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07/12/2006 11:11 #25781
Perfect StormWhile it was hailing in Buffalo...
07/12/2006 10:11 #25780
Oh the tangled web we weave!
It is raining as I post these beauties. I like early mornin rains.
These spiders are from the beach house. It was fun to watch what they do in the webs. They are so fascinating. They can replace a destroyed web over night. The spider bite on my hip is still red and itchy...must have been a big one!
07/11/2006 22:00 #25779
affect vs effectThings have been very trying over the last week or so. Lots of us seem to be having a hard time lately. Was it that incredibly intense full moon we just had? I really need to change the direction of my life. It seems like I'm digging myself further and further into this hole. What has been most distressing is the effect my life has had on other people. I couldn't be more sorry, but that changes nothing. Really, I need to put a 100% back into my life and that's all I really can do. So bear with me folks. From this moment on!
p.s..please don't comment on this journal. I just wanted to let you all know where I'm at.
Also, I have been having trouble with grammar. In particular, affect and effect. Here is a site that I think will help me.
More pics to come shortly.
update: 7/12/06
I corrected my incorrect use of site. Before I had 'sight' Oh well!
p.s..please don't comment on this journal. I just wanted to let you all know where I'm at.
Also, I have been having trouble with grammar. In particular, affect and effect. Here is a site that I think will help me.
More pics to come shortly.
update: 7/12/06
I corrected my incorrect use of site. Before I had 'sight' Oh well!
07/06/2006 21:48 #25778
A public apologyLet me apologize mrdt for my harsh language, and for assuming that you got my email when I never got confirmation that you did in fact get it. I'm sorry. That is not the normal way I handle things. It is also not the way that I want Buddhism to be betrayed. This isn't an excuse, but i believed you received my email and were deliberately trying to get under my skin. I sent you an email rather than a comment because I was trying to avoid possibly embarrassing you in public.
I feel as if I constantly have to defend myself from your comments even over the simplest things. For example, when I posted a picture of the lamb I had for Easter you say "Dude you overcooked it." This was a minor annoyance, but the thing about your comments is that all of these minor annoyances add up. You also post comments without actually reading what I have to say. For example, when I talked about when I consolidated my student loans
Your comment made it obvious that you hadn't read what I wrote at all. I had already said the rates were going up and that I consolidated, then you said if you haven't done so the rates are going up so consolidate now. Here is the thing I don't like getting constant advice when its not asked for. As for this latest thing, I think that you and (e:jason) know that I didn't have stocks in Enron. I believe people like Ken Lay do actually affect society as a whole and I think that most people realized that I wasn't referring to my lost stock. It is this constantly being petty and making me defend every thing I say to the last detail that makes me angry. I have seriously considered not even posting anymore because I hate that so much. It's exhausting and not fun.
As for the Buddhism, you do not know me. It is aggravating that this is the second time that you have implied or said that I am a bad Buddhist. I don't claim to be perfect. I have many many faults. I do actually practice and chant. Not necessarily 2x's a day, but I do as well as attend various meetings and activities over the last four years. I really don't think you have the right or the knowledge to judge me like you have. Let me just say it isn't easy to be Buddhist; it takes a lot of effort. The effort has certainly paid off in many ways in my life, and I know what I am capable of when I increase my efforts. My nasty comment to you did not come from a good place and I certainly was out of line. I'm not sure if you are a Buddhist or not. As far as I have read you haven't said you are. If you are then we are practicing two different types and that is fine. It's just that what you say about Buddhism in some ways is going to be different and I don't want people to be confused (it is confusing and I'm still learning).
Finally, I am sorry to everyone for my actions. I hope that no one has lost respect for me due to the way I have handled my anger. Mrdt, I am very sensitive and it is hard for me not to take offense to things, please in the future take care in the things that you say to me, as I will try to do the same with everyone else. I'm usually very careful with my words and I will try even harder in the future.
