Do you ever think like everything is working against your goal and you just think maybe it is time to give up but then you get another chance. But then you waste that chance and just are like eh there'll be another chance. Well I do that all the time and I think it is definetely time I start to realize there may not be another chance and need to start just going for what I want.

Two more days of classes and then SPRING BREAK!!! Thank god for undedicated teachers who cancel classes on the Friday before spring break, making it come that much sooner. Not that I am going anywhere exciting in particular but just being off of school is exciting and Jll's birthday, and Maureen will be home and St. Patrick's Day and who knows what else. Too much excitement for one boy.

So I thought I could be the first person to have a star today as it is only 3:05 AM but lo and behold I get here and four other people already have stars. Well I am trying to do two homework assignments that are due tomorrow and of course I am procrastinating to the fullest. I finsihed like a rough copy of my paper on Reyataz the HIV drug but now I need to write an opening sequence for my movie and describe my character's locale. Rigth now my movie for scriptwriting belongs in the crapper. It is like just a bad idea infused with extremely worse ideas. There is something about the class that just makes me produce my worst creative work ever. Eh, at least I'll pass. She can't fail me for bad ideas. Ok that's all for now, its back to work I go.

So I really really need to move out of my house. Each day there is more arguing and/or I become more like a 50 year old and so it is really becoming an emergency. Jill and I were going to get an apartment this summer but now she is most likely shipping off to Sri Lanka instead. (Wow that totally doesn't sound real but she really is planning to study abroad there). I also had a prospect for an apartment in January but I cannot wait that long and frankly I don't trust that that would actually happen especially since what is going on recently as in I don't really actually talk to the person anymore.

So it looks like I may need to get a single apartment but I am not really sure I can afford that but it really is time for me to move out. So if anyone knows of cheap single apartments (preferably around elmwood) or people looking for a roomate (or no prolly I actually don't want to live with someone I don't know or well maybe) let me know.

I was reading Details magazine the other day when me and Jill read every magazine and took every quiz at Wegmans and thye had an articles entitled Gay or Jesus. It has a picture of a jesus-sorta looking man and talks about what he is wearing and I thought number 7 was hilarious......Leather Bands: Accentuates slender wrist on bedpost or crucifix.

It just seems so wrong but so funny. Maybe you have to see it to appreciate it.