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08/03/09 11:16 - 73ºF - ID#49445 pmobl

Bug of the Day


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08/02/09 07:30 - 73ºF - ID#49442 pmobl

Wahoo :)


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08/02/09 06:04 - 72ºF - ID#49441 pmobl

Cup Cakes! Shaped Like Puppies!


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08/02/09 09:26 - 67ºF - ID#49438

Haircut

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Does she have a point?
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08/01/09 07:03 - 79ºF - ID#49435 pmobl

Caught!


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07/31/09 04:42 - 77ºF - ID#49428

Torn.

I could either scrape together just enough money for a down payment for my absolute dream car:

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Or look for a used car and get some kinda loan to pay for it (not sure how that works - does anyone have tips?).

Or buy a clunker and then have to potentially replace it soon. I hate the thought of this option, especially as a single person w/out a boyfriend to cry to for roadside assistance.

Since I need a car like, yesterday, I'm leaning towards buying the Mini later this month. But not sure if most of the reasoning isn't just that it will make me feel deliriously happy. On the other hand, I can afford the monthly payment just fine so I don't want to be too stingy, and buying a new car will Fix The Economy -- um, right?

It's weird but all the options have the same upfront cost of $2000 dollars or so (either for down payment or full payment for the clunker) -- long term costs are a different story. So I have just enough options to confuse myself.

-- UPDATE

Tinypliny asked why I need a car, unfortunately I work by UB North Campus, so it's not a walkable sort of situation.

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07/30/09 09:48 - 73ºF - ID#49421 pmobl

Lafayette Square


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07/30/09 08:07 - 73ºF - ID#49419 pmobl

Thursday at the Square


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07/30/09 10:40 - 66ºF - ID#49413

The End is the Beginning is the End

Love is many-splendored, but loss is singular and bleak.


Thus shall you think of this fleeting world:
A star at dawn, a bubble in a stream,
A flash of lightning in a summer cloud,
A flickering lamp, a phantom, and a dream.
-- excerpt from the Diamond Sutra



This fleeting world is mine, or feels close enough most days. A sudden absence, death, denial, changes that world and then I stumble. There's that bloody gap again amongst white teeth that tongue can't help but probe. It's too hard to hold on to, and to painful to let go. I find myself living a life that's suddenly unfamiliar, dangerous, alien.

The Buddhist retort to pain and loss is, "what now is lacking?", meant to drive your awareness to the present, to the moment, to your being here and now.

Loss is singular because it comes to all, eventually. It's the invariant mate of existence in this universe. So, I am not gone or destroyed by loss -- not yet. Loss is the relief that shows where presence still is. I live, though feel a stranger to my life today. I can keep moving until the moment that even breath is lacking. Things will be all right, even then; my flickering lamp continues, until then.

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07/27/09 02:35 - 72ºF - ID#49395

Bad day.

A series of mistakes led me to accidentally destroy the partitioning
of my hard drive.

*_*

So I've spent the day reinstalling apps and restoring data from backups.

Thankful for having backups. Aggravated I'm not going to accomplish
anything today.

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I also managed to kill half the plants at my cubicle by forgetting to water them Friday.

OK, end of sad story.

^_^
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