Ok, PMT came home a day early and so I am back living at home. I definetely need to get an apartment....soon. It is just so pleasant and nice to not hear screaming and arguing all day long and be forced to do things whenever it is convenient for others all day long. I don't know, I probably won't knowing my lack of motivation but I really want one.

Lately I have been getting crushes like they are going out of style. It is in a very fifth grade kind of why, like I jsut found out cooties aren't real or something. I don't know it is odd but fun...add another one to the list.

First off the fireworks were not in Kenmore tonight, I believe they are tomorrow now instead.

Secondly, I know that last night I threatened everyone that if they didn't go to the dance party at the Mohawk I would kick them off the site, but low and behold I did not end up going. I don't know I was just in a bad mood today kinda and you know how sometimes when you are not happy you just need to be more unhappy before it can better. I was not in the mood to see everyone having fun and hooking up and being hit on. I think the extreme pleasure of others would have just made me angrier. Which was today the official "walk with your b/f/g/f and kiss as soon as Mike walks by you day"? Cuz it felt like it. I think the idea that one of my friends is getting married in like two months and I haven't had a serious date in almost forever is part of what is bothering me lately. I don't want to end up being 80 and alone. Before for years none of my friends really dated that much or that seriously, but now its all changing fast and I am falling fast behind the learning curve and will soon be left behind in their fast paced coupled off world. Like seriuosly everyone just began to pair off with everyone they meet and I am silly old Mike who doesn't. I know it is partially my own fault as I don't try very hard but it doesn't make it feel any better.

I also need to learn when to take a hint I think. I don't know why I keep trying and trying. (e:Maureen) was talking about it the other day how she doesn't understand why some people keep trying and trying to contact her when she obviously puts in no effort. And I think some people enjoy the challenge of getting through to those people. Or some people just have that kind of personality that you just want to be around even if it involves being rejected many a times. Not like in a stalkerish way but in a ok I have to realize they don't want to talk to me/be better friends kinda way and stop bugging them. But sometimes it ends up being worth it. I don't know I am babbling, maybe more on this later.

Heading over to Jill's parents house to watch the fireworks for Kenmore Days from their roof. I hope they can live up to last years where the coverband played songs such as It's Raining Men, She Bangs, and Man I feel Like A Woman including people in the audience along with them. I believe It's Raining Men was the big finale to the show with fourteen year old boys singing. Interesting it was. I hope they keep the same performers this year, for much more entertainment.

I hope they don't try to make it all classy just because the Vietnam Wall Memorial is in Kenmore coinciding with the carnival. Cuz that is the classy kind of place we are. They thought "oh what does our carnival featuring greasy foods and kiddie rides need?" and someone probably jokingly said "we need a traveling war veterans memorial to put in next to the game where you have to pop the balloons for posters, we have some free space there anyway" and crazily enough someone picked up on it and now the memorial is part of the carnival although tastefully separated by about 30 feet.

Raspbery vodka and winde blenders tonight at the apartment (567) stop by!!! OK I have officially updated about 7 billion times today. So some peeps are heading over to the apartment, namely (e:jill) and (e:teres) (beast) and possbily some diana, matt, maureen, and andrew, and some others, anyone who wants to but we'll see. Maybe we'll head down to the Pink since it appears that is the official Thursday night estrip hangout lately. We'll see what happens... a lot of pressure. Fun things happen at this house but can they happen without the PMT?

So I returned the beer bottles that were left here and got about 12 dollars for it (that's a lot of bottles) so with that money I decided to treat myself to a bottle of raspberry vodka. So very tasty Now I'm sitting here drinking it mixed with iced tea wishing it was sunny out and I could lay out on the porch and read. I should probably share as I shouldn't drink the whole 1.75 L myself right? I think me, (E:jill), (e:teres) are going out tonight, maybe the pink?