Jack Sierk was the dad of AJ, my first friend and my best friend when I was little. He lived down the street and we were always together when we were young. His dad died this past week from a brain tumor and it really is bothering me. It seems like I don't want to say wrong, but strange that it is bothering me so much considering I hadn't seen him in at least 5 years if not more and may have went the rest of my life without seeing him much ever again. But it really had been bothering me and I wasn't able to acknowledge that I think and so it made me think I was just mad at other things. I think it is so sad because he was quite young and was always so nice and helpful and good to everyone. It was weird seeing AJ at the memorial service becuase he was like a stranger and yet so famililar. I really feel bad for him and his brother and his mom, it must be really tough for them, but from seeing all the people at the memorial serice, I"m glad that they seem to a good base and group to support them and love them. The writing on the back of the memory cards was particularly good I thought and appropriate for him and I just wanted to write it here:

Fill not your hearts with pain and sorrow, but remember me in every tomorrow. Remember the joy, the laughter, the smiles. I"ve only gone to rest a little while. Although my leaving causes pain and grief, my going has eased my hurt and given me relief. So dry your eyes and remember me, not as I am now, but as I used to be. Because I will remember you all and look on with a smile. Understand, in your hearts, I've only gone to rest a little while. As long as I have the love of each of you, I can live my life inthe hearts of all of you.

I recommend that when you are in a bad mood, let it cool before you go telling people what you think. I usually follow this advice especially since I usually do not actually feel how I thought I did at the moment and by the next day am not mad at all. But lately I seem to be not waiting it out and that is bad because I say things I don't mean. That's all for now.

So in about one year I will be out on my own. Well in an apartment with MaryKate. I hope it all really happens, as we are quite the planner but not generally so good at the execution of our plans. But we did go looking at home supplies and stuff when we went shopping today and found stuff we need. For instance, the thing we realize we need most of all is an ice cream maker that makes both SOFT AND HARD ICECREAM!!! How amazing is that? Oh and we need a spice rack. Then it got even better. At my godparent's tonight, my cousin Jenny said that we can have stuff like a microwave and blender from her because she jsut got married and sot heyh have two of everything now from their separate apartments. That will be an awesome saver of money for us!
So lately, I've had this tendency to tell people that are almost complete strangers all my problems and life story, like not people on the street but people I barely know. Its strange and I used to think Teres was so starnge cuz of that and I think I have taken it to a new level of weirdness. I don't know why, it just seems appropriate someitmes when you want to vent to someone that is complmetely not invovled in anything like only a basically starnger can be. So if anyone thinks why is this kid telling me stuff and I don't really know him just tell me to shut up. Chadi!

Saved By the Bell DVD, what more can a kid ask for? Well this was a good Christmas, 2 days of fun with the family, well 3 actaully because we went to my other cousin's tonight. I got a cd burner so now I can make fun soundtracks to my movies and make copies for everyone. And I got a light up Eckerd like for those Christmas villages. ALl in all a good year. Not too much snow though, Chrismtas Eve had like no snow so it was not very christmassy looking but it was ok, it made easier travel. Christmas Day had some snow which was nice but this like nice weather is making me think Global Warming is more than just a future possibility. Tomorrow we are doing secret santa with my friends, well it is not so secret since everone basically knows who everyone else has but still it sohuld be fun.

My Christmas update will be coming soon, prolly tomorrow but right now I just want to say, don't tell people you can't really trust anything! Plus, foudn out some info I rathe not have known.