will it be nice like this tomorrow? I think not. Thank god for this strange illness that I am having while it is warm. I need to shower. That has not happened in at least 48 hours. I actually really don't smell. But my hair looks kinda crazy.
You know that feeling of being hungry, but you don't want to eat? I have that right now. Even if I was going to eat, I would have to go find some food, since all we have is milk, maybe some stale cereal and a few eggs. I no longer like eggs. After having them as my only choice for breakfast for months, I have decided to say no to eggs, for a while at least.
I think, as the weather is getting warmer, I am getting tis strange feeling thatI want to venture outside, and do new drugs. Or just smoke a lot of something.
Why is tha people in Buffalo get so freaked out by pointy shoes? They look nice. And, if you think my toes are all squished in there, you are wrong, there are quite fine and roomy. I ould like to host a show in which i find people who need some fashion hep, Buffalonians, and show them the light.
Perhaps nobody cares. It seems that way. I guess the more important thing would be to get people outside more, and eating less. A Kenmore cop, who was ut on leave to loose weight came back to work 1oo lbs lighter. Apparently 400 is bad but 300 is ok? Anyway, he is suing for discrimination or some shit like that. WTF? Hello, Mr. Copman, you are still a fatty. And how do you get to be 400 anyway, do you exist on a diet of doughnuts alone? Or do you eat entire containers of Crisco fried bacon strips?
I am just being mean now. Have a nice day all you elmwoostrippers, its a good one out there.

drunkies, like me should not be able to update their journals, when drunk. i am pissed off at a lot of people right now. shape up or ship out. nough said.

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i am writing in a state of unawareness. thank the lord jesus and mel gibson that i don't have to work tomorrow! i think i shall go hiking and ponder many thoghts. i shall be high as well. i shall ponder and be high. ah, that will be fun. what fun is is to be young. all fo you thatare young, under thirty and thirites and such; unjoy life and don't worry about where you will end up. Nows what matters. live in now. And, enjoy colors. Colors are fun

The sinus issue is still present and ever so annoying. Being filled with snot is just no fun. Not only does it constantly drip down my throat and make my throat itch/sore, but it also makes me tired. So, I decided to spend my Friday night alseep before 11. Who would've thought, that crazy party me is now a huge loser who spends most of her time sleeping. I don't wantto cough anymore.
My mommy bought me a new outfit yesterday. Maybe I can wear it to church tomorrow, since i go now. Not because I want to, but for my Granny. I love her, and it makes her happy in her old days. Speaking of which, she was born in my very bedroom. The same bedroom which lies in the same house that has been owned by my family for the beter part of about 100 years now. This old house, speculated to be part of the underground railroad, because of the stairs that life up, is on its way to being sold. We have a prospective buyer. As Tina says, "Awww, Sarah, that really sad, your Grandma was born in your room, and now some stranger is going to have sex in it." This bothers me. I mean, I never wanted to live here in the first place, but perhaps it was my destiny. My mom had no place to go, so we came back to Buffalo, and she ened up buying the house that her Grandparent's owned; the house where she shared many happy childhood memories; the house where I share most of my childhood memories.
So, now I must go crazy taking pictures of this house. I am gonna do it in phases, from lived in, to moved out of. I think it is extremely important to save this part of Kenmore history. This house is a part of me, and my family, and I owe it to all of us, to at least document our last days together(sob).
As for where this little one will end up, who the hell knows. There sre some days when living without my mom seems impossible. There are other times when not seeing Tina for a day makes me wanna cry. Why do I cry so much? I don't think I would ever get a sinus infection in Arizona. I would be coughing up green stuff at least four times a year. But, I would be leaving all this behind, all you folks. Perhaps I should consult a fortune teller, or write down some pros and cons.
One last note: Mad props to my boys for calling me last night! would have loved to go to the Pink if i wasnt already sleeping. And... where did the stars go?????????????????????