This may be a little TMI...



Then again you're still reading. I just realized that I went the entire month of Febuary without having any. It's not like I didn't have the opportunity it is just I was like "Ah, I'm going to stay home and study" type of thing. This is pretty scary. It's not normal or right. I'm only young once and I'm just wasting it being a "Blah" bump on the log. How am I gong to be when I'm really older? Will I even bother?

Maybe it's just that I won't want to be "married" at the moment in a realtionship but then again what I'm totally lacking and I admit it is the even basic iota of effort on my part. I've always seemed to fall on the side of introvert on the spectrum but lately this has just been ridiculous. I could just blame the weather and the avoidance of the bad driving conditions but again this is just not right. I need to do something.

It could be that my schedule @ work is going to get messed around and I may have to go in on some weekend hours. Yea, take my downtime on weekends for granted when you have them and agonize in pain when they're goine. Not a good philisophy in life I can say...

At this point I'm just worried about my lack of "drive." I hope it's not a sign of something else, i.e. depression. What to do? Go to Canada and Lundy's Lane and jump start some physical desire?


Because I'm not saying in this post that I need to get some. What I'm saying is I need to get the WANT to get some...for some reason for the past month I've been toally uninterested and that need to change soon.

Transmission was a pretty good time on Saturday. I ended up running into a couple of surprising people that I just didn't expect to see. In all it was just good to be able to go out and surprisingly run into people. In all that was just a great lift. Being able to dance my ass off to the music of Morrissey and Johnny Marr with once a while sticking on the floor for the Cure was just a blast. I don't think I have exerted myself like that in months. I need to do more of that if I want to get back into "game shape."


Other than that my school schedule is a bit calmer at the moment thanks to the end Stats. The only thing that ties me up is my Monday night class. This is a bit of a problem since I am just feeling the need to go back to Vegas very soon. I just don't know what it is about that place but I just feel drawn to it. I was looking at flights earlier tonight when I was finished with my class and even a 3 day bender is looking really good if I can get the right price on airfare which seems pretty close to impossible these days.

That and I just don't know what is going on with T* we hung out for a bit @ transmission but for some reason I just got a weird vibe. I guess that's what happens when $ comes into play for things I can't really discuss. At this point I'm just looking at it as an acid test, if things get reallly dicy then it may be time to just cut my losses. As Wall St says, "There's always a bull market somewhere."

Other than that I'm just really excited that I secured myself soem tickets fo all the sessions of the NCAA tournament coming to town in 2.5 weeks. I can't wait to see my friends from Virginia that are coming up for the national spotlight event.

I'm just feeling a bit alive again. I spent most of the weekend in bed moping around and just not able to get motivated to do anything. Finally I think I may have snapped out of whatever was slowing me down.

Then again it just may be the realization that I am geting back a fat return and a new Desktop may be in immediate order. Basically I have come to the conculusion that I woudl prefer a Apple Desktop and a cheap ass PC laptop. Originally I was going to do it the other way around but since I'm getting all the money I paid back I can easilly afford an Apple. Life is way too short I might was well enjoy it.

Yea, I almost missed it but I just caught it as I was hitting the post button. I've been on (e:strip) for exactly 1 year!!! Wow, I can't believe it has been that long. It seems like that span of time really brought quite a bit of changes. Honestly, I have to say more so than I have experience in past years.

Here's to excellerated change for the first time in many many years in my life. Heck, it hasn't been pleasant but at least time has felt like it has been flowing instead of beign sedatary.

I'm heading out tonight to the Transmission Dance Party. It's The Smiths v. The Cure the best one of the year musically. Yea I'm going to be the oldest guy in the place but it's Moz v. Robert Smith...

As I was driving home this afternoon I found Randi Rhodes on AM 1520 much to my surpise! What a brilliant move as she was the only show worth listening to 1270 when it was the local Air America affiliate.

Now I'm reunited with my favorite Jewish MILF ;-)

I took today off to study for my first audit exam. After exhausting the study areas @ school I decided to go the my local starbucks in N.F. across from the Casino. After about a half hour, bad loud music, creepy NYC Real Esate types I decided to go to Dunkin' instead and stock up.

I was slightly delayed by a nice family that definantly was not from around here. A nice midwestern looking couple with 4 kids I would say 6,4,3 and 18months and all with blonde hair. The nice wife asked me where the aquarium was and I told her down the street (Rt. 62) to the leftish when the road ends.

I hope their minivan made it OK through Little Italy and it was actually open. All I can say is good think I was buying my 24 oz coffee since the girl behind the counter didn't have a clue where the aquarium was. Heck I'm almost positive that most of the people workiing in Niagara Falls don't have a clue about anything, especially the only semi-family tourist attraction. Given there's only one thing to do in this city and that's just to "blow your brians out" at a second rate indian casino.



Ok back to studying...