I had an amazing thursday. I woke up to go to the botanical gardens with Jodie. She arrived with fresh made juice for me with all kinds of healthy things in it! it was so good! she's always great to be around. such a rush of energy...

I haven't actually been to the botanical gardens since i was a young child. the only thing i remember was throwing dirt into the fountains with my big brother... we were scolded by an employee.

we went through all of it, it was pretty cool. we even voted on the various series' they had going, on the art and designs. I really had a great time and i'd love to go back again. it was great to be around so much light and life.

we left, and i suggested we go to Pausa, the place i discovered only the day before (e:robert,57460) ... i'm glad i waited to go until i had company. I adored it. by this point, I was sure my photos were not saving (although clearly some did) so i decided not to take any. the inside was totally redone with beautiful wood surfaces, the decor was fantastic, the ambiance was perfect, and the sense of space was lovely. there was portuguese music playing, and wonderful art all over the wall. There was also a space in the back for music to happen. Pausa is classified as an art house - something I don't think i've really seen in Buffalo, before. I have to also add that we ordered food, and it was awesome. the coffee was good, and served in really cute cups with saucers, which sort of encouraged us to get up and walk around with our coffee (idk why, maybe because the saucer would catch our inevitable spills?)

we ordered Xenakis to start, then i had the cage (a sandwich) and jodie ordered the copland, a ham and cheese sandwich. here's their website.

I loved it. I can't wait to go back.

the rest of the day... i'm not really sure what I did? I think i just lounged around. moodiness happened. I got over it.

then friday happened.

last Wednesday I went to see Purity Ring. It was amazing. a coworker/friend Corina, (e:xandra), (e:yesthatcasey), (e:terry), (e:paul), and Rita all went as well. unfortunately, i left my phone at home and could take NO pics... i don't think any one else but paul posted photos? (e:paul,57461)

the opener, Blue Hawaii, started as kind of a snooze but then picked up pretty quickly. I ended up really liking them... a lot. it was kind of like grimes meets young magic, but with more structure, and better to dance to. here's their bandcamp. Her voice has an intensity live that is lacking a bit her recordings. I prefer the live better.

Purity Ring was even better in Buffalo than they were in NYC at the Hammerstein, back in january. In jan, it sounded more close to the album, but in Buffalo i could see that they had made an effort to mix things up. they performed at least one new song, or cover. i thought someone said it was a cover, but i couldn't recognize it.

the night ended strangely... we tried to go to tranceformation, but we got the date wrong, and ended up at broadway joes for a hardcore show with men punching air. it was surreal. then we went to cathode, where NO music was playing, and everyone lurched to stare at us when we walked in, and everyone just seemed generally annoyed... so we quickly left and went to Q which was also strange, but there was a juke box, so i guess we stayed because of that. the bar tender was a total douche.

Rita drove me home and i stayed up thinking for a couple hours.

there are so many different colors in my beard. black, blond, various browns... and best all, red. i might go chops.

a new place! on Wadsworth where sugar city used to be. excited to try it.

I was way exhausted monday morning. I had bassically zero privacy except for in the bathroom for 3 days straight. I needed to sleep and introvert. I skipped my first class and slept for maybe 12 hours. I went to my evening class and got my test grades back. i did pretty well for having not read a single page of those chapters until 2 hours before i took the test (i just went though and took notes at the library to study up) and i even got full credit on the bonus essay. \:D/ Yay!

I ended up going to cathode for big ass drink night with Rita. (e:xandra) and (e:yesthatcasey) ended up meeting us out. I got really confused by the dyngus day schedule and thought something else was going on and decided not to go, but i actually wish i had because i got it wrong. Next year, I guess. Maybe it was for the best.

I ended up seeing some people i knew there and met a few new people... there were A LOT of attractive men there that night... ( i never see any, and i knew almost none of the people there by face that night) I had a few chances to make conversation, but i just couldn't. I want to try, but i just don't have it in me, yet. I've never been good at meeting guys and i probably will never get better at it, and i don't even really want to, but the distraction would be nice... i know it's not a good idea, yet, though. I don't know why i'm even half-assed trying. I guess because one never knows what could happen... ugh. but i don't even want anything to happen. i want to retreat into a clam shell and hit any man that comes near with a stick and tell him to get off of my property!

I am focusing more on me and what i need to be getting done... i mean i was for the most part before, but i have a bit more time to myself now. April and Michael are working a lot so i get to be home alone more, which i've really been liking.

I ate 1 burnt cookie (i love burnt cookies) and a bowl of fruit with yogurt curry sauce on monday. way yum.





today, tuesday, I got up a little earlier to go to the registrar... they didn't believe that my middle name is wisdom so i had to show proof of i.d. to get them to print it on my diploma. seriously, people lie about their names on something they might put on their wall in an office one day?! why would i lie?

got some work done before spanish lit and wrote my ensayito. luckily i printed it before the laptop died because i lost the file just before emailing it. thankfully sister cristel accepted just the paper copy.... i read part of a story in class and presented my ensayito... she gave me really high compliments on my spanish... i was kind of embarrassed, but it made me happy. i don't really like to get recognition in front of other people. maybe because it others me from the rest of the group and i'd rather not stand out to much. but of course another part me me craves the validation, the recognition. i know i'm good at some linguistic things. I have the interest, so it comes quicker for me than for some.

after that, i recollected myself at home then went to my spanish group. I really do love ashker's... we were all really chatty and exuberant this time... we didn't even get to read from casa de los espiritus! we just kept talking and talking... the owner is super hot. he's a shorter beardy man with nice shoulders and a great ass.

time to brew a new batch of kombucha! i think i will try to start exercising a bit when no one's home. i think with a bit of effort, i could get rid of the extra pounds fairly quickly.