omg!


ok. i am working at the hospital today, and my manger just told me that my crush is working today in the ICU. i have no reason to go to the ICU, but to admire his fine man self.


i am looking alright today, so, what do i do?


he makes me so nervous, i can barely put together a sentence. maybe, i should pass by the ICU asm any times as possible. oh my. someone told he broke up with his lady, not that it matters. i will keep him as fantasy!


ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man.


i think i'm just going to be a huge loser and stay in the office and avoid the situation alltogether.... or not. can i have a drink before? i mean, i'm at work, but it's ok, right????

i feel like i never post anymore. not that i don't post, just not as much. anyway, i'm so busy, by the time i get home, it's all i can do to wash my face and brush my teeth.

since i use this place to rant, these things are currently really bothering me:

• the people i work for constantly feed their kids mc donald's. now, i will admit to oreviously eating that shit a few times a year. but, i watched part of "supersize me", and i can honestly say i would rather go hungry than ever eat one of those fries again. something is not right when a french fry lasts a few months in a bell jar, looking the exact same after all that time. wtf is in those things? i will never allow my chldren to eat that. wendy's maybe and in n out burger, and some other crap food, but never mc donald's, ever.

• so many people seem to spend less time with their children than they do at work. i vow to never have children unless it is the other way around for me.

• i'm beginning to question the consumption of alcohol. now that i never drink, the thought of a hangover makes me not even want any. plus, so many of my relatives are messed up because of it. what would you consider an alcoholic? someone who has more than two drinks a night? or someone who only drinks heavily on the weekends? i definitely wont stop drinking totally (plus i know ill drink a lot when i'm in town next weekend(maybe)), but i've been dd recently and when i see all of the drunkies and i'm not drunk, it's kinda gross. plus, i feel a whole lot healthier.

• wells fargo can kiss my ass. i had my bank card stolen, they used it, and then i thought it was resolved. then they send my some dumb form and say i have ten days, don't even give me ten days, and then take the money out of my account again. seriously, i am so over their lame ass charges. it's like they are waiting to throw some fine at me every chance they get. i hate corporations.

anyway. i am supposed to work friday, but i think i am going to take at least most of the day off to see granny. i feel so guilty, but the only free time i have is before 7am and after 9pm, and she is def not up at those times.

i think i have been seeing someone for the longest amount of time in over a year. we are pretty different, but he is a pretty nice guy. i wonder if i am capable of dating right now, i mean anything more than a fling, and who knows what he is thinking, but im just gonna go with it. plus, valentine's day is next week, and thankfully i will be headed on a red-eye to blo, so we can just avoid that altogether.

i really, really hate dealing with the bank, and i am not looking forward to the yelling i will have to do tomorrow to get this straightened out.

have to go, boy calls!

but seriously, is there anyone out there that thinks the superbowl is a waste of time?


i do.



and people think im crazy.


i don't get it, maybe its just another guy thing. so glad im not a guy.

that one day everyone will love things like,

"my so-called life", and the fact that it is broadcast on abc.com, as much as they love the lame-ass superbowl.

really people, get over it.


dats right, i be hatin.


maybe i just have absolutely no man in me. i mean, there's been men in me, but no man in me.


i think i want to just chill out and drink wine tomorrow, and watch the series, "plant earth". i just got netflix again, and i really feel like it is the best way to go. or not to go, to any event realted to the superbowl.


p.s. if i see one more stretch hummer limo, i am going to barf, or run, they might have crystal adorned grenades in them. speaking of which, the club i "tried" going to tonight kept yelling out, "fire marshall! if you guys don't get back, we are going to shoot!" i so should have made a video with my phone. any talk of violence, and im out. peace be with you as well, i am going to go home, and have my private dance partay and a glass of wine!

my scuured of superbowl face!

i have decided i cannot come back to blo until global warming really settles in. its about 45 here now and blustery, and i am dying. i'm dying.

i cannot take the cold. brrrrrrr.

it's amazing how much i am loving school right now. i actually look forward to class(except spanish, which is like 4 hours long and awful). i really enjoy my professors, and respect them. teachers are just such cute and loving and great people! yay!

my next goal is to get a full time job as a teaching assistant. even if i only work 20 hours, i can get full benefits, which would be so great. i just have to figure out how to work around my other jobs, and such.

anyway, it is so hard to find time for anyone/anything lately. school and work are great, but so consuming.

i need to make more time for the fam, esp granny. she is not well, and my time with her is precious. for a sick old lady, she's such a little sparkplug.

plus, i have been seeing someone. but i don't want to get too much into that. i will say, it's good times. ;O)