I've been out of my mind. Well, I think I am all the time.

I went to homedepot with Robin today.
- Robin has been sick and she seemed little watching my face today because I told her that she is so young by what she was saying to me the other night- Actually, it doesn't really matter to me.

Anyway, while waiting for Robin getting some stuff for her installation, I was looking up at the entrance of the homedepot and imagining people I know coming up to me. There were my co-worker, ex-boyfriends, and my neice and nephew.

Well, I got little sentimental by what I was doing there. I can't see them here in Buffalo. They are in somewhere else right now. We are all alive in somewhere else, but we can't see each other.

My co-worker. I could tell people that I loved him so much but I never told him.
I knew he knew that, but he also never brought it or asked me either.

I kept seeing him coming towards me over and over at homedepot in the priod of times we worked together about 8 years ago. As soon as I got the office, he always called me "Hey Designer, I need this" I always replied him,"hey I need a coffee first" I kind of seemed to ignore him.

I used to call and tell him how tough my life is here in Buffalo when I got here first time. At the time, I felt that I am like a baby. He was very nice to me all the time. Sometimes he entertained something for me with jokes. Ah I miss him so much. I know I loved him.

Well, I need to go to bed right now.. Stop thinking.

SJ

oh no..
we lost one hour again. I was gonna sleep little more.. then I can go to school around 8 pm to do something.

but, I can't go back to sleep again because it is 7:30 pm.. it's not 6:30 pm.
Fuck it.

It always makes me confused.

Hum.

SJ

Well, I was surfing internet and found out a website maintained by North Korea.

It is an on-line card game website, but it's so funny. There are 4 language options on the top menus. Try it to enjoy if you want.

www.jupae.com

I was trying to write something for their bulletin board , but it did't go through.
Oh well.

But, I can't believe my eyes right now.

SJ

There is me.

There is you.

There is nobody.


There is no me.

There is no you.

There is everybody


There is me.

There is no you.

There is memory.


There is no me.

There is you.

There is nothing.


---SJ

Things that I'm involved drive me crazy these days. I had a problem with my car over the spring break. And I had another problem with my cell phone today.
Well, everything is okay now. But, something tells me that if I wouldn't have these things for living in Buffalo, I could be okay..? I don't know.
Well, I haven't called people up that much for a while, but I don't feel comfortable without my cell phone. I have to have it all the time. It's weird, but it makes me feel safe. Well, it doesn't make sense but it makes me feel that way.

I wanted to do my electoric art project about my cell phone. Well, we are doing something about the cell phones. But I had a different idea of that. I think I'm just gonna make a video about it. Hum.

What a lazy girl I am these days. I gotta get over my emotional stress. I was very a workholic when I was in Korea. Only work, work. So, I was very grumpy if I couldn't sleep well. I didn't have enough sleep every day. My mom used to make everybody sure not to wake me up whenever I was in the bed. Everybody had to be very quiet at home because of me. (Sounds like I'm a queen at home, Huh?) I had very a bad insomnia, neckache, and stomacheache from my work. Now, I think my health is pretty okay but I'm becoming too lazy.

Need to get back to work. Be smart all the time..

SJ