I feel as if I constantly have to defend myself from your comments even over the simplest things. For example, when I posted a picture of the lamb I had for Easter you say "Dude you overcooked it." This was a minor annoyance, but the thing about your comments is that all of these minor annoyances add up. You also post comments without actually reading what I have to say. For example, when I talked about when I consolidated my student loans
Your comment made it obvious that you hadn't read what I wrote at all. I had already said the rates were going up and that I consolidated, then you said if you haven't done so the rates are going up so consolidate now. Here is the thing I don't like getting constant advice when its not asked for. As for this latest thing, I think that you and (e:jason) know that I didn't have stocks in Enron. I believe people like Ken Lay do actually affect society as a whole and I think that most people realized that I wasn't referring to my lost stock. It is this constantly being petty and making me defend every thing I say to the last detail that makes me angry. I have seriously considered not even posting anymore because I hate that so much. It's exhausting and not fun.
As for the Buddhism, you do not know me. It is aggravating that this is the second time that you have implied or said that I am a bad Buddhist. I don't claim to be perfect. I have many many faults. I do actually practice and chant. Not necessarily 2x's a day, but I do as well as attend various meetings and activities over the last four years. I really don't think you have the right or the knowledge to judge me like you have. Let me just say it isn't easy to be Buddhist; it takes a lot of effort. The effort has certainly paid off in many ways in my life, and I know what I am capable of when I increase my efforts. My nasty comment to you did not come from a good place and I certainly was out of line. I'm not sure if you are a Buddhist or not. As far as I have read you haven't said you are. If you are then we are practicing two different types and that is fine. It's just that what you say about Buddhism in some ways is going to be different and I don't want people to be confused (it is confusing and I'm still learning).
Finally, I am sorry to everyone for my actions. I hope that no one has lost respect for me due to the way I have handled my anger. Mrdt, I am very sensitive and it is hard for me not to take offense to things, please in the future take care in the things that you say to me, as I will try to do the same with everyone else. I'm usually very careful with my words and I will try even harder in the future.
libertad - 07/07/06 01:56
mrdt,
thanks for clearing things up. We should all try and stay clear of the good buddhist bad buddhist labels or any labels for that matter. You are right about life being suffering, but don't forget that we also can and do experience higher life conditions as well. We are in fact responsibile for our own happiness. Overcoming suffering can become a source of happiness within itself.
You should make something that in depth about yourself your own journal entry instead of a comment. It will be easier for you to keep track of what you write and for others to follow a history of your thoughts. Feel free to add the link to my journal or send me a post it if you want me to make sure I see it.
mrdt,
thanks for clearing things up. We should all try and stay clear of the good buddhist bad buddhist labels or any labels for that matter. You are right about life being suffering, but don't forget that we also can and do experience higher life conditions as well. We are in fact responsibile for our own happiness. Overcoming suffering can become a source of happiness within itself.
You should make something that in depth about yourself your own journal entry instead of a comment. It will be easier for you to keep track of what you write and for others to follow a history of your thoughts. Feel free to add the link to my journal or send me a post it if you want me to make sure I see it.
mrdt - 07/07/06 00:57
try to realize before you read this that I am not attacking you. I merely am trying to explain myself so that you may understand my motives.
First, I never said you were a bad buddhist, you did. I merely stated that a good buddhist would never kill a spider in the house, they would capture it and set it free. Somebody told me this and I was passing it on to you.
Second you asked and I quote "...like why do they want us to consolidate now? DO they know something we don't." And my reply was about the new laws going into effect on July 1st.
I read it your journal(maybe not as carefully as I should have) but I still read it and it was a comment on a small section of your journal. I wasn't fucking with you either, just thought I was answering your questions and offering some advice.
Okay on to my spiritual background: I've studied all the major religions for many, many years. I attended Catholic grammer school, high school and college. Despite what you and most people might think The Bible was not cramed down our thought everyday word for word. It was explained to us a model of how we once lived and how we should live our lives in contemplation. We were always given a well rounded spiritual education whether Cathlic, Jewish, Hinduism or Buddhism and something sparked in me in high school that led me on a journey to explore Eastern Philosophy. While my friends were dismissing their spirituality and classifying themselves athiests, I, through contemplation, was strengthening mine.
It wasn't until college when I began to explore the Dalai Lama and Thomas Merton that I began to understand how the two religions paralleled one another (Chrisitianity and Buddhism). My curiosity to understand this part of my life better has brought on much research, soul searching and self actualization. Buddhism has brought me to places within myself that I never knew exisited. Essentialy it brought me closer to myself and God, if that makes sense, almost the same way lifting weights puts me in better touch with my body. If you want to lable my spirituality I guess you could call me a Christian-Buddhist.
One of the greatest teachings of Buddhism is that life is suffering and life is impermanent and to be truely happy we have to accept that. Therefore I am putting this as far behind me as I can.
Once again I am truely sorry if I offended or disrespected you in any way. I believe greatly in faith, hope and love, the greatest of which is love.
try to realize before you read this that I am not attacking you. I merely am trying to explain myself so that you may understand my motives.
First, I never said you were a bad buddhist, you did. I merely stated that a good buddhist would never kill a spider in the house, they would capture it and set it free. Somebody told me this and I was passing it on to you.
Second you asked and I quote "...like why do they want us to consolidate now? DO they know something we don't." And my reply was about the new laws going into effect on July 1st.
I read it your journal(maybe not as carefully as I should have) but I still read it and it was a comment on a small section of your journal. I wasn't fucking with you either, just thought I was answering your questions and offering some advice.
Okay on to my spiritual background: I've studied all the major religions for many, many years. I attended Catholic grammer school, high school and college. Despite what you and most people might think The Bible was not cramed down our thought everyday word for word. It was explained to us a model of how we once lived and how we should live our lives in contemplation. We were always given a well rounded spiritual education whether Cathlic, Jewish, Hinduism or Buddhism and something sparked in me in high school that led me on a journey to explore Eastern Philosophy. While my friends were dismissing their spirituality and classifying themselves athiests, I, through contemplation, was strengthening mine.
It wasn't until college when I began to explore the Dalai Lama and Thomas Merton that I began to understand how the two religions paralleled one another (Chrisitianity and Buddhism). My curiosity to understand this part of my life better has brought on much research, soul searching and self actualization. Buddhism has brought me to places within myself that I never knew exisited. Essentialy it brought me closer to myself and God, if that makes sense, almost the same way lifting weights puts me in better touch with my body. If you want to lable my spirituality I guess you could call me a Christian-Buddhist.
One of the greatest teachings of Buddhism is that life is suffering and life is impermanent and to be truely happy we have to accept that. Therefore I am putting this as far behind me as I can.
Once again I am truely sorry if I offended or disrespected you in any way. I believe greatly in faith, hope and love, the greatest of which is love.
mrmike - 07/06/06 22:48
Good Buddhist, Good Guy -- now this is how you be a person -- Hope the folks at home can see this.
Good Buddhist, Good Guy -- now this is how you be a person -- Hope the folks at home can see this.
boxerboi - 07/06/06 22:00
for the record, i am implying that you are a good buddhist. :op
for the record, i am implying that you are a good buddhist. :op
07/10/2006 18:10 #25777
Rochester Gay Pride 2006
matthew - 07/10/06 22:26
very colorful! looks like it was fun. hope you had a good time
very colorful! looks like it was fun. hope you had a good time
jason - 07/10/06 21:13
Wow, that looks 1000 times more fun and festive than our pride day. Then again, I pretty much just catch the parade.
Cool pics! I guess you didn't get a picture of the breasts, but then again it would be rude wouldn't it?
Wow, that looks 1000 times more fun and festive than our pride day. Then again, I pretty much just catch the parade.
Cool pics! I guess you didn't get a picture of the breasts, but then again it would be rude wouldn't it?
metalpeter - 07/10/06 20:11
Interesting pictures thanks for sharing.
Interesting pictures thanks for sharing.
hehe, you said we couldnt comment on your prior journal, but finding a loophole, I am going to comment here. kidding..
but I do get affect/effect confused all of the time.. and microsoft Word seems to never let me use "affect".
ok.. I definitely missed these journals. I know I saw some of the Canada pics.. and I love all of the pictures you have posted. Ooh, that storm pic is nice. Very interesting perspective with those that include people. I am very drawn to them.
I am not sure if I am sorry to have missed the spider pics. Since you pointed out that you had a journal with what I figured would be spider pics.. I just had to go look!!-- very icky and fascinating at the same time! I think I had its cousin dangling in my window. *shiver*
As for the Noco lab testing pics, I wonder the same thing every day as I drive over the grand island bridge and pass the facility. It stinks, literally! So I found the web site, and it explains a little bit. Maybe you can find something of interest on it..
:::link:::
I think thats about it :)