i've been shy of posting lately. i don't know why. well, i think it's to do with all the new people on the site. i think it's great that you're all out there, and i look forward to getting to know you. but it's a little daunting.

when i first joined, i was a more of a voyeur and sometimes i wouldn't even sign in--i just read about other people. then i became somewhat more active as the spring went on and i met more and more e-strippers.

now i'm kind of in blah land. i'll sign on and mean to write, then get up to do something else and never come back. i'm a loser blogster at this moment in time.

i really enjoyed the pink last night. it was good to see all of you out. matthew, where were you? i still have your shirt.

i talked about the site today to some women at the AAUW booksale. they wanted to know how i heard about it and i said a member of my online community had mentioned it and gave them the site. thanks, jill for telling us about it.

aauw used to have a booksale back in reading, pa, too. it was nice and fuzzy to see it here. i loaded up on paperbacks of all kinds and sizes. i also got some cassette tapes, including vanilla ice and the teenage mutant ninja turtles soundtrack. what fun i'll have.

i also stopped at the thrift store on the way home. i'm still perusing couches, but i didn't find any i liked. i did buy another suitcase, though. this is the second one in about 2 months. but i already have 3 other ones. oh my... i just realized that 4 of my 5 suitcases have come into my possession in the past year. maybe i do have a problem. but at least the last 3 have been free or extremely cheap.

this is a sign that i really do need to travel. go to alaska, dammit!

were terry and i getting it on?
i thought it was dancing
and paul was a victim of dance


i didn't take any wooden nickels on the way home. but then, none were offered. home is a short walk and i don't mind making it on my own. but wouldn't it be nice to be accompanied back to my hovel, my hole, my new comforter. we two could be comforted by its feathered warmth.

listening to tom waits, lou reed, leonard cohen. it's like wrapping up in my comforter.

bought new sheets for no reason other than i like them. what a good way to spend $60.

reading virgin suicides after watching it again last week. i think the movie is better. maybe. still haven't finished the book.

went home for memorial day, as always. i can't decide if my family is falling apart or getting closer. i really can't stand my sister these days and don't know if or how that will ever change. i just want her to go away and i feel really wrong saying that. on the other hand, my sister in law and i are getting on famously.

i get more worried about steve and his case with each passing day, but i feel pretty powerless.

teaching is okay. today was "attack of the whiners." it happens at least once every semester, kids who want an A without earning it. they probably think i'm a bitch, but i'm not. i just believe that doing the bare minimum of work does not qualify you to receive an A.

i'm getting paranoid that roy hates me, or at least thinks i can't teach. honestly, there's no reason for me to think this -- it's all in my head. well, that's how i try to reassure myself.

am finally in buffalo for the weekend with no visitors and nothing to do. maybe i'll go see shrek or some other movie.

will go to the pink tonight. it's been weeks since i've been there.

I just chatted for a while with julie and we were talking about the lack of discussion about Steve, not just here on estrip, but with people in general.

Maybe it's a fear of seeming gossipy, a fear of the FBI, or just plain not knowing what to say. But no matter the reason, the general silence frightens me more than anything.

I don't really know what to say, either. But I do think it's important to support Steve and to be vocal about it. The situation is absurd (see churchofjulie's journal [inlink]churchofjulie,33[/inlink] for more info). Steve is not a bioterrorist and is in no way deserving of harrassment by the FBI.

The ways that government agents can use the Patriot Act terrorizes me more than any threat from the Mid-East or anywhere else in the world. I can't believe that this and other "homeland security' measures are supposed to make us feel safer.