I don't remember how my spring semester has gone. I just remember it was so quick and there is no more snow in Buffalo right now.

Now, I'm finally sitting in front of my computer to do something. I need to sit in here to read, to write or to think. I want to start writing something. I like writing in Korean, but I don't know how it would be okay in English.

I was out of my mind for a long time so that I couldn't have a time for myself. There should be a time for myself, but I don't know where I was.
I liked my lazy day for myself. I haven't listened to music or watched movies anything for a while. I lost myself.

I need to stop wasting myself. It was hard to hold it back. Painful emptiness was stayed in my heart for a long time. Why.. It was over long long time ago. Why I haven't realized it. I don't know.

I'm going to bed right now. That's better idea for now. Then I can start my day eariler tomorrow.

I made Robin's poster the other night.
I emailed her with this. She said, "it doesn't show my style" Yeah.. I know, so I told her that she should be the legend of video artist. Make sense..?

I don't know. I've been trying to upload image on Elmwoodstrip.com. But it isn't working at all.

Paul.. What's going on..?

I kind of gave up now.

Well, it is working right now.

My youngest sister is no longer mad at me anymore. She got mad at me because I took her bag in Korea over the Winter Break while I was in Korea.
She left one of her bags behind Korea. That one I really liked it, but she wouldn't give it to me when I was in Korea for Summer 2002. Well, I found out that she left it in Korea and I just took it. Then she found out when she went back to Korea on March. She got so mad and told me "What kind of big sister are you?" I was kind of avoiding her a little while. But the other night, we finally chatted on the messanger and she never asked me about the bag anymore. She was just happy to talk to me and suggested that we should go back to Korea at the same time. She misses me a lot. I love my youngest sister. She was always on my side whenever I had arguring with my first younger sister. I miss her a lot.

Here is the photo of her that she sent from London.

My grandmom used to say herself like "People who got old should die" when she was alive. I don't know that I traslated her words very well or not. This is a kind of Korean expression when old people make mistakes. I know Americans could think "that so bad whatever" But, Koreans are sometimes very self-conscious so that sometimes they use torturering words for themselves. So, don't misunderstand it.

Well, I felt that way last night. Sometimes I forget something easily but most time I remember everything. It was weird. I forgot my keys where I put them at the pink last night. I thought I lost them. My car was in the parking lot but there was no my car key and house keys.
I got little scared because I couldn't go home also I don't have extra house keys.
I was looking for my keys all over the pink with the security guys. But, we couldn't find them. Then, later around I remembered that I asked Arzu to put my keys in her bag because there were so much stuff on my hands and I didn't carry my bag last night. Oh well, I totally forgot about it. I think I should carry things smaller. In my porkets, there were my cell phone, cigarrets, big wallet, and stupid big key chains. I think I gotta change my key chain accessary.

Oh well, I'm happy because nothing I didn't really lose last night.