I admit I've been debating if I should write this blog all week... Have a bad day then gets better when I get home...
There are some amazing (e:Peeps) with amazing lives.. Won't call anyone out ... But love how people can travel for a concert, are in love, just like show up at a concert, Just show up and Kazoo the protesters (Yeah that was amazing those guys where in shock that was great).....And on the twitter and face book as well.... I love seeing the pictures and reading all the great stuff.... and love seeing pictures that are so much better then mine it is a lot of fun.... But.....
don't get me wrong I know I have it better off then some in some ways... and I love my wrestling and my sports and taking photos but it seems so often only reason I'm happy is looking forward to that stuff... I wonder if I've all ways really been this way......
I'm also starting to think that maybe I'm the problem at work... I've had to start screwing off some... So something there is all ways pissing me the fuck off... If I'm not getting pissed off it is because I wake up sad or depressed....
I know it isn't good to compare your life to others but can't help it....
Tough to explain really.......
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06/23/2013 08:39 #57830
Wish I was Happy.....?Category: life
06/15/2013 18:02 #57811
Manson & Cooper outer HarbourCategory: photos
So went to my first outer Harbor show last night it was a lot of fun lots of fine ladies dancing and great music.... The one thing is now today feels like a down day a bit.. This has happened to me in the past.. I feel like there should be a bunch of people around me..... Or something or I should be out and about....
Before the show Water taxi and stuff
The Opening band was something like "What we look like Broken" sorry I forgot the name ..... Imagine us broken ?
I'm glad that Marilyn Manson Played first meant I could use my camera and not really worry... He was great and a lot of fun..... If you like that type of music....
So Taking pictures really crushed my Batteries power so much so that I'd take a photo and battery exhausted pops up and camera turns off and no picture so I didn't have time to zoom in.... For the Finale Alice Cooper performed 18 with Marilyn Manson it was pretty cool but no pix so.....
It was a great time it really was even though I spent way more money then I should have oh well.....
Before the show Water taxi and stuff
The Opening band was something like "What we look like Broken" sorry I forgot the name ..... Imagine us broken ?
I'm glad that Marilyn Manson Played first meant I could use my camera and not really worry... He was great and a lot of fun..... If you like that type of music....
So Taking pictures really crushed my Batteries power so much so that I'd take a photo and battery exhausted pops up and camera turns off and no picture so I didn't have time to zoom in.... For the Finale Alice Cooper performed 18 with Marilyn Manson it was pretty cool but no pix so.....
It was a great time it really was even though I spent way more money then I should have oh well.....
metalpeter - 06/17/13 23:23
I don't know much about but the stage looks huge to me... I think one advantage they have is that is all it is used for so once the stage was set up for GunsNRoses they just leave it up for all the shows they don't take it down and put back up like at canal side...
I don't know much about but the stage looks huge to me... I think one advantage they have is that is all it is used for so once the stage was set up for GunsNRoses they just leave it up for all the shows they don't take it down and put back up like at canal side...
paul - 06/17/13 17:32
Looks like an awesome stage presence/setup.
Looks like an awesome stage presence/setup.
06/12/2013 18:40 #57795
Upcoming Outer Harbour and stuffSo going to see Marilyn Manson and Alice Cooper on Friday I think the last concert I saw was Alice Cooper... With the early gate time I'm off work for the entire day... I admit still not 100% sure how to get there so may be a tad early... There is like a water taxi that I've never caught that I'll just pay for... Hey I don't mind getting a little lost on the way during day light hours or taking a long walk... But post show don't want to be doing that... Then of course from Canal side still gotta get from there to a bus but that shouldn't be to bad..... But when ever first doing something there is some nervousness and there will be for sure... Just wish I was sure I could take my camera so I could get some shots at least... I would have loved to see GunsNRoses but the gate and start time was way to late would not have made it home ? But it will be fun... But there is oddly another thing to be nervous about a bit.. How close to the stage... I want to see good but don't want a crowd surfer to come from behind or a pit to open up .......
Not being able to drive is tough some times it weighs on your mind... Yeah it is good to know I can do this and I can't do this and maybe this I can... But this isn't only about driving it is about other stuff as well... Knowing that you wish you could or should be able to but can't can get a person or me down... I was going to write more but kinda lost my train of thought .........
Not being able to drive is tough some times it weighs on your mind... Yeah it is good to know I can do this and I can't do this and maybe this I can... But this isn't only about driving it is about other stuff as well... Knowing that you wish you could or should be able to but can't can get a person or me down... I was going to write more but kinda lost my train of thought .........
06/08/2013 22:49 #57782
Friday Skiffle 6-7-2013Category: photos
I admit I haven't seen Skiffle Minstrels in some time... One time they moved the time another time oops that is today , artic winds and not sure what else but it was great to get back... Just one set though for me I ate heavy at lunch so couple of strong drinks and what I could get picture wise couldn't bring big camera really this time so.....
06/08/2013 22:27 #57781
2013 few artfestCategory: photos
So these pictures aren't really in order I had Lloyd's for lunch instead of Dinner but that is ok it was great ....
I'm not sure if the Religious people if they where there to just spread the message that is my think not not boycotting or maybe I just couldn't hear them yell... I think there was still a lot of cool art even if it isn't my thing.....
I'm not sure if the Religious people if they where there to just spread the message that is my think not not boycotting or maybe I just couldn't hear them yell... I think there was still a lot of cool art even if it isn't my thing.....
metalpeter - 06/09/13 14:03
It started at 2 but I think I got there two early they where supposed to have art and they did but I thought it would be more art and bands... When I was there they had a DJ setting up.. There was also some people working on a piece... But with art in bag and looking like rain I left real quick ... Think it was aimed for things to get going later in the day or maybe I just was there at the wrong time....
It started at 2 but I think I got there two early they where supposed to have art and they did but I thought it would be more art and bands... When I was there they had a DJ setting up.. There was also some people working on a piece... But with art in bag and looking like rain I left real quick ... Think it was aimed for things to get going later in the day or maybe I just was there at the wrong time....
paul - 06/09/13 13:11
What was going on at Ohm?
What was going on at Ohm?
It is going to sound odd I think when I'm doing stuff I'm Happy... The event or what I'm doing makes me happy.. But some stuff in life is kinda depressing... Yeah there is so much on facebook about just showing the positive... but I do see some negative stuff on there... But mostly people show all the good stuff with out the hard work that goes into it....
I think part of it is that I'm a realist .... There are some things that I wish I had the ability to do that I don't... ... Wish I was better at explaining ..... I think some of it is tied into this part of the year as well.. Things did get better but sometimes now I worry a bit about how will I feel this week.. Will something in my life depres me....
I know I shouldn't compare my self to others but it isn't easy.....
This is part of the reason I try to stay away from FB. While I don't think this is always intentional, the way it is designed leads to an inevitable comparison between your life and the lives of your friends. However, that sharing is extremely selective, and there seems to exist a social pressure to focus on positive affirmations as opposed to a complete picture with the ups and downs that many of us experience regularly. In the end, you wind up comparing the entirety of your life with a selected sliver of another's, and it isn't a fair comparison to yourself.
I know I don't see you often, but you have always seemed really happy when I have, and everyone speaks of you fondly. you're a good dude. Hopefully this reminder helps you fight through the darker thoughts to come around with a course of action to change some of the smaller things that you aren't happy with.