/dinner. yum. As much as I am a fan of the creamy cold goo, I am not fond of 'things' in my ice cream. Not that I will turn it away..



2. Do remember to trade your flimsy flip flops for a more substantial piece of walk wear when heading out for a trek.

Ok, I was heading one short block to Cafe 59 on Allen in my flip flops when reaching the door I saw that it was closed. No problem, I would just continue up to Chippewa to grab a coffee at Starbucks. Not a big deal until I decide to keep on, and on and on, and walk around the city a bit. Only once I returned to the 24, did I realize how much my feet felt a little beat up. And dirty.
update- i forgot that (e:mike) can totally testify to this!


3. Taking a nap to rejuvenate yourself is fine as long as you have something to rejuvenate for.

Sitting in my comfy rocker chair, covered up in a warm blanket listening to a relaxing cd, I dozed off. Did I really thing that anything but would happen? 45 minutes later, I awoke to wanting to do something, but realized it was too late to go do anything else- dark, Sunday, etc.. Now I am bouncing full of energy, ready to climb a mountain. I will not be going to bed anytime soon. Oops.


and thats about it.

think I'll have some soup and pester my roomies.


mrmike - 04/22/07 23:08
With ya on the ice cream season. It got cold quick on Friday night, but we sun-starved people huddled outside dairy queen. Women in flip flops trying convince themselves they weren't cold, even though it was getting close to the 40s.

The Kit Kat Blizzard was worth it.

04/22/2007 12:21 #39000

a few good nuggets
Steve Jobs' Commencement address (2005) on YouTube followed by the text version. I was sent this recently and thought there were a few good nuggets to share. Rather, take away from it what you will. Whether a good laugh, moment of contemplation, spark of epiphany or disgruntled snicker (you know who you are, haha), its a thoughtful read.



Text of Steve Jobs' Commencement address (2005)

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5ยข deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky - I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me - I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.
soma - 05/12/07 12:43
Thank You for Postig this.. i read the text version and will check the vd later.. .. But this moved me and is sooo true.. we cant link our failures to our successes until later in life... follow your heart follow your dreams.. and remember to live as today is the last...

life is a buisness... take care of your customers... ie[ friends family yourself and literally your customers in life] treat people like you want to be treated..

mrdt - 04/24/07 23:21
He had me until, "stay hungry, stay foolish."

But other than that. a great speech. Thanks for finding it.