I broke another bong last night. This is the third bong that I've broken in our apartment in the past 4 years, and I think (e:jason) has had enough of me breaking the freaking glass. So, I think I'm going to spend a good amount on a piece because -

A) Since its my money I'm spending I'll be more careful
B) Three bongs... WTF. I deserve this punishment
C) One of the bongs I broke was a personal gift to my brother from a good friend

Now... what to buy and how much to spend. The pragmatist in me is screaming "BUY PLASTIC YOU IDIOT!!" But what self-respecting smoker is going to smoke out of plastic except in some dire circumstances? The only answer is to buy glass, and make sure the damn thing is heavy. I don't have anything to smoke anyhow, my feelings on this are mixed. I want something with orange and blue on it... something stylish. People should feel blessed and lucky to be smoking out of my bong.

I've spent the afternoon drinking coffee with light cream and hazelnut flavor shots... delicious! Also, I've been "procuring" more Stereolab, since the only album of theirs I like is their most recent. I should give the earlier stuff a chance to A) broaden my horizons, and B) understand the bands musical progression.

I tried to play (e:robin)'s videos using firefox. BZZZZZT! It won't download or find a suitable plugin.

I tried to name my fantasy football team "Hippie Granola Crunch" but I'm short one letter. I can't name my team "Hippie Granola Crunc" so I need to think of something else.

Oooh, I thought of something. "Crunchy Granola Crew" but it still isn't the same :(

OH! This blog site is the super duper ultra coolest, but I found one that I think you all would like to check out on occasion -

UPDATE - I was going to mention this plane crash in Toronto. First of all, the fact that 309 people are still alive after that is nothing short of a miracle - those people should be dead right now. Its a little bit unnerving considering I fly Sunday... but I'm not skurred. I'm just really happy for those people that managed to survive that crash.

Finally my company has me on assignment! I'm actually thrilled - although I've thoroughly enjoyed my time here in Buffalo I'm REALLY, REALLY, REALLY bored. It turns out that I'm spending 5 days in North Carolina next week. The monthly schedule looks really exciting - California, Guatemala, Mexico, Honduras, Dominican Republic, and points in between.

One of the audits our company got assigned is in Hawaii, so of course my boss is going. The good thing about that is that there are 2 weeks of audits I know he won't be going to... so that means that there is a great chance for international travel for moi, in consideration of above said scheduled places to go. I don't want to go to Mexico since the State Department put a travel warning on Mexico... but there are 9 audits to be finished there so I have a feeling I'm just going to have to suck it up. I'm told Honduras is a great place to go because of the A)women B)hospitality and C) the women. The overseas trips are nice because we basically get treated like royalty and stay in the top of the top of the top of the line hotels. In Guatemala the hotel where we stay is absolutely magnificent - if I go I'll take photos to share with the (e:strip) community. Seriously, its the most romantic looking hotel I've ever seen. I would take a lady there for a weekend in a heartbeat.

I'm sick :( I don't know what came over me but I've been feeling horrible. I literally have left the apartment once in the last two days... just to go get some food at Wilson Farms. Any good ideas for sinus/cold type things? I need to beat this before I have to fly.

The party was great!

The Ho sisters are purty and really nice - I had a lot of fun chatting them up and getting to know them. (e:ladycroft) is not a casual videogame player, so when you are challenged to a game of Mario Kart and she grabs a remote - be prepared for your doom. I stole one victory though!

I didn't know until this afternoon that (e:robin) was there - I now realize she was the one with the red scarf that was mousey and quiet in the living room. You are quiet, girl! Aren't you the one with this radical and interesting art? Had I realized it was her I would have made a point to say hello and wish her good luck and lots of fun in Germany.

(e:hodown) had the killer sangria - now I want to learn how to make it.

I met a lot of cool people last night and I hope that the hosts were pleased with the outcome of the soiree. Jay and I fully intend on crashing the party for the 20,000th post!

I openly admit my faults. Some people aren't mature enough to do that, but I am not part of that crowd. However, I am very proud of my strengths - I'm unflappably confident and like to give some of that confidence to other people through encouragement. (e:jessbob) - stop freaking out about your test - you're a smart guy and you are going to do well... being nervous about an exam is going to hurt you rather than help you. Do your work, study hard, cram every bit of your brain with the information you need to know, go take your exam, get an A, then go to sleep. Have you ever seen "What The Bleep Do We Know?" Theres a study they talk about in the movie where people can make water react differently based solely on mental power. They have people concentrate on being happy, mad, nervous, the entire spectrum of emotions. Your body is made up almost entirely of water - when you are angry or nervous remember that!

Anyhow, back to me (Haha!). Besides my natural instinct to bring people up when they are down, I dislike it when people say they can't do things. BULLSHIT! I had a guy say to me once that he wished he could go back to school and become an accountant. I turned to him and said, "of course you can do it - just do what needs to be done, get your degree, get that job and enjoy what you reap from your hard work!" To me when people are worried about whether or not they can achieve something they are thinking of the steps they need to take as BARRIERS rather than OBSTACLES that require necessary steps that can and will be overcome if you put honest hard work into it.

I serve as a confidant to my closest friends because they know that they are going to get an interesting and positive bit of advice from me. When my brother or other friends of mine are depressed I tell them that negative energy is making it impossible for them to have positive energy. Think about that for a minute. Once upon a tiime Joshypoo had a nervous breakdown over a girl - this girl had me wrangled up so badly that I literally left Buffalo for 3 weeks and didn't come back until I had the right frame of mind. I stayed with my dad and cooked together with him, worked in the yard at my grandmas house, went for runs... there was also a point in time where I didn't leave my dads living room for an entire week. What I learned during those 3 weeks was that NEVER AGAIN would I let something like that unwind me and make me forget about who I am. How insane was it for me to let somebody do that to me? Why should somebody or something make me lose my center and sense of self? I came back to Buffalo a new man with a new, meaner leaner attitude. The negative energy made it impossible for me to have positive energy - AKA I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel because I was too absorbed with mulling over what was wrong rather than everything that was right. Know thyself. Any other thing thats wrong is irrelevant because its temporary.

What I'm leading to in a rather longwinded way is this - what happens when the eternally confident and optimistic guy feels down for once? Does he not talk about it? I'm kind of blue today. My personal solution to this today is to make apple crisp and listen to Belle & Sebastian. What I really want to to is sit on my porch and drink heavily but I know that won't get me anywhere!