I have downed a ton of orange juice these past few days. I experience an intense desire for juice occasionally; usually before and during a cold. I managed to chug 64 oz on my lunch break today. Although I do not feel any cold/sick symptoms, I felt a bit sluggish all day..felt, “odd”.
Upon getting home from work, I just wanted to crawl into bed and sleep for awhile. I put in a movie and buried myself under covers, but did not fall asleep. A couple of hours later I got up to get ready to go out.
Instead I did the heap of dirty dishes vomiting over the sink and counter top.
I made dinner.
I had a glass of wine.
And now some red bush tea.
And watching the Simpsons.
I feel fine. I could get in the car; but I just don’t feel compelled to do so, but what I do tomorrow could be another story.

Sometimes, I just don’t care whether I stay in or go out. I am comfortable enough with myself to just spend an evening chilling at home. I moved out of my house at the age of 19. Moved in with a boyfriend for a few years, went our separate ways.. had room mates, ditched them, had some more, realized that wasn't working for me (I consistently pay my bills), and then took to just hacking it alone.. for more than a few years now. I function at warp speed most of the time, and it just feels really good to not do anything. I have a lot of school work due this week, so I must get up early-ish and get started. It is the last week of this particular class, and there is an intimidating exam. I think that is the source of my feeling ‘odd’. I must be stressed. When I am stressed I can be ‘quiet’. Ahhh, I have it all figured out now. Just had to write out my thoughts.


I am certainly not opposed to visitors, though.


Here are a couple of pictures from the Tiki Party that I did not include before. I had wanted to include them in a post well before this, but better late than never. Fire! Fire!












And upon request: the quirky picture of (e:theecarey), (e:ladycroft) and (e:leetee)

Rock on!!!
I totally aced my mid term exam. 99% Looking around, there were many B grades on this in the class, so I am intrigued with this.

I am psyched.

And...
I got my student loan check today!

woo hooooooooooooooooooooo!

This girl can pay the rent and put gas in the car.. not sure what else to do.

I am not in the habit of spending money, since I am not in the habit of having an abundance; but maybe I'll get a little somethin' somethin' for myself.

or not.

I just finished up an assignment for class this week. I hadn't looked at it until last night. It was a paper that would be an address from me, as the CEO of an organization on the vision of the future. I found this oddly funny seeing as I had just had a coversation about this with a bunch of supervisory people at my work
[inlink]theecarey,22[/inlink] , in an interview of all places. Go Me.

I am not sure if I wrote it out as I should. I take artistic licsense in this one. Once I got started, I found I was having too much fun with it. I like it, so why change it?? We'll see if it is acceptable or not. I am young, have no major responsibilities, I do my own thing and take care of myself.. so I just go forward with what feels right. I have moxy..
this chick is not scared of anything.
(liar)

OK, the wind is freaking me out a bit. It has picked up and I haven't taken the Sin Tents down which (e:drchlorine) affectionately refers to them as. I hope they don't blow away. But its supposed to be mad windy. I'd go outside to get them, but its dark and scary out there. There are hairy beasts lurking.. they'll eat me or something. I have a wild imagination, and can't bring myself to do it..

(e:joshua) if you see my tents out there in KC, bring 'em home for me, k?

:)

I need bed. Dream land. I can't write coherently any longer.

good night

My sis sent this to me. I think it is funky..my brain didn't skip a beat. Check it out:


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My typical morning routine involves rolling out of bed and into my car. I give myself just 10-15 minutes to get out of bed and off to work. Today I set the alarm a full hour earlier so I could prep myself for an early morning interview, which involves a panel of people asking very specific, scrutinizing questions.

Partially on curiosity, partially by peer influence, and mostly out of a need for a new challenge, I applied for an internal position. I did not prepare or even think about the interview. I went in and answered questions, encouraged discussion and candidly explained my professional game plan.

Really, who was interviewing who?

When asked why I want this position, I recall using an analogy. I compared the organization to a bus; a bus that is need of the right people in the right seats. I claimed that I am on the right bus, but not the right seat. Not only does a bus need to fill itself with the right people in the right seats, but to have those people stay on the bus no matter what direction it takes. Sometimes you get onboard based only on the destination. However, most destinations take many turns. This is where people are separated by the right people. I have been through a few twists and turns with this organization, I have seen it head in a different direction than I originally anticipated, and I have persevered.

I am tenacious.
I am driven.

My code of conduct is simple. It revolves around the desire to work hard, learn beyond the obvious, take action, think big, make changes, and most importantly: serve the clients to the highest capacity; to prepare each and every child with a developmental disability to lead a full and productive life. My value is compassion and respect towards others; animals, family, friends, consumers. That’s also quite a turn on, too.

I am impressed with and gravitate towards positive, compassionate people that make me think, make me laugh and make me want to know more. Again, pretty simple stuff. In the employment arena, I find myself not recognizing relationship boundaries. I enjoy a good rapport with my fellow coworkers and supervisors. There is no line as far as I am concerned. I tend to befriend those that I respect as workers, those that fit into the aforementioned criteria. This also holds true to my interactions with people outside of the workplace, both in who I gravitate towards and perceived boundaries. I like who I like.. it is often no more than that.. and then, sometimes it is...

Anyhow, the interview lasted about an hour. I sat at a large conference table with a bunch of others from various positions, who each asked me numerous questions. I was totally calm cool and confident. Nothing tripped me up, and although I could have elaborated on any one topic (and said so), I kept it to a minimum. However, there were areas that I elaborated on and even pulled the interviewers into a discussion. They know me, they know what I have done and what I can do.. and they know what I want.

Quantitative skills and job specifics can be taught and learned; not so much with attitude and other qualitative abilities. Organizations would do well to hire and promote based more on attitude than on specific skills. I have said all along that there are qualities and attributes an individual has that can not be formally learned.

I was asked where I saw myself in five years. I asked, “Well, what’s Steve (CEO) going to be up to?”

Nice.

This further prompted an interesting discussion on my career path, being a leader, being impressed with my abilities both in skill and attitude.. etc. One individual kept piping up with impressive comments. Never one to consciously need a pat on the back, it sure felt good for everyone to verbalize their opinions of me… seeing as they were good ;)

Now I wait.