Well, bottom line: acne sucks.

I have been dealing with it all of my life, with the help of a dermatologist on and off now for about 15 years. I just can't win. So, since my face didn't get better on crazy drugs, I decided to go the proactiv route. It worked for about a year, and then stopped all of a sudden. I am giving one more system a last shot....the Murad system.... and if it doesn't work, I am thinking I might get a chemical peel or soemthing. I can't do this shit anymore. My skin is nasty, and I take better care of it than just about any fucking person I know. WTF? I really am putting faith into the Murad system. I have heard wonders about it....so I am going to hope and pray to the gods above that it works. Acne sucks balls. big massive ones.


Sophia's birthday was so much fun! I bought her a Juicy Couture collar charm....it's so cute. I got her and Eli party hats and cupcakes and doughnuts (all dog stuff of course). It was so cute. But she ended up having a massive asthma attack and I freaked out. But she is okay now.






So, now I get to go off to 6 hours of infectious disease classes. It's a wonderful thing....to learn about the things I love, but it really sucks with you have class back to back from 4 to 10. FUCK.

So today Daniel and I booked our flights home for May. I know it's still like 5 months away, but I am already dreading the flight. I HATE flying...I never used to, but that was when I had the occasional flight, without the dog. Now I travel all the time, and with sophia. I love sophia more than anyting, but it is just such a hassle to have to deal with. People are such assholes and just don't get why I am traveling with my dog. My dog=my life.

Then after my may trip home, I will be coming back at the end of july as well to bring my brothers back to buffalo. They will be staying with me for a few weeks in july....I am quite excited.

In March, my sister stacy is coming out. I am super excited about that as well. She is so easy going and will be fun for her to come. I won't feel rushed to have to show her everything....she would be happy just hanging out at my pool. Thank god.

Tomorrow is Sophia's 2nd birthday. I can't believe it. she is the cutest thing in the whole wide world. I love her soooooooooooo much. I am taking her to this puppy boutique today to get a special doggy birthday cake and possibly a cute new outfit. She deserves it.

I went to this great outlet mall today....everything I bought fit me like a glove....and I never even tried the items on at the mall! What a wonderful turn out....


So there was this mega sale at the calvin klein store. I thought I might check it out, and my lord they had some great items for great prices. So, I started filling up my airs with sweaters, tees, jeans, camisoles, belts, you name it....and then I found this BEAUTIFUL bag. I wanted it so badly. AND THERE WAS A SIGN THAT SAID ALL HANDBAGS 70% OFF. so i was so excited. It was a $200 bag, but I figured i could afford a $60 bag. So off the cash register I went. Low and behold there was a young lady in front of me buying another bag from the same table mine came from. it wasn't ringing up on sale, so the sales lady just made a price adjustment and went on her merry way. I get the register, and of course mine doesn't' ring up on sale either. So, she tells me she can not give me the bag for $60 and that it was not on sale. I took her to show here where I found the bag (where another 6 or 7 more sat). She was like, hmmmmm, let me get the manager. So the manager came over and was like, o no, that bag isn't on sale, but I showed him the sign. He was like, hmmm, yea that is interesting. Let me get the head manager. The head manager....the bitch that she was, was like, o no honey. That bag is not on sale. The sign is referring to this bag (a super ugly and hidious bag i might add). And i said to her, well, ma'am, with all due respect, this sign is very misleading because it says that all bags on this table are for sale. She was like, im sorry for the misunderstanding. I was so upset, that I left all the items on the table and left....

....i mean, they couldn't give me a price adjustment considering they did so for the lady in front of me? They couldn't do it under the premise of realizing that the sign was misleading, and then move the sign or merchandise so other customers would not be so sad that they could not have the beautiful calvin klein bag. I mean...poop.


In the end. what does it matter? I mean, it's just a hand bag that I don't need. I mean, there are people out there that don't have food more or less a beautiful bag. I shouldn't complain....

but it's just a reiteration of how I feel the world is going to hell due to incompetance. DO YOUR JOB AND DO IT RIGHT. please people.

oh. and happy birthday paul!

So. I am on this kick to get a great bod. i bought the carmen elecktra striptease work out video and realzed that our DVD player is fucked up. so sad. i wanted to do it. and now i can't. booooooo.


i bought some vitamins today. and some healthy snack foods. all part of my plan to try to get healthy for a change. my abs and legs hurt today after yesterdays work out. ugh!

In other news....my financial aid has yet to be fixed. You know how giant organizations such as a university work.....they can't get the simplest things done right. I have called a billion times with cumulative time being on the phone probably resting right around the 4 hour mark; also, a cumulative total of about 15 transfers because no one can tell me why they can't just change my residency to Nevada residency. is that so freakin hard? JUST DO YOUR JOB! I hate to complain, but I am so sick of incompetency with everyone and everything. If you are being fuckin paid, do what you are paid to do. if you can not do so, get help from one who can help. or quit. either one will do just fine for me.

I heard the snow in buffalo is falling hard. My mom actually said it was beautiful. I wish I could be home at least for one day. One day is all that i would need....and then I could come back to Las Vegas and the semi-warm weather.

Danny bought me another pair of shoes today. They are these really cute sneakers (I usually never wear sneakers, but these I can make an exception for).

thats all for now folks!