my dad took us out to blue fin for dinner after graduation. i wasn't expecting anything, so it was quite nice... we got the titanic. we also split the basil shrimp.

i wore my cowboy shirt, tucked in with dress slacks. it looked nice.

it felt really good to be close with loved ones. i was a tad sad i couldn't have everyone there i wanted but nothing beats having your mom and dad say they are proud. my mom and sister were crying in the audience when we came out to the floor to our seats. it made me choked up to see. it was a good day.

before i me from for buff state, April, Michael, and i had cocktails. caramel vodka, Bailey's, cream, and vanilla ice cream.

i did it. it's really fucking hot.

well... i didn't get go on a ride tonight, but my sister decided to take me out to dinner. we went to mother's.

we shared a bottle of wine, steamed mussels, calamari, and took the entrées to go. i got pan seared sea scallops with black fettucini. so delicious :

It's been interesting lately. I think?

over the last week i worked a ton. i was a busy rabbit with school and work x_x Sunday, I went to (e:paul) and (e:terry)'s to check out the bike, and i asked if i could wash my work uniform while i was over. I ended up helping garden for a few hours, and I had a lot of fun. I really love getting dirty like that. I love playing in dirt and digging things and touching plants. :) couldn't have been w more well spent sunday. I had dinner there. Paul and I were supposed to ride bikes after i gt it up and going but we ended up just watching clips of maria bamford and kasha (a dragqueen/youtube personality). Maria Bamford makes me laugh so hard. She's so weird, I love her humor. here's a clip...



here's a good one of Kasha



i left in hopes that i'd get a lot of my essay done, but I got a paragraph and a half in and fell right to sleep.

Yesterday I finished my last day of classes at ECC. In 4 hours, i completed 2 final tests, and wrote a 7 page essay and got it handed in before my professor left his office. Then i worked, of course... after, i ended up biking over to Rita and shared some drinks.

I slept over after we had some long talks about various things going on in our lives. We usually have some pretty good talks :)We're like each other's counselors, haha...

The next morning she woke me up with breakfast. i slept like a rock! After i left, i ended up biking towards home, but i had this intense burst of energy and just decided to keep going...


that's roughly my path... i mean it's not crazy, but i just had so much energy pent up. had to get it out somehow. When i finally got home, i was a sweaty mess. But that didn't stop me. I just powered through and went on a cleaning frenzy. I was like a tornado of fire going through the house. That shit is clean. I swept and mopped the entire house, cleaned the kitchen, bathroom, did the dishes, repotted plants... I was literally on hands and knees scrubbing floors and walls. i also was able to get one of the kitchen windows to finally open. it was painted shut so i just went at it with a butter knife... i did so much heavy lifting.

after, i went to my spanish group... we weren't very productive today :P we just kinda gabbed. I biked there and back...

tonight i'm supposedly biking with Jens, and possibly Rita... not sure where, but i figured we'd just go in a direction.

The bike (e:paul) and (e:terry) let me use is way better than my last bike, the seat is so comfortable, and i sit nice and high on it. It rides a lot smoother as well. It doesn't go as fast as my last one, but that's pretty irrelevant. I don't have to go as fast as i did on my last bike. honestly, it was dangerous how fast i'd go.

soon, i'm cooking dinner for myself. we'll see what i rustle up... it's nice to have the place to myself. michael is sequestered away and april is over at sarah's for the night. :)

Tomorrow, I graduate. I will have an Associates in Arts (and sciences?). Then to UB...

I seriously have a ridiculous amount of energy right now. I feel like a supernova. I'm going to need to get sexed at some point soon, or I think i will just combust. It's been kind of a while. >_< Gahhh!

listening to your sister threaten physical violence over the phone to people who owe her money.

I'm so mad that this happens in my house. This is not supposed to be a violent place. The best part is that she chooses to do it literally right outside my bedroom door. Where do I go? This is my only place away from everything.

I have to confront her eventually.

The screwed up part is that prior to this, so many friends were looking for roommates all at the same time. it's like the universe was trying to tell me something... (get out, don't live with your angry, crazy sister)

but then again, this could just be one more lesson in me getting a backbone... I can't be a pushover my entire life. Hm. Thinking about that, I realize how many other ways i'm presented with that same opportunity.

I guess a little journaling can do the soul good.