The girl I hooked up with this past winter got a hold of me on AIM again today. She still has these fantasies in her head about me being her boyfriend, even after I told her multiple times to expect nothing of the sort from me. Today she told me to let her know when I want to go on a date again. What? How about never, because I know that I'm going to be put on the spot and harrassed about not wanting to be with her.

It's just not going to happen that way. I explained to her a long time ago why it wouldn't work out: I don't trust her. I know she's a cheater and a very capable liar. I could never get serious with someone like that. Who says I want to get serious anyway? I've tried so hard to be sweet and let her down easy but it just doesn't compute in her head. Some girls are hopelessly incapable of dealing with the fact that a guy might say no to her. I don't know why I tried so hard to be nice because I might as well have never said anything at all. I don't want to be nasty to her but I don't know any more ways of saying no. I am so frustrated right now.

In the end I'll probably have to piss her off immensely in order for her to get the picture, and even then she probably won't. I'll just end up being the jerk, which I guess is fine. Anyway the girl that'll capture my attention will be someone who inexplicably inspires me to be a better guy and to do things I normally wouldn't do, not the one who harrasses me the most. You can't force what has to come naturally.

Jason

Hmm when I got this new user name I forgot to put up a profile. So now I have one, feel free to check it out. You can harrass me on AIM anytime. The thing is I didn't know what journal to choose as my favorite. Soyeon isn't on the site anymore so I have to choose a new favorite. There are so many that I like. I'll list a few and give my reasons:

Southernyankee - Classy, Upbeat, Reminds me of a close friend.
Matthew - The pictures are amazing. This man has a great eye.
Metalpeter - I don't think I've ever read this man complain about anything.
Ajay - He is the MacGuyver of e-strip. He needs to engineer me a new bong.
Robin - Reemed Joshy gangsta bitch style. I wonder what goes on in her head.
Maureen - She busts her ass so hard. Everyone should be so motivated.

Anyway I like to read all of the posts here and it is so hard to choose a favorite. I might as well just pick my own journal as my favorite. I don't know.

Jason

PS - After paying $2k in bills today my ass hurts so bad.

At the request of an unnamed e-stripper, I thought I would post some pics of the party in Orlando. What happens when 12 rowdy guys get together to party? I can't show you all of the photos (especially the ones incriminating myself) but I'll do my best.

The groom gets his ass redded up:


Me and Fernando laughing at the groom:


Obligatory Jaeger shot:


The shocker is a reflex. I can't take a serious photo.


Chicks love getting their picture taken!


But not this one apparently.....


Our own Johnny Knoxville has no shame....


Anand thinks it's the strip club now...



Oh by the way the girl is married with 2 kids. Remind me again not to get married.

Jason

That's the question my friends are asking me. "Did you get laid at the wedding? I heard Philly girls can't help but fuck at a wedding."

Well there was only one chick who I was attracted to at the wedding. She was getting followed around by five or so guys the entire night, all of them trying to get a piece. I said what the fuck? I'm not gonna be like that. I don't need a female's attention that badly.

Instead I found someone who brought a bunch of buddha. I'm not supposed to be doing it but we had the bakedown and lots of interesting conversation. I want to talk about this some more but I'm not sure if it's okay to talk about pot on the e-strip.

Jason

I can't help but think of my grandfather today. I hope everyone is having fun and spending time outdoors! Have a cookout or go enjoy yourselves in some other way!

Jason

PS - My philly trip was successful. I don't carry so much guilt, shame or embarrassment over that whole ordeal anymore.