" hey! make a wish and see yourself,on stage, inside out.Ofcourse you were pleasently surprised. And softly he said 'I will mangle your mind'"

Midnight train to Georgia- Gladys Knight and the PIPS

The past week for me has been really tough. I got fired, My mother has a new illness and i had to move. The move should have been the the great thing to end a stressful weeked, But it realy didn't go like that. My roomate was bitching the whole time about Moving her shit, which i must add she didn't have to move. Her boyfreimd and her brother were supposed to move her big heavy stuff. Her brother became exhausted after moving his parents stuff all day, and her boyfreind is just a lazy asshole who ditched her last minute. So it was left up to me to move HER big stuff. I called my friend Mike and asked him to help me move her shit and he quickly said yes. I felt bad for calling him and interupting his plans, but i am in deep gratitude to him, Infact I want to thank all of my freindswho especially this past week have made me feel better. Matthew S., Terry, Paul, Dinah, Carrie, Megan, Mike, Fredia, Thank you all very much words cannot express how much you guys mean to me.
My roomate after Mike and I had just moved her crap wouldn't even give HIm a ride down the street. Talk about a bitch right. Well they say things will come back to those who do wrong, and that of you who have been generally good people, and have sometimes even put other peoples feelings before yours, that your pay off will come as well.
When? It's been too long, I feel i can't stand anymore. I do my best to do "right" to treat others like i want to be treated. But the one thing I want and have wanted the most, still hasn't come. I have begun to give up hope and thinking it will never present it self, that i am only holding on to hope to amuse myself. But everyone say "well you'r still young". NO i'm not IN the past 8 years I have grown so old. Doing things that my freinds who are 25 haven't even done yet. I have experienced heartache, Jesus, war and the one thing i want to keep me stable to feels the hole that so many people have pierced, has not been filled.
-Where are you???

Crayola- Girl I need to get a job or some shit, my babyz father is going to stop sendin deez child support checks.

Laquindella- you don't have a baby.

Crayola- Shit,he don't know that.

I will keep it posted when Crayola finds a job.

Nothing fails- "I'm in love with you, you silly thing, anyone can see. What is it with you, you silly thing, just take it from me. It was not a chance meeting, feel my heart beating, you're the one. Nothing fails, no more fears, nothing fails, yoiu washed away my fears, nothings fails. I'm not religous but i feel so moved makes me wanna pray, pray oyu'll always be here. I'm not religous but i feel such love, makes me wanna pray.
When i get lost in space i can return to this place cause, you're the one. I'm not religous, but i feel so moved mmmmm, I'm not religous, makes me wanna pray... and it keeps going i will sang this for ya'll one day after i visit my gyno.