I understand life is unfair. Hell, that's the world for you and in the middle of the TW-Adelphia takeover, I'm doing my best to roll with the punches but I'm feeling worked and it has a trickle down effect on everything else.

I've had estrip on a lot in the background to help keep my sanity. I'm being shoved aside not for some marketing wunderkind, but for a recent college grad who's rents are connected with the people who make a lot of cable tchotckeys, tote bags and crap. Essentially, I've been dealt to ensure a steady supply of souvenirs. That does not do wonders for one's self esteem. My big mouth got me into trouble too. When the transition happens, hourly employees will not get paid for a week, yet salaried won't miss a beat. I pointed out the double standard as well as how patronizing it was to tell hourlies "to save a little" for the transition.
My question of "Why punish those who could afford the least?" I'm thinking if the salaried folks can seamlessly work their way in, why can't the hourlies? We get commission and ot. I'm fine with settling that in, but if salary is going to get pinched, do for all or not at all.

I'm doing my best to cope with the shift in position -- Went to my new desk and posted a coming soon -- watch this space sign, with but not too closely in small print and the three women closest started carping about is that your desk? are you sitting there? Perhaps we should break you at that spot instead?

Oy vey! I can work with anybody, but this is going to be tough.

My current department had a work gathering to go to at the ballpark (causing me to miss India.Arie (dammit)), but it felt good to sit in the sun and have a few cold beers and forget about all the prima donnas and troublesome finances and questionable social life.

I got a funny feeling I'm not going to get the job I interviewed for before the holiday.

My esteem is taking a beating, sort of screaming in a crowded room and nobody turns.

Sucks

Gotta love people with too much time on their hand. The President never sounded better.

I can see my house from here, well not really, but this was pretty cool. This was the view from the birdseye seats at Holland Speedway last night where the caution flags appeared on a average of every 1 and 1/2 laps. These guys aren't Jeff Gordon, which is what made them fun to watch
Holland runs midget races on the 8 track and yes two "kissed"






They even had their own fireworks. Ever tried to take a picture of those. It ain't easy.




Regardless of smash-ups, somebody always made it to the winner's circle. Got to admire the passion of those folks. For me it was a fun night out and some nice cold beer with a friend after a long day at work. For many of those folks, it's a lifestyle.

Fun night out if you are ever inclined

Happy 4th everybody!

I always worry about a little about the various fireworks shows that are visible from the thruways because the last thing you need around here are Western New York drivers ooh-ing and aahing at 70 mph, especially when they are taking calls etc.

I had an expected blast last night. A work colleague invited me down to the Holland Speedway for some auto racing. I've never been a big Nascar fan or anything but it seemed like a hoot. We've done some promo work for the track owner so he replied with a couple of passes. We saw him immediately upon coming through the gates. So, he hooked us up. "Follow me" were the instructions. We went up a steep flight of stairs behind the grandstand into the building at the top, passed a few Suites, behind the officials booth, up a steep flight of stairs behind the closed circuit broadcast team, through a door and out onto a patio that gave a view of the whole park. I could see my house from there (not really), but it truly was the best seat in the house.

It's mostly local guys who like to race, with a bunch of different types of cars thorough out the night. They know just enough to be dangerous. The midget 8 track race on the infield looked like it was going to yield a bunch of carnage, as it was pretty obvious the drivers weren't "family." The late model race had the most money at stake in terms of what the drivers put into their cars. We're not talking Nascar talent so a 40 lap race took forever to complete. They couldn't get a complete lap in without something happening, wrecks, parts falling what have ya.

I took away from this that watching the leader was always dull. It's watching the goings on back in the pack, because somebody was inevitably starting something.

The track had a nice lil fireworks show to close the night. Not bad for the price of a few drinks.

Enjoy the holiday, ya'all

You can sure tell who is low on the totem pole by who is in the office today. I have a wicked bad case of "Don't want to be here today." About half of the people who should be in on a Monday aren't (bastards!). Gets me out of the usual staff meeting b.s.
The four folks I work with and I have to sit through two hours of nonsense each Monday so other groups can feel like they have their say. They are in for such a rude awakening when Time Warner comes in, whenever that happens.

I haven't heard yet about the interview that I had last week or been given all the paperwork I need to go to my next posting if that job doesn't happen. I'm told that will happen later this week, but I'd like the 2nd interview more so. Guess the holiday slows down paperwork flow and decision makings at the same time. In either case, best be prepared, got the go meet the system vice president interview suit all set to go.

Was forced to go out into the community last night. The laundry in my building was down and holy crap did I need to do some. I spent a little more at the Elmwood/Auburn laundramat, but the machines did a little better, I saw a few folks cruising the street and a mocha spot shake between cycles always brightens a fluff and fold ya'know.

I'm thinking my 11 year old is messing with my head. She was pontificating about all the protesting that her big sister was doing when it came to spending this past weekend at my place. I'm slowly getting smarter, let her talk out, asking the occasionally question, but letting her have her say. Seemed to work as she enjoyed the art gallery and swimming Friday, more swimming, dinner and Superman on Saturday and more pool yesterday.

Both of them occasionally get on me about the small apartment and whatnot and I'm rolling with the punches fairly well. It is sometimes tough to know where you stand when you're in my shoes. I guess I'm getting a little better at guessing. My son's a little easier to figure. But the Father daughter thing is complex enough when everybody is under one roof, but when the "family" is unique it can be a tough dance, especially when my feet were all thumbs. I tell them I'm working on the apartment thing. Space, as you all know, is a pricey thing in this neighborhood.

But I think all three of them had a overall good time. Most mornings, I'm fairly sluggish waking up, but my son provided a moment of instant clarity Sunday morning. A Bad dream had him up at 4 in the morning and had me moving quick. Not knowing what was up initially, I woke right up.

It's catching up to me now.

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