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07/25/2008 17:49 #45141

The Silverthorne's Part II
Category: linwood
Back in (e:paul,44176) I mentioned touring the Silverthorne Mansion as part of the Linwood home tour, post-tour party. I called the owner's pretentious and apparently, they just found out now:

To Paul, A friend of mine alerted me to an entry written by Paul on 4/28/08 about the Silverthorne Mansion. I am one of the owners who showed people (you) around those days and am offended by your comments. We were asked and volunteered like everyone else to be included in this charity event because of what we did with a once commercial property. We are certainly not pretentious and am suprised by your comments. Do you know that we are constantly holding fundraisers for charities and over the last year have raised greater that $500,000? For us to invite you and the public into our private home and lives and to have such negative comments is appalling. We like most peole downtown are trying to make this community a better place and with comments like this, you are taking us one step back. If you would actually like to get to know us and possibly help us raise money for kids with cystic fibrosis, peole with cancer, peoplw with HIV/AIDS, you can contact me



I am sorry if it offends you so much, you really should not care what I think and furthermore I don't think and did not say you are bad or uncaring people. I figured I would just expalin myself some more below.

What I was refering to was the way you conducted your very formal speech during the tour of your house the night of the Linwood home tour particpant party. I think the specific moment was when you told a crowd of proud Linwood home owners, how the original owner of your house, moved to linwood when he lost his fortune. You said it in a "moved down to the village where the poor farmers lived", kind of way. That was what bothered me. If it was the Buffalo home tour I probably won't have cared so much but it was the particular audience. Then again, I am probably the only one who cared.

I don't think that calling you pretentious (making an exaggerated outward show ) - reduces your effectiveness as a fundraiser extraordinaire. Wouldn't you say that most large scale philanthorpists have an aire of pretention.

What lets go over this again. You are two people living in an 11,000 square foot super mansion made of mahogany decked out to the max. Far from modest, far from humble and it makes you angry that someone you don't even know thinks you are a but showy? Maybe I just meant ostentatious. Do you honestly care?

Moreover, I am not even saying that I am not pretentious, but the way you gave your speech that day really bothered me. Maybe if you had participated in the after party I would have talked to you there and felt different but you didn't. We basically walked a couple blocks out of the way to go there and then never saw you again during the rest of the evening as though you were to good for the Linwood folk.

Like I said in my original journal, maybe you were just tired of parading people around your house - I know we were with ours and you have had a far larger audience. I don't blame you. In fact I don't even dislike you. I was just irritated with your performance that day.

There are like 75 million pages on the internet saying how great you are. I can't believe this would even bother you.

Hope this makes you feel better.
Best,
Paul
iriesara - 07/26/08 13:05
It's like someone calling you a know-it-all, and combatting that insult with explaining everything that you know. He gave anyone willing to take it even more ammo & proof that he's pretentious. I thought pretentious people liked that, though, people knowing just how wonderful they really are.
paul - 07/26/08 10:35
Its not even their real real names, lol. I wrote it after the name of the people that originally owned it.
matthew - 07/26/08 08:50
I'm so embarrassed. I think what made them upset is that you made your comments so public. I would've felt the same way.
trisha - 07/26/08 08:40
wow. the tone of the letter reminds me exactly of so many clients' when i used to clean houses for some of buffalo's "finest," because it was good off the books dough at the time. despite being treated like the mung i was cleaning, and stupid to boot, never once did i begin a sentence with "Do you know that i....." i.e., do/know this this and this, and YOU don't, therefore YOU are the asshole, and i am not. i desperately WANTED to say such things, but as a *person providing a service,* there is implied a certain sacrifice, like voicing one's personal opinion. and certainly self-aggrandizement.
yes, by caring so very much what you think, paul, these people instantly discredit the philanthropy, which is nothing more than doing good for humanity for the sake of humanity.
boxerboi - 07/26/08 08:02
Dear Paul,

My parents were emotionally unresponsive and demanded an unreasonable level of perfection when I was growing up. As a result I have severe emotional issues and consequently am hunting down anyone who has written anything even remotely less than stellar about me and making them apologize. It's just my way of getting back at my parents (still emotionally absent and demanding).

I am able to go about this by working with organizations related to incurable diseases. This insures that if I am ever attacked, I can matter-of-factly state that I am working hard to help these poor, sick people. This instantly makes you a horrible asshole and dirties your name not mine (so there!).

Please forgive me for having a small dick and no integrity.
Best,
Matt
james - 07/25/08 23:43
I am with leetee. That letter was dripping with pretension.
leetee - 07/25/08 19:55
I find that email sent to you to be pretentious. Does someone really need to brag about how much their fundraisers raise to make themselves look better?

I also find it rather amusing to think that inviting someone into your house to take a look around means there can be no negative comments. Does that mean if we do not like the choice of drapes we must keep it to ourselves for all eternity? What the hell is appalling about it? Is it not ok to have an opinion if it is not in conjuncture with theirs? Looks like it...

07/24/2008 12:33 #45122

Feed me organic lamb chops
"I love you Paul, why don't you take me in the house," love Squiddy.

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leetee - 07/25/08 19:56
OH!??!! How can you give up Squiddy!!!!
paul - 07/25/08 18:23
Someome is coming to adopt him tommorow!
metalpeter - 07/25/08 17:55
he is so cute and really looks like he wants to be picked up.
tinypliny - 07/24/08 22:20
He actually looks a little menacing. :)
flacidness - 07/24/08 15:07
cute kitty. But your still allergic right?

07/24/2008 10:26 #45121

Download my Brain
Category: blogging
You may have read this already as I just split my last journal into two parts. If not check the previous journal entry, especially if you are (e:jon) or (e:imk2)

Blog front
One of my gym friends read my blog and today was the first time I saw him since then. It is so interesting to talk to someone who knows so much about you so fast.

It really is very much like I once spoke about, being able to put your memories on a flash card and having them uploaded into someone else's brain. Too bad reading is the input mechanism because it is so inefficient.

I wonder how many more people would read the (e:paul) saga if they could say, consume it in less than five minutes. Maybe someday that will be possible. Still in general it is such a modern phenomena. I mean previoulsy, I would have had to have written a book with full color photography and then printed it many times to make this feasible. Now I just type and click publish and th e world can eat my ideas.

We got on the topic of chron's and I wonder if people around us thought I was talking about AIDS the way it sounds. The meds, the immune system drama, being sick, etc.

So the person at least knows me from the gym, what is stranger are all the messages I get from strangers about the most isolated moments in my life.

Just a couple weeks ago someone from out of state wrote to say they had designed a logo for a client that looked like the doll that (e:matthew) won for me at the bowling alley (e:paul,32763) way back when and wanted to know if she could buy it. Sadly, we had just gotten rid of it during a purge of all the children's toys now that (e:matthew) works in other people homes after we redid the floors. Anyways, random moments like that are so strange but I enjoy them.

Homefront
On another note, on Monday I picked up my meds at home because my brother works in the pharmacy and brought them home for me. It was the first ime I saw my Dad since (e:mike) told him about his being gay. It was awkward n a way because when he asked if I knew (e:mike)'s friend I said ya for about three years and then I thought about how weird that is. Three years of this person being an intrigal part of (e:mike)'s life but totally off the family chart. Maybe its normal for some other families but my family is so close knit, especially with (e:mike) living at home that it just felt like we were all living this big lie for so long.

Squiddy the Cat
I hand fed it an organic lamb chop. It really enjoyed that.
dragonlady7 - 07/25/08 10:49
It is SO WEIRD when you meet someone who has read years' worth of your blog and totally knows all about everything you do.
I just got interviewed by a reporter who found me through here, and he had been on my Livejournal, and when he came to interview me he walked into my house and knew where everything was and asked me about every single thing I've been doing lately ("Is that the mead you're brewing? Cool! Can I see your cucumber plants? Do you have hot peppers yet? How's that dress you were sewing? It looked like it was coming along well!") and I'm like, Dude, I don't even know your name.

Anyway-- if he writes the article, I'm going to see if I can get him to mention (e:strip). :) Which is why I've been editing my profile and stuff. The story is about size-positivity, but I've been blogging about that here, and he found me because (e:strip) comes up well in Google searches for just about anything, especially if the word "Buffalo" is in the search string.
tinypliny - 07/24/08 22:25
I love that orange dot doll and the pink panther sitting together! :) So cute!
imk2 - 07/24/08 19:22
ugh...the weather's been so shitty that i dont want to go anywhere. i have to go out on friday and then on sunday. if you know me, that is entirely too much stimulation for me. i'm getting old.

07/23/2008 23:52 #45116

Dancing Continued
Category: dancing
Dance Front
This is for (e:jon). When I was up in the great North for the party last weekend I found this flyer. I just looked it up now and it is an all nintendo themed rave but unfortunately, in Ottawa.

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Let me repeat that - a nintendo themed rave

and for (e:imk2) and much closer to home. A party with some of my fav DJs but at Madmoiselles gentlmen's club - seriously that is weird, but I would go if (e:imk2) goes with me.

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Tour of WEMF 2008 on youtube


Mark EG was so insane - I still can't get over his act.

james - 07/24/08 08:49
A nintendo themed rave. That has to be tough. There are going to be a ton of people dressed up as popular characters, but you don't want that, you are more original than that. So you find a lesser character.

And then it hits you, the chef from Burger Time.

07/22/2008 23:07 #45108

Great Day At Work
Category: work
winbind
I got to work with my fav guy to work with at work today. Whenever I work with him I learn a ton of new stuff.

We finally got all the linux servers we need to obey the reality of the Windows domain accounts and groups and keep the freakin uid across each server. This makes getting all my programmers onto the internal dev boxes in their proper groups and managing who has access a breeze. It is now all tied into their actual employee account.

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New Shifts
They also are talking about moving to 4 ten hour days. Or 4 8 hour days plus one 8 hour work from home day. Not sure how I feel about either. When I was at Canisius I worked 10 hour days and while they make the week fly by, they are long.

For me I think the ideal would be four 8 hour days at work with 2 hour after dinner/gym work times from home. I mean I already do that most days anyways.

dancing
Today at the gym I found myself thinking I would have rather been dancing.
boxerboi - 07/23/08 16:40
(e:tinypliny) and I are trying to do the 7am-3pm thing. 4 day workweek sounds good to me, even if they are 10 hour days.
iriesara - 07/23/08 11:12
"Today at the gym I found myself thinking I would have rather been dancing"...
It's comments like this that make me wonder how it took us so long (including you) to figure out you were gay. Love you!
james - 07/23/08 00:32
The beats command us. A smack of us should go dancing real soon.
tinypliny - 07/22/08 23:41
The 8-hour workday at home sounds like a dream to me. I'd much rather work at home and get things done than float about aimlessly through the day at office. Though, I think things are going to change for the better from tomorrow, for me. My office moved and it's a new beginning. :)
tinypliny - 07/22/08 23:36
Isn't it an awesome feeling when you get home or audit the day and feel that you consistently learn interesting new things with someone you work with? I love that feeling. Every time I meet with my advisor, I feel like I am over the moon. She has that effect on me. I always come away with new ideas. It's almost as it she injects new life into me without access to an intravenous line! I need to meet with her more often...

Ah. The reality of windows domains need to be obeyed. Corporate compliance at work? ;-) And it sounds kind of odd that linux servers are doing the actual dirty work of making things obey, of all things, windows domains!

Yeah, dancing is waaaay more fun than exercising. Seriously considering taking the leap and joining (e:Felly)/(e:Lauren)'s Wednesday hip-hop sessions...