So I am finally almost done wiht the whole grad school application process, and let me tell you that it feels damn good. It was more of a haul than I would have ever imagined, and made the semester the hardest I have ever endured HOWEVER I am just happy that I am almost done.

"Cutos" (sp?) to Jesse for taking the GRE's today and hopfully surviving it-GREAT JOB. You must be so glad to be done wiht it.

I am looking forward to Thanksgiving i guess, but I know Delprino and I will be hittin' the stats hard as we analyze our data on resiliency. I am not looking forward to entering in about 70 questionnaire with about 120 questions each. I probably will not be seeing straight for dayz after that, but this semester is almost over and then I will be able to breathe once again (NOTE TO SELF: Do not get myself into more work than hours I sleep in a day..i don't even really know if that makes any sense???) It will be good to see the group again as I expect everyone to be home for the holidays.

I really don't get why Thanksgiving makes people want to drink?-more than say the night before Christmas eve or New Years Eve.

On another note- I really cannot fathom that I am just about 22, although I will NOT be celebrating my birthday until after the school year is over as I would actually like to enjoy it. But I mean its such a dull year to turn 22, i mean fitting I guess as this whole semester has been, but still I cannot believe that I have already hit my peak and I still have not dated anyone etc. How does that happen?-I can't really figure it out?

One last inquiry-do you think there is a collective unconsciousness? Because I have to say that I think there is. First of all I think it almost goes without saying that "we retreat from that which pursues us"-we only like those that don't like us back. But like did you ever have a relationship wiht someone that they only wanted to talk to you when you didn't want to talk to them? And now of course I don't really want to talk to him, and now he calls. Okay its not as dramatic as it seems. ANd I will explain for all of those that care...THis kid won't call for like 3-4 weeks, even tho I called on occasion, no returned phone call. Then I decided that I am pissed at him because he wont come and visit (Florida dweller).-now i didn't tell him or act as if i were mad. but he has called twice within two days and even left a message which is unheard of for him. i don't get it? Whatev its not really important anyways...all that matters is that my grad school shit is almost done.

PS Peter I very much enjoyed your journal entry about guys and what they would do even if they were gay-very entertaining.

So my Polish boys are back in Poland incase I didn't say. But they have been e-mailing me. Here is a link to some of their photos. Damnit they are so cute!

SO I found out about this trip/class that I can take at Buff State and I would get to go for a week to the Bahamas. It would cost a mere $1,300 for EVERYTHING! And you get to do field research and hang out on the beach. AND the beach is pretty secluded as is most of the island, although there is a club met. YOu fly into Fort Lauderdale (sp?) and then take a charter plane. I am scared of dying on it, but other then that i think it would be so totally amazing. So I am pretty sure I am going to do it! Oh and its actually the island that they think Colombus landed on.

Mike and I went for a walk down elmwood which was most pleasant! It was so nice to have an evening off and just hang out and talk about everything that has been going on. It feels like ALOT has happened, even though it didn't. I know I just wrote an entry about being bored not too long ago. It was so pleasant to be in Mike's company. I hope you feel better mike. I love you!!!

I feel like I only ever want to journalwhen I am sad or upset. Damnit that isn't the way it should be!!! But I am going to write anyways. I really think i need to make a firmer committment at work mostly but life in general (its just that its hardest to be nicest at work) to be kinder and more patient to our fellow human being. Sometimes I let my negative thoughts become rampant, when my compassionate/patient thoughts are hiding right behind those mean thoughts. Its just that the mean thoughts are first, so a lot of times I react to them first. But I am learning a lot about patience and persistence lately. I just really want to be able to come to all people in my life from a very honest and jovial place.