were terry and i getting it on?
i thought it was dancing
and paul was a victim of dance


i didn't take any wooden nickels on the way home. but then, none were offered. home is a short walk and i don't mind making it on my own. but wouldn't it be nice to be accompanied back to my hovel, my hole, my new comforter. we two could be comforted by its feathered warmth.

listening to tom waits, lou reed, leonard cohen. it's like wrapping up in my comforter.

bought new sheets for no reason other than i like them. what a good way to spend $60.

reading virgin suicides after watching it again last week. i think the movie is better. maybe. still haven't finished the book.

went home for memorial day, as always. i can't decide if my family is falling apart or getting closer. i really can't stand my sister these days and don't know if or how that will ever change. i just want her to go away and i feel really wrong saying that. on the other hand, my sister in law and i are getting on famously.

i get more worried about steve and his case with each passing day, but i feel pretty powerless.

teaching is okay. today was "attack of the whiners." it happens at least once every semester, kids who want an A without earning it. they probably think i'm a bitch, but i'm not. i just believe that doing the bare minimum of work does not qualify you to receive an A.

i'm getting paranoid that roy hates me, or at least thinks i can't teach. honestly, there's no reason for me to think this -- it's all in my head. well, that's how i try to reassure myself.

am finally in buffalo for the weekend with no visitors and nothing to do. maybe i'll go see shrek or some other movie.

will go to the pink tonight. it's been weeks since i've been there.

I just chatted for a while with julie and we were talking about the lack of discussion about Steve, not just here on estrip, but with people in general.

Maybe it's a fear of seeming gossipy, a fear of the FBI, or just plain not knowing what to say. But no matter the reason, the general silence frightens me more than anything.

I don't really know what to say, either. But I do think it's important to support Steve and to be vocal about it. The situation is absurd (see churchofjulie's journal [inlink]churchofjulie,33[/inlink] for more info). Steve is not a bioterrorist and is in no way deserving of harrassment by the FBI.

The ways that government agents can use the Patriot Act terrorizes me more than any threat from the Mid-East or anywhere else in the world. I can't believe that this and other "homeland security' measures are supposed to make us feel safer.

yesterday, walking down my long hallway, i was thinking about the elmwoodstrip.com site and thought that maybe i'd suggest to paul that he move the elmwood journal off the front page so that people looking at the site for the first time would feel more welcomed. i didn't say anything to him, though.

then i check the site today and there's the announcement. either i'm psychic or he is!

1 pair of black trouser socks
1 black polo shirt

1 sticky floor
100+ cds all over
6 empty bottles
uncounted cigarette butts
1 funky smell that won't leave
2 blushing cheeks


p.s. anyone who wants to come to the roof to take pictures/hangout/whatever, just let me know