I've heard some people don't want the pictures of them that I have put up online. If you want me to take down a picture just e-mail me at mike@elmwoodstrip.com and tell me and I'll consider it (ok i'll most likely do it as soon as I get your email) You can also just e-mail for any reason or question or comment.

Marykate was home last night and we went to Coffee &. It was fun, we talked her love life, sang songs, did dances, didn't get served forever at pano's. It was fun. Woohoo for one night visits.

It's not about what you should do...but what you want to do. Nicole sent me that quote and it is good. Yet it's just not exactly me. It's hard for me to be like I just gotta do what I want to do and not think about everything else. Lately though, that isn't really the problem, the problem is even more I don't even know what I want to do. Eh, we'll see. Ok not much else to say now.

Listen to the dumbness being professed by my oral comm teacher. As if he isn't already the most ridiculous man on the face of the earth with his like going over things like a cabillion times and being a harsh harsh grader and giving the trickiest quizzes. Well now we have 7 classes left and he just decided to cancel one and so we only have 6 classes left. Yet in this time we are supposed to do our Persuassive Speeches (our last round of speeches took six class periods to get through the whole class and they were shorter), 6 rounds of short impromptu speeches (which it takes about a class period for 3 rounds), 2 quizzes and at least one day of him teaching and us watching examples of Persuassive Speeches. So basically I don't know how we are ever going to finish in time yet in class he said we are on schedule and doing great. I think he has no idea when the semester ends. So basically I have a feeling he is going to make us go to class during exam week or something, I totally would not put it past him but we'll see. Dumb, Dumb, Dumb. Oh by the way Halloween candy is cheap at Eckerd well prolly all stores. I bought a huge bag of bags of skittles and starburst for 1.24 each.

I have felt so stressed lately and yet I'm not sure why. I feel like I have so much to do and yet I do nothing. Like I do have tons of huge papers and presentations coming up and that is starting to worry me but it is something bigger. Like I feel so like i need to be doing something or finding something but I am not sure what that is. I go out just to get out of my house as much as possible but it doesn't make me feel any less stressed. I think part of it is I feel like I never have any time alone. Like I can never just sit in my house alone, there is always someone around. Sometiems you just need to be alone with noone bothering you or anything. My parents are always home, i think that is part of what is bothering me. I don't know. I just feel like I have to make so many decisions but I am not even 100% sure what those decisions are and I think it is extra bothering me lately because I don't want other people deciding these things for me as it appears to be happening. I don't know, like I just I feel like I have no direction in anything. School, work, relationships, nothing. I am going nowhere fast. Last night I ended up just walking up and down elmwood at like 10 o'clock by myself. It was refreshing, I needed it. It's not that I am like not happy though, like seriously lately everyhthing seems to be going really good and I have been really lucky but that almost makes me more nervous like it will all come crashing down. I am not sure what brought about this most recent rash of constant worrying and stress but it is no fun. I think part of it is I have noone I feel like I can really tlak to or maybe I have too many people I can talk to? That's weird I never thought of that before. I feel like I need one person who I can just tell everything but I keep some secrets from everyoen or don't feel comfortable tlaking to anyone about eveyrthing, like if I don't think I"ll like their answers. I don't know, I feel like maybe I need someone new just to tlak to, someone with no history with me and knows nothing about me. Who knows? Tomorrow I could feel totally different as often happens with me. I've almost fallen back into the pattern when I just drive past a place over and over thinking I will see a specific someone, and I don't mean that in liek I am searching for one particular person, but some person at different times and that liek I will just see them and they will solve everything and understand everything. But I never do. Ok that didn't make so much sense but I can't really explain it any better in type.

First off, Orange crush is an amazing drink but i haven't had it in a long time. Grape crush, not so amazing. Anyway that was not the original purpose of this entry. Well I haven't had any real crushes in a while except the teacher I wanted to sleep with but I'm pretty sure she is married. But now I do have some crushes and it is fun. I used to be obsessive from one crush to the next, but I haven't really in a while and i'm glad to have one again. It's so eigth grade and this one is just as futile as the rest, I don't really expect anything to come of it, actually I may never even see the person again, it was probably a one time meeting but hey it's fun. Hmm what else. MK was home this weekend and we had fun and saw Romeo and Juliet and some people in it like romeo and juliet and some others were really good and some were not but overall it was goodesque, not that I could do better mind you, I think I have just seen Romeo and Juliet 30 too many times. Ok that's all for now.

Oh and by the way if you email me at mike@elmwoodstrip.com it prolly won't go to me. It is completely messed up and is going to some reandom guy and if i send email it says it is from him, well only sometimes. I hope to get it fixed, well i mean have paul fix it as i do not understand computers at all.