I need to work out a game plan. I am completely inept in the "getting boys" department. I've only ever had partial success. And I don't think it's because ALL of the men I choose are unattainable,(yes,Trisha, I know *some* of them have been!) it's just that I have no clue in how to go about that whole stupid Boy/Girl game playing that goes on and, sadly, seems to work! I usually wind up as being that girl- friend that no male actually thinks of as a girl, and then winds up being like a pal/ piece of the furniture. Frankly, it sucks!

Some of my friends swear it's because I'm too picky. I don't think I'm too picky. Once, when I was younger and stupid, I dropped my standards and that was a disaster! So, naturally, I vowed to never do that again, and I haven't really dated anyone since, which makes the question, Is it really worth the grief and aggravation of dropping my standards just to date again, or do I keep them exactly where they are and, possibly, risk staying alone, which I know and am very, very good at, but frankly, stinks on a Friday or Saturday night?

But I digress... The crux of the matter is this... I really like a boy and I have no idea on how to go about this whole thing. I gave him my number, but I knew he wasn't going to call when I gave it to him. In fact, I absolutely expected him not to, which I know makes no sense, but there it is. And it gets further complicated because I never see him, not like in "the Boy who lives in Boston"way, just as in the,"we don't travel in the same circles" way. Hmmmm.... It's very vexing! And that's why I need a game plan. Do I get his number from our one commonality, or do I just let it alone? Another friend of mine said "Be Aggressive", and although I am an aggressive person, I'm just not when it comes to, well, men. It goes against everything that I've been taught. (Who said your parents can't screw you up?)

I need a gameplan. Dilemmas, dilemmas. How do I go about this?

I have always been very, very hard on myself. Nothing I seem to do is good enough for myself, but the odd to dichotomy to this is that I'm also a total slacker and if I'm not naturally good at something, I don't want to do it, but I expect to be good at everything, even though, I know that I'm not. I would get very upset with myself if I made a mistake. That, I'm getting better with. I have to. In fact, I think that that is reason that God put me in the job that I currently have. I always make mistakes there. I think part of my cosmic lesson is that it is okay to make mistakes as long as they can be fixed.

I have a very hard time not being "Perfect"! I know that I'm not and it irritates me. I'm not thin enough, pretty enough, blah, blah, blah. But I'm finally realizing that it's all bullshit. So, I'm not a size 6! Yes, I do need to lose weight, but what really is spurring me on, nagging at me is more my concern for my future health. Diabetes, High Blood pressure, heart disease, strokes, cancer, arthritis, circulation problems, and lung problems run rampant in my family. I'm like a ticking health time bomb! And I know it so I must be responsible. If I don't do something now, something healthy for myself, it isn't going to get any easier.

I'm not perfect but I'm pretty okay.

All right E-Peeps. As many of you know, our dear, dear SouthernYankee is going to be leaving us, fleeing for somewhat warmer weather, so, Trisha and I are proposing that in her honour, we go out DANCING ! this Friday night. All who are in, let me know and we'll arrange where the festivities shall begin!

Soooo.... it's Friday.... and I actually have this insane urge to go out and be sociable tonight. I wonder if, perhaps, I could convince Mrs. Lehnen that we *need* to go out tonight? Hmmmmm.... Terry, I might need your help in that arena. Hope to see Y'all out later!

I swear, I love this site more and more! Paul, you are freaking genious! Okay, I just had to get that shout out off of my chest. It has been building for some time, you know.

Chamille, your party was *oh-so-fabulous*! on Tuesday evening. It was the first time that I had actually gone out on a "School Night" in forever, well, at least since NYC last summer. It was so great to see everyone. And Stickboy, it was nice to actually meet you, in person.

I have to say that I love the idea of the E-peeps Alter-egos. It's fun to actually introduce one's self as their E- strip name. I think it's great to say, "I'm SpringFaerie!" and then follow that up with my real name. It's almost like which is my real name? The name I've had since birth, or the name that I've chosen for myself in cyberspace? Serious and Silly. I suppose that's me. In fact, yes, I would definitely say that that's me. Hmmm